I’ve been a fapper for as long as I can remember… I was first introduced to porn around the age of 12-13. I still remember the first time I jizzed. Since then I was hooked. For the last 8-9 yrs I would fap daily… Sometimes even 4-5 times a day. I basically went thru puberty with a lot of social consciousness, awkwardness and anxiety thanks to my porn watching and fapping habits.
I’ve had my share of attention from girls but managed to push them away with my clingy, awkward and creepy attitude in the past… I had no idea what I was doing wrong. Something told me I had to stop fapping. My ignorant 18yr old self thought that with the amount I make my wiener work it would go limp one day and I would regret fapping so much…. Especially because I was still a virgin.
Then one day I stumbled across NoFap on my brother’s phone last year. It just hit me like a freight train. I realised maybe all my problems are connected to my fapping habits? I decided I was gonna do NoFap immediately… The first few times I would only manage to get to 3 days. I got my first biggest streak after that for 50 days… The effects were surreal. My confidence skyrocketed.
Then I relapsed … I remembered how the other fapstronaughts kept saying it’s okay if u relapse but just don’t binge again. And I prevented that from happening at all costs. Trust me guys it’s easier not to relapse than to prevent binging once u do. Never go there. Anyway, right after that my next streak lasted 30 days after which I relapsed again thanks to watching p subs
I learnt from my mistakes every time I failed. Then I made half hearted attempts at rebooting which consisted of about 2-3 streaks of 10 odd days. And then finally I got sick of all the failing and decided to go in head first…. This post is a result of that. I’m in day 32 of a very determined streak.
I’ve come to realise that my entire adolescent years were all about porn. The movies I liked usually had very good sex scenes. The TV shows I searched for and loved watching were all about sex (californication, entourage, game of thrones. I thought breaking bad was boring because it didn’t involve woman getting naked and riding guys). The story was immaterial. I would wank thinking about every girl I ever met. And in reality I never had the balls to talk to a woman. I literally just fantasised all day in the morning, when I woke up and at night just before I slept… I was numb emotionally. All I thought about was sex….
Typing this in I realise how creepy and messed up I was, but no more…. so as of now I’m at a stage where I’ve realised that everything I did was for porn and gotten out of that…. I’m in day 32 and from this post on I guess I’m trying to figure out who I am as a person…. What I like, what I don’t, what kind of people I’d like to hang out with, what genre of movies interest me and why, etc
Most of the guys here talk about super powers.. trust me those are minute advantages of NoFap. The real advantages set in when u realise how it’s actually affecting Ur perception of the world, which starts changing once u stop fapping. So stop fapping guys and turn Ur world around actively on daily basis.
Screw the super powers. Become Ur own super hero.
Cheers
LINK - My 30 dae suksesverhaal
by Cuddywater
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