Greatest achievement yet...Last night there was no slack at all, got hard... Put it in... Lasted awhile... It's great to get my confidence back, it's the first time in years that I wasn't worried AT ALL about losing my wood.
This has been a very tough journey. Last year February, I was paranoid, suicidal, very sick.. everything was black and white because of my Internet and porn addiction. I couldn't get it up to have sex with any attractive woman.
When i started my journey I hadn't set any goals or any plans for how long was i going to be on this journey, I knew that fapping was taking a lot of energy and self-respect away, and when I started I was already in a pretty low point in my life.
It's the first time since the end of 2012 that I achieve 30 days fapfree in hard mode, so I thought it was worth to share with you my experience and give some advices to whoever might feel his/her symptoms fit with mine.
I set myself a hundred day challenge because I'd had enough of feeling scared. I woke up every day and I was paralysed with dread. I'd lost control of my life. I didn't know where my impulses were going to lead me next.
I'm going to say a few things regarding my porn and video game addiction. I believe that every time we relapse it is because we decided our reason for quitting wasn't good enough. Every little decision shapes our minds literally.
My penis [was] rendered useless with excessive masturbation and deathgrip. I've had a problem with erection for the last 5 years and it had a big impact on my life, to the point where I would deliberately avoid situations that could lead to sex just so I wouldn't embarrass myself.
I am so happy after past weekend. After all this time reading /NoFap, searching for succes stories that would prevent me from losing hope, this is the only way to thank all of you that kept me going through all of this new life.
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