185 days - You can kiss your sexual dysfunctions goodbye

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couple in bedIt's hard to believe It's already been 6 months. What started as a quest to satisfy my now, ex-gf, had turned into a new foundation for a lifestyle worth living. Nofap, is not a magic pill. It will not 'give' you any special powers or abilities. However, it is an experience that changes who you are, starting with the mind and continuing throughout the body. It rewires everything from how you become aroused to how you treat temptation and self-control.

Like a muscle waiting to be worked, your mind is a powerful thing. It has the ability to dictate your willpower, ability to focus under stress, how your body reacts to sexual stimulus, and more. With nofap, you begin to realize how much of your life is not under your own control, but controlled by how you feel. We tend to seek comfort over discomfort, even at the expense of growth and new experience.

When I first started Nofap, I was looking to increase my libido to keep up with my GF (at the time). I was not able to have sex much more than once or twice a week. I looked forward to watching porn as it fed my infatuation for women with big tits. It was a mental masturbation that I craved. It became more difficult to get hard-ons for my petite A-cupped cutie of a woman, despite the rest of her body being perfect in my eyes. When I began this journey in January, I encountered many failed attempts. Once I became single, I PMO'd for my last time, I had finally had enough.

I have experienced many ups and downs. Flatlines and Wetdreams being some of the most mystifying. I had wetdreams weekly, at random. I saw this as my body trying to continue it's previous ejaculation patterns of 1-3x / week. Over time the occurrences became less frequent. After about 8 weeks, my sexual craving had come to a calming stand still. Flat line was my fear. I was worried that My libido had dropped even lower. It wasn't until I had my first sexual encounter (8-10 weeks from start) that I realized I was more sexually charged than ever, and have yet to experience ED since.

I was able to fuck for 6 hours with short breaks every 60 minutes or so. Luckily I had been practicing kegels for 10+ minutes a day, 3x a week. Reading books on tantra had also helped rewire my mind's depiction of what sex is really about. By the time I had my first sex session since my breakup my fear of PE had been abolished! There were several reasons for this:

  1. My sexual focus had been reoriented from mental to physical/emotional- meaning, instead of getting aroused at the sight of big tits, I was aroused by the ways my woman would communicate her pleasure. In other words, I was focused on HER pleasure, and almost forgetful about my own. Granted, I felt great, but watching her enjoy herself was so much more enjoyable than anything I was feeling. I believe this to be the masculine/feminine rolls at their finest. It was simply captivating.
  2. I had developed the capability of literally stopping orgasms. After about an hour or so of sex, If I felt the urge to cum, I was able to squeeze my PC muscle so tight, It would literally bring and orgasm to a halt, or maybe just release a couple drops. AWESOME!

It's fascinating. What I had interpreted as 'flatlines' was actually a redirection of energy. As if my body was giving up on sending energy to sexual craving and redirecting it toward other things I felt were more relevant in the moment. I was able to focus on my studies, art, and diet with much higher intensity and determination.

When It came time for sex, I would be sexually charged by touch rather than a mental movie playing or mental antisipation. In fact, at this point mental sex movies are almost non-existent. Women are less intimidating because on some level I stopped viewing them as unattainable sex-objects and more like people- sisters, friends, mothers and lovers. I am able to speak with a woman and became aroused by her emotional expression rather than solely on her physique. Rest assured, I still get a jolt from how gorgeous they look, but there is no longer a perception that they are outside of reality, as they were in my world of internet porn. Porn made them a purely physical object that was outside of my personal entitlement, as are ferrari's, rolex's, yachts, etc. You'll never find me in a ferrari dealership, and you'd never find my flirting up a supermodel in starbucks. The fact that I could only view them via computer screen was building block to the version of reality that they are not 'real'-the idea that these things can only be found in movies, or video games.

Since my experience with nofap, I've come to realize that life is what make it, but only if you choose to create it. If you are constantly seeking comfort, you'll live a life of mediocrity, likely to be full of rich-tasting foods, sexual stimulation (from yourself), and mental masturbation (from your tv). What does that mean? you work, you get fat on the couch, and sex is something you hope happens, while you hopeless fall in love with every semi-attractive girl you come in contact with.

Since I've started nofap, I realized what it means to be dedicated. To overcome disabilities through practice and willpower, by breaking through discomfort and internalizing what it right by YOUR OWN STANDARDS, not the ones dictated to you by society. With this understanding, I've developed a lifestyle that revolves around health, fitness, sports, knowledge, art, and social success. All these things take blood, sweat, and tears, but the rewards are well worth reaping. For once life is finally worth every moment, but I'm not here to say that any of it was easy.

Nofap is a part of an awesome lifestyle. It provides a much richer experience than jerking it to midget porn ever could. You can kiss your sexual dysfunctions goodbye, although diet, exercise (kegels), and sexual habits all play their role. Find the depth in sex, and you'll find the depth in women. With an attitude of indifference and abundance real women will be able to flow through you life with plenty of pleasure to be had along the way (for both parties).

The nofap journey is an unpredictable one. It has it's rough patches, and fear of PE, ED, flatlines, and wetdreams, are all part of the process. TRUST in yourself. Trust in your nature, and understand when you remove the man-made poisons that are disrupting your natural experience of sex, your entire sexual experience will be revolutionized and reverted back to it's purest of essence.

Goodluck nofappers, a fulfilling life awaits you all.

TLDR: been around the block with nofap. It's good shit. Ask me anything!

LINK - 6 Months: No longer a challenge, just a habit. PE, ED, flatlines, wetdreams, lifestyle and more

Comments

I have to agree about making mindset changes. Even though I haven't really gone more than 9 days so far in my life without some kind of relief, and by this either my wife or MO, I did learn it is definably is a mindset. I only looked at porn once for 2-4 min in the first 120 days, and never again went back to it. Being married and having a wife very interested in sex I wasn't able to go more than 3 days at the max with out sex. Sex meaning either PIV or MO. Yes I did have issues with ED when I first started in August. I had been getting progressively worse since Feb of 2010. We got HS internet in 2009 and that's when stuff really started getting worse. I edged for hours for days on end if I wasn't working. If I only PMOd once a day I usually could get an erection in the evening and or next morning via morning wood. By August of 2012 I was dead. I remember trying to put on a condom, and it was pathetic. We were trying to bring back my sensitivity by using a condom. We didn't have a clue about porn being a problem, and the fact I had been using my hand all these years. I will say that somewhere around 2000 I started using the Wal Mart super glide stuff, so maybe that had something to do with the fact I didn't lose a lot more sensitivity that i did. I don't really know for sure. It looked like little head of a turtle trying to poke out of its shell. We put the condom over my glans and tried to stimulate my phallus, and nothing. She tried to suck on me with the condom on to draw the blood into it, and nothing. It was as if someone turned off the water. I was freaking out. It was at this time I discovered YBOP. To just go no PMO was out of the question, without telling her of my lifetime addiction. (Read my Story). I did quit Porn and minimized my masturbation to only once every three days, or if she wanted sex. I didn't push sex because I wanted as much time as I could to go without. It seemed the longer i went without porn, even though I was having orgasms, the better stuff got. I immediately started deprogramming myself off of fantasy. I bought a flesh light and never since the first week of Sept of 2013 has a hand been used to make me orgasm. My wife does lightly stroke me in order prepare me for the condom, yet now as I write this she doesn't even need to do that. Soooooo, night before last we made passionate love. I was able to sustain an erection for 45 min before she orgasm-ed. She has been suffering from low libido. Because she was done, I pulled out, yet I am sure I could have continued. She asked if I had orgasm-ed and I said no. So she then removed the condom and after 3 min of PIV I was a happy camper. The condom thing has greatly increased my longevity and duration. At 57 I am experiencing stuff I never did in my life. I am on 3 times daily 50 mg of beta blocker (metropolo) and still lift weights and do cardio for 1 hr per day. I mentioned that you cant use Viagra with beta blockers, then yesterday my doctor informed my you can. I don't need to now, and look forward to reducing my bp back losing weight and exercise. I agree with you, that if you set your mind to it, and of course the Kegel stuff is awesome for building endurance and strength in the manhood. I work it ant the movies, while watching football, while eating dinner, while driving, and really its so easy to do without drawing attention, unless your going for the big 5 min sphincter record. So the next morning she encouraged me to not let the morning wood go neglected. Again we had an awesome 30 min or so. Yes I used the condom. Now get this, I had the chaser effect during the day and twice more used the flesh light with a condom. No fantasy just enjoying the feeling. Then last night she wanted to engage and I was panicked after already 4 orgasms in less than 24 hrs, she would be disappointed. Well, I didn't use the condom, and we were able to enjoy a glorious time again. Well then this morning, my oh my I can't explain what is going on. I will not say i am healed,and even considered not writing this because this is not linear. After 40 + years of dysfunctional sex and relationships, I am more thankful than ever for my wife and YBOP because it has changed my life. Today I will take the flesh light back to the mini storage and then put the key in the mail so i cant access it for at least 3 days. I know that I don't need to M and O anymore to see if stuffs working. Just driving to the post office this morning and thinking of my cute wife of 33 years, well I'm baaaack!!

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