First of all, I have no badge. I didn't have a reddit account at all until just now, so excuse me for that. But anyway, I think this is my seventh week of the challange (give or take a bit), and I have to say it's worked wonders in my life.
Old time Nofapper here; thanks partly to NoFAP I've been from a completely forever-alone fellow into a nice 6-month relationship with a woman I plan to marry next year. Long story short; I was so into pxxrn that every time I watched a X movie I said to my self.."oh boy I wanna do that!" and "I wanna twist her like that!" and "I'll also put my winnie in there!" and "I wanna move my waist as FAST as that Asian folk!" Dream came true, and eventually I had a gf.
I have made it. This is my first post, and I promised myself I would post a success story as a way of thanking this forum. It's been almost two years since I started being a fapstronaut, and it has been the best choice I've ever taken. Like many of you, I was depressed, paranoid, suicidal, anxious, fat, had no self esteem and a weak voice. Approaching women was a no-go. And hadn't had a girlfriend in seven years (!). Two days ago, I had sex multiple times with my new girlfriend, was hard all along, could get hard after just 10-15 minutes after the last orgasm.
I've gone 91 days now without masturbation or porn, so I'll try to write a little now about my experience. My counter is at 91, but I had sex on day 38, and I felt like I was "using" the girl I had sex with the same way I had used porn. I felt that it set me back. So now I plan to go to 128 days, which will mean 90 days of "hard mode." I definitely intend to go beyond that, but as far as the complete celibacy thing goes, I'm not sure.
I can't say that it has been easy. I first started NoFap 90 days ago due partially to curiosity but mainly to stop watching porn. When I started NoFap I felt that I watched more pornography than I should have. I never had porn induced ED or got into anything fucked up. I just felt that porn was bad to watch and a waste of time.
I've been working on my recovery for years now, since before /r/NoFap existed. This isn't the first time I've made it to 90 days. Unfortunately, it's not even the second or third. I have failed many, many times. The majority of my "streaks" during recovery have lasted a week, maybe two, before a humiliating and seemingly inevitable relapse.
Well, I finally made it, and like all of you already know, it was not easy. Like most, PMO was a cycle that started when I was pretty young, and because of that, it was incredibly hard to stop. As the years went by, I felt less and less guilty about this "habit" - everyone does it right? That's where I have to thank this sub-reddit; I was exposed to the truth, a truth that only a real man can comprehend and learn to accept - that these "harmless" series of videos were ultimately a huge factor into why I couldn't look people in the eye, why I always kept my head down, and why I was so damn nervous with girls. Not anymore.
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