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I’m smiling as I write the title :). Family, I’m so happy I started NoFap. I’m never going back to my own ways, I can’t see myself beating it because of how better I am. I used to be a very anxious person, couldn’t talk to people well, depressed, not confident, never smiled, negative, dull, looked like a zombie, very tired, and I beat it every day.

First week was very hard because I didn’t see the benefits. I did notice on day 7 what happens haha.

I’ve noticed an increased amount of attention I’m getting from women, and I’ll say what (I) think it’s because of, I think it’s because of being sort of spiritually aligned. Because porn brings bad thoughts and vibrations. It’s a distortion of nature. I’ve had girls act awkward and silly in a cute and funny way which made me kinda smirk. I’ve had women stare at me, old women too. I remember at the pool this very old lady was eyeing me and I couldn’t stop myself from looking at her tits, (Don’t judge) and I was getting super horny. I’m 18 btw.

I have increased confidence. I can look people in the god damn fucking eye like a regular human being now, because I’m not jacking it and have no inward shame.

I did NoFap because I had trouble with, well a lot, but mostly women and social interactions. I’m only on 1 month and while I’m not a super alpha, I’m not a super beta anymore, forgive me for using those words guys hahaha.

Ahh, less acne! Probably not directly from NoFap, actually none of these benefits I’ve listed could actually be Directly from NoFap, but hey, the last 5 years have not been this exciting.

I work out every day, 50 push ups in the morning, and 50 throughout the day. I go to the gym atleast 4 days a week, 15 mins calves everyday (treadmill at level 15.0, speed 2.4 – 2.8) I swim after the gym. I take hot and cold showers everytime i shower (2 times a day)

I say daily affirmation twice a day morning and night.(I make sure to feel strong emotions while saying them) I write my goals unrealistically and have them be current, Ex: “I love speaking to others.” I’m an introvert… “My business makes $1 million each year”.

I meditate 10 – 20 mins each morning, trying to slowly get it to 1 hour! Each morning I watch a Tai Lopez 67 step video. I wake up at 4:30 so I have enough time for my success ritual. I do 50 pushups and 50 squats in the morning. I make my bed everyday. I log my dreams in an app called Awoken, and my dreams have gotten so much more vivid, it’s unexplainable about dreams.

Oh and today, I approached this college chick at the pool and asked her what she was reading, it was a pharmaceutical book, big AF. Before NoFap I wouldn’t have had the courage to even think about communicating with her.

I know this is only day 30, and I have a long way to go before I truly become a changed person. I can’t wait to see what happens at day 60, then 90. And this is now a way of life, I do NOT see myself going back.

Another thing, around day 14 i tried to suppress? Repress? Some thoughts about looking at women and thinking of them. I told myself “I deny the existence of women.” Not in a misogynistic way! And I noticed girls at my school were swinging their heads to look at me. I don’t really feel like doing that now because it was hard. But I guess I could do it again, maybe.

I still look at women but in a healthier way like “Damn she looks good, I wanna get to know her.” And before NoFap i just saw women as objects to fuck (beta)

So here goes to an adventure of semen retention. [This is my third streak.] First was 8, then 14.

LINK - 30 Dagverslag

By Pontydreaux