One of my main triggers after giving up porn has been these damn fantasies, some of them would last just a few seconds, but others when my brain is “idle”, like when trying to fall asleep, and often involved long detailed fantasies.
It would rarely lead to full blown Fapping, (more like a fondling, or what I would refer to as mind-masturbation.
Ek is op dag 62 van my herlaai en verrassend vervaag die fantasieë nou, en ek raai dit is die neuropathways in my breinherstrukturering en roep nie uit vir daardie klein spuit Dopamine nie.
Op 'n manier is dit soos om 'n 'ou vriend' te laat gaan, een wat ek met mense rondom my kon besoek, en niemand het ooit 'n idee gehad nie. In my vroeë stadium van herlaai sou ek steeds na die bekende "gelukkige plek" gaan, alhoewel ek van beter geweet het, maar omdat ek al tien jaar of meer gefantaseer het, was dit 'n moeilike plek om op te hou besoek aflê.
Daar is dus 'n bietjie melancholie hier, maar ek merk dit nou op omdat hulle vervaag dat my brein (uiteindelik) genesing is.
Ek wou net hierdie wonderlike deurbraak deel wat ek ervaar! As iemand anders dieselfde probleme met fantasieë het, kan dit 'n rukkie neem, maar hulle sal verdwyn en sterf solank u dit nie verder voer nie!
LINK -Die fantasieë word swakker!
By True2Myself
Voorlopige pos - My Journal, and Road to Recovery
Greetings all,
First off I want to say how grateful I am to the designers, MOD’s and anyone else who participated in the creation of this website! Kudo’s to all of you!
I am a 59 y/o male who is sick and tired of living this secret life of shame, and damaging my own life and others around me. (especially my wife). It’s been a weird trip through the years (no not THAT kind of trip 
) and I have tried to stop looking at porn, but doing it on my own without any resources made it d@3m near impossible, so I always picked it back up again. Not only am I trying to save my marriage, but I’m just tired of living a double life of secrecy and lies, and it needs to stop.
I am registered on other porn addiction related websites and actively participating, but they lack the mechanics of the brain chemistry, and what is really going on in this twisted messed-up mind of mine. Thankfully YBOP and this site answers those questions and gives me something I can sink my teeth into. Also reading posts from other members here gives me some assurance that I am not alone with this addiction, and that there IS hope to kick it for good.
Thanks to anyone who has read all of this and comments are certainly welcome.
Sorry this first posting is so long, and a bit scattered,
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