110 days - (ED), I was consistently sedated, and had a hard time getting attracted to women

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couple smilingWhen I first started, I was a chronic fapper, usually at least 2-3 times a day, occasionally 4-6 if I had nothing to do. I would fap to the point of actually having no ejaculate upon orgasm. I was consistently sedated, and had a hard time getting attracted to women, finding it very difficult to get an erection when I was spending time with them, which brings me to my next point.

I didn't hang out with girls. Had terrible anxiety around them, never felt confident or attractive, and they knew it. I pretty much resigned myself to not getting involved with girls because rejection was so painful. It was a pretty horrible spot to be in.

So yeah, 110 days, in, I have my first girlfriend. Is she attracted to me because nofap turned me into some kind of macho man? No, not at all. It just gave me the very slight confidence boost to actually make things happen. To push things forward. Am I still nervous and anxious? Yes, but it's not so all-encompassing anymore. Whereas prior to nofap, things were usually just as painful and awkward as I imagined them to be in my mind, things are never as bad nowadays. The anxiety has become more clear in my mind.

When you get your first taste of your "superpowers" as they call it, I think it's important to keep in mind that the effects (as far as I've experienced) will not stay at that level forever. Yes, you will be confident and less anxious, but you aren't gonna be Superman flying around seducing girls everywhere. From what I've been reading, that kind of thing is due to a boost in testosterone that peaks and eventually levels out again. However, when it levels out, it'll be a little bit higher than before, which is what gives you that slight confidence boost and lessened anxiety in the long run.

It's important to stop fantasizing. This is extremely difficult, but for a while there it was really killing me and stopping me from making any more progress. Luckily, I've been off it for about 20 days now (had one relapse after an anxiety bender), and I can definitely feel withdrawal symptoms. I'm cranky, pissed, and most definitely more anxious than normal. But I'm confident that it's just a result of the fantasy withdrawal, so I'm going to keep at it. I'll be sure to let the rest of you know how it works out for me.

As of right now, I have no plans to begin masturbating again. Honestly the urge never even crosses my mind at this point. Not masturbating has become a habit. I've heard of some people saying that occasional masturbation can help with the kind of "male periods" that some guys go through, but until I get a little more solid evidence under my belt, I'm gonna stay off it.

So yeah, this is it. Might be a little disorganized as I'm having a bit of a crappy day, but guys, for real. This shit works. Don't throw your life away for something silly like pornography.

If it worked for me, it can work for you.

Thanks.

LINK - +110 day Nofap and ~20 day nofantasy

by Betterman92