90 days - Had delayed ejaculation, was hooked on shemale porn

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guy noticing girlWhat drove me to Nofap?

I use to be able to last longer than four hours wearing a condom. After years of PMO I discovered that sex with condom made me feel absolutely nothing, even ED happened one time (it was a very big deal for me). I could feel sex without condom, but it wasn't the same as it was before (when I was 18). I didn't feel the intense pleasure as if I could blow up any second, I just felt a minor thing. I knew something was wrong, and I kind of knew it had something to do with daily PMO. I tried stopping but I wasn't sure if it would help, so I didn't.

Not until I discovered Gary Wilson by accident.

What turned me on before in comparison to now? (best be careful while reading, skip it if it makes you edge)

Regular porn didn't do it anymore, I looked into all sorts of different women, different positions, different holes, it just didn't suffice anymore. Someone trolled me by sending a shemale porn video, and that did it. A woman that wasn't really a woman, the idea turned me on. This fetish stuck on me for many years (maybe five or six). It didn't go stale because I took pleasure in hunting for shemales that looked exactly like girls, with or without male genitalia. I knew it was hurting my sexuality, but I just continued. I pondered over whether or not I was gay, but I just didn't feel attracted to men as I did to women. Women are the most beautiful thing on earth and I was missing it. After three months of nofap, if a girl so much as glance at my general direction it turns me on. Not only that, they feel like magnets to me. I'm extremely drawn to women and I want to interact and touch them. When I saw women before nofap, I would walk by thinking, "I don't care about you, bye". Today is the completely opposite, I'm drawn to most women in a primitive way. I absolutely love it. Porn doesn't exist for me anymore.

What other changes have you noticed?

I ain't going to say I'm anxiety free. But it did diminish like 80% from what it use to be. At this pace I will be anxiety free pretty soon. So, let me make a little list to make this easier on the eye.

  • Much less anxiety
  • Boner anytime
  • Confidence
  • Desire to meet people and to go out (I wasn't as SAP as some of you, but if you are extremely SAP and three months doesn't cut it, hang in there)
  • 100% increase in sensibility
  • Women detection radar (every girl within a thirty yard radius will be noticed immediately)
  • 100% increase in focus (no more ADHD like symptoms, now I can finish things I start)

During this time I went in and out of a relationship, made new friends, went through new experiences and I lived much more than I would have done so before.

What happened when I fapped?

When I fapped every day (several times per day), if someone called me to go out, I would immediately dismiss it. Even though I thought women were extremely attractive, I felt zero desire to try anything with them, because I was always 'satisfied' sexually. As a teenager I went through a period where I fapped about ten times a day (and this is no exaggeration, sometimes it would be more than that), as I grew older, it got to a steady three to four times a day, every day. I had panic attacks for a while, then anxiety attacks, then extreme ADHD symptoms (where I couldn't focus on anything, abandoned everything I started). I felt guilty after every PMO session. People said I shouldn't feel guilty, and that everything porn-related is normal, but I felt a strong sense of shame that I couldn't help.

Bottom line

Changed my life from head to toe (I literally bulked up, because I started going to the gym as well). I didn't get super powers like someone of you claim, but I definitely gained a newly found (or re-found) love for women, especially the delicate ones, makes me want to embrace and protect them. Guys, it's damn worth it, don't give up. Changes may seem very slow and almost non-existential at first but if you compare to what you were before you started, you will notice hell of a lot difference after three months.

LINK - 90 days reporting in. (Brutally honest)

by nofapster9000