Age 15 – Better motivation, healing acne, reduced anxiety, genius

Wow. 3 months already? I find it a little bit hard to believe myself, that I made it this far. I woke up one day and decided I would never fap again, that is simply it. That day was 3 years ago, lol. I’ve woken up with that same idea countless times in my head, and I cannot count the number of times I proved myself wrong. About 91 days ago, I found this sub-reddit. For the longest time, I was trying to quit for religious reasons, and I had no idea what kind of real benefits this NoFap thing could provide. Once I saw YBOP, and all the videos over there, I was all in. That was the tipping point of the iceberg. Something went off in my head, and I realized how much of a mess I was in. I put things off until the night-before, I was never motivated to do anything except sit down and play games, I was in terrible physical condition (and arguably mental condition as well). I had goals, but I pushed them into tomorrow and told myself I have time, I’m only fifteen.

People now a-days, at least the ones I know are afraid of Doing Hard Things. That is the simple truth that our society is built around, the American lifestyle of please yourself as much as you want whenever you want no matter if it costs others much more than your comfort is worth. That is not what anybody wants to be, but somehow, 99% of society fits the description of average. School, too! The question I hear most often is “Will this be on the test?”, and not “Why does that work?”. Some wire, or neuron broke in my head that day. It was the catalyst for a chain reaction that has flipped my world-view on it’s head. I know most of this does not seem relevant, but you will put it all together soon enough.

I might not be the best in the world at maths or programming, but I am “so good for my age“, as everyone likes to put it. I was often tempted to be content with my ‘prodigy’ status. I could get A’s and B’s without studying for a single test all year, and it only piled on more of my “I’m better than everyone else” attitude. I do not know what snapped me out of floating by without trying, but something did. I assume it was a combination of my poor physical condition, worsening depression & social anxiety, and loneliness (Oddly, the day before I began NoFap, I was having a little pity-party because it marked 1 year without a relationship. “I, like God, do not play with dice and do not believe in coincidence” -V for Vendetta).

So, mindlessly browsing the internet like a zombie, looking for more porn to shovel onto the pile, I found myself here. I was not cynical of this reddit, quite the contrary. I was surprised that people other than me were trying to stop fapping. No more than 10 minutes in to my browsing, I found /r/getmotivated as well. I stayed up well into the night, and instead of fapping, I flooded every part of my brain with people overcoming the (what other’s say) impossible. I sat down, looked at my life, and decided I was not the person I wanted to be.

I cannot really explain how this all happened so quickly. I have learned a lot in the past three months, arguably more than I have learned in my entire life. If I want to become the elite, I have to start now, while all of my competitors are fapping their lives away. Every nerd ever plays games and says “Man, I wish I could make something this awesome!”. I had the same mindset, I wanted to program cool games, I even had a ton of ideas; but like everything else, I pushed all of that onto my future self. My future self was the guy who had it together in college, and was a programming whiz. I was completely depressed, I had social anxiety (Clinical, like I had it before I found porn), my face was covered with acne, I had nearly 0 friends. I convinced myself that playing video games 7+ hours on the weekdays, and 16+ hours on the weekends was an okay thing to do because I needed experience in games to be able to make them. I actually believed that “I am addicted to video games” would look good on a resume.

Okay, enough about my back story, that’s all good and everything, but it does not really matter. 90 day reports are not the “why I’m here” reports. 90 days is the point where the soldier files a field-report for all his fellow trainees who aren’t quite there yet. For those of you wondering, no, I do not have a girlfriend. This is all hardmode! It is possible, and I see no future stopping date either. The “superpowers” are not superpowers, they are all the things fapping has taken away from you.

I remember 60 days, and how I was lying in bed crying uncontrollably because all my emotions were flooding back in so quickly I had no idea what was going on. It’s like being handed the force from star wars, having no training, and then trying to use it. It does not work. At first, your head is just swirling around in a pool, and slowly you learn to control your emotions, and they are stronger than ever! Now, instead of random crazy depression, I get random happy bursts, where I feel like I can do anything at all!

If you told me a year ago that I would be working out every day, I would tell you that you had gone insane. Well, here I am. Working out is something that I cannot stress enough, it helps clear your head, fight off urges, and just improves your life in general. My acne is falling off a cliff right now, it is disappearing, disintegrating, whatever you wan’t to say about it.

I have thrown procrastination out of the door. I am more motivated to do whatever I set my heart to. My focus has shot through the roof, I had ADD, but now I can sit down and work on homework for hours without a break.

My anxiety is not gone, however. That existed before fapping, and probably will be in the back of my head for life. However, I have magically gained the power to beat up the little idiot who tells me I can’t talk to women, or that I shouldn’t go hang out with friends. I’m sure there is more, and I’m sure I would know exactly what it all was if I relapsed today.

They say you don’t know what you have till it is gone, and I assume I have grown in ways that I don’t realize. Dating is something I do not plan to do until possibly next year. I need to focus on the fundamentals of my life, and fine-tune myself into who I want to be before I date. I’m perfectly fine with waiting, though. I can still talk to women, and when I get the chance to do so, I’m quite good at it.

This is a wonderful community, and I always see the question “Any tips for a n00b/person who is new?”. My advice to you, friend, is do whatever it takes.

• First off, commit pornocide, delete your ENTIRE collection. I do not care how attached you are, but if you are serious about nofap, and you still have it, your logic fails. You are trying to quit your addiction, but saving your stash for “later”. It is like a recovering alcoholic keeping his cupboard stocked full of his favorite beer 24/7.
• Next on the list, read the sidebar! Read everything on YBOP. Learn as much as you can. Cram it all into your brain. There is no such thing as “I cannot learn anymore”. Trust me, I’ve tried to learn “too much” in these past three months, it does not work.
• Look at yourself now, then look at who you would like to be in 10 years. How do you get there? Small, daily steps add up to staggering long-term results.
•  Exercise! Holy crap I cannot say this enough. “I do not have a gym membership” is NEVER an excuse. I haven’t been to the gym, ever. Like not in my life. Start by doing as many push ups as you can do (does not matter if it is a low number), then do the same for situps, crunches, planking, leg lifts (all four; back, side, side, front), and bench dips. Okay, you did as many as you can? Good, now, take the lowest number, and the next night, do that many of every exercise. Then, after that, add 1 rep for every single day!
• Read books, books are good. If you do not know what to read, I suggest “Fahrenheit 451”, All the hunger games books, “The Book Thief”, The Inheritance Series (Eragon, Eldest, Brisingr, & Inheritance), “Looking for Alaska”, and everything Tolkien has ever written.
•  Pursue your hobbies!
• Limit your facebook/reddit time.
• And most of all, never give up!

AMA in the comments, it is getting super late, and I really need to go to bed. I’ll answer EVERYTHING in the morning. OH! Check out my blog! I plan to put awesome, motivational things on there, as well as write on topics I find important. Anyways, I have to go to bed, I’m super tired. Best of luck fapstronauts

LINK – Achievement Get: 90 Days

 by LampitosGames

UPDATE – 5 month report