Age 27 - ED cured, back in school, have a girlfriend

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loversI started Nofap around 2 years ago. I'm a 27 year old male, and I had been experiencing ED issues with women for around 5 years. At my worst I was waking up, taking a bong hit, popping an adderall, and edging/masturbating/searching for and downloading porn for sometimes literally the whole day.

I was in deep depression and failing out of school. (I ended up taking a leave of absence and moving home, which is a different story.)

On the rare occasions I went to a bar and actually convinced a girl to come home with me, my dick was completely dead, adding yet another night of humiliation. At my worst, I truly in my deepest heart of hearts saw no light at the end of the tunnel and thought that maybe I would be better off dead. The porn I was searching for was becoming progressively weirder and unhealthy which just added another layer to my shame.

I'm writing this post now from my girlfriend of six months' apartment. I'm back in school, doing well. My ED problem is virtually nonexistent. I've had sex close to everyday, sometimes twice or three times a day for probably around 4 months. I'm off drugs, and I have renewed self confidence. How did this all happen? Incrementally. How many times did I fail in getting here? Many, many times.

Do I feel invincible? Not at all. I'm still searching this forum, looking for incentive not to look at porn. It's kind of sad, really. But you can't have your cake and eat it too, if you were once completely addicted to cake. Believe me, I've tried. So there it is, some advice from the "other side".

Right now is where, two years ago, I dreamed I could be. It's not a fairy-tale. It's real life. And if I want to protect it, I have to stay vigilant. My advice is stick to nofap, but also try to change other areas of your life. And if you just HAVE to masturbate, do it without porn or fantasy. If you feel no shame after you blow your load, you're doing it right.

Anyway, that's my 2 cents. I wish you all good luck.

Some advice from the other side.

by candy_colored_clown

 

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Hey man, your story really hit home for me. 6 months right now without PMO...the only problem is that now I'm at the point of, well what do I do now? Like you mentioned, if I can't have a healthy, normal relationship with a real woman, then why even bother with it all? Again, I don't know if I have a shallow approach to women because of my past or if it just "clicks" one day but I'm getting pretty bummed out about the whole deal.