Age 16 - Not addicted, but porn changed me

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fallsDespite the fact that I haven't hit 90 days yet, I figured I would give a brief overview of how my /r/nofap journey has been being that the next few days I will be busy. I'm a 16 year old boy whose life has been turned upside down since the discovery of this magical subreddit. I have been watching internet porn (PMO) for all of 2 years.

Although I was never an addict, I was always filled with a sense of shame and anxiety after watching porn (PMO) that I just brushed off as "an awkward teenage phase." The "me" of before was a fun and spontaneous person. Slowly that person was becoming dull and boring.

I knew I needed to change. The problem was identifying the one variable in my life that could turn around my current predicament. Then it struck me, "when did the onset of all these negative effects start?" WHEN I STARTED MASTURBATING. I had finally figured out the crux of the issue. My first time attempting nofap (without having heard of the subreddit) I made it 1 whole month. Thinking I had been cured, I started PMO'ing again. After finally discovering /r/nofap, it was enlightening, seeing other people with the same problems as me after masturbating. All of sophomore year I had 1 week streaks that I always found a way to break over the weekends. Then, after starting junior year and realizing that it was just about time to stop fucking around, I knew that I could do it. The glorious 90 day badge. Next I will give a brief analysis of the different stages in my /r/nofap journey:

  • Day 1-3: Extreme horny- ness accompanied by severe social anxiety
  • Day 4-20: Calmed down, still not my normal self, still very horny, but not as bad as days 1-3
  • Day 21-30: Life couldn't be better, it's as if I'm on the top of the world, nobody can bring me down; supreme confidence; incredible drive to accomplish tasks and excel in academic aspects of my life
  • Day 31-56: The first flatline; to be honest I don't know how I could have gotten over this bump without the /r/nofap community. I had virtually no libido, felt as though everyone was conspiring against me (paranoia), extreme social anxiety, fear of 1 on 1 conversations and interaction with women; no morning erections
  • Day 57-70: Another high point, seemed as though I had been cured (virtually the same as days 20- 30 with more confidence)
  • Day 71-73: Second flatline; socially fine but no libido whatsoever, no attempt or desire to pursue a sexual interest or SO
  • Day 74-77: Third Flatline; socially anxious, awkward, but my libido was off the charts, I wanted certain women so bad, but fear and apprehension took over
  • Day 78-86: Third high point on my journey; feeling good, flatlines a thing of the past
  • Day 86-88: On day 86, I fooled around with this girl from school, she gave me a handjob, and my penis felt like a supersoaker, since then I have been feeling anxious and virtually no libido (should pass in a day or two)

I have control over my life now. I'm getting more women, and I feel like a more confident person. The sacrifice is totally worth it. (10 days or something of anxiety for a lifetime of prosperity and confidence). Trust me it's well worth the wait. That is my journey, I'm happy to answer any questions you all might have for me.

LINK - My 90 Day Journey: AMA

by Fizzyclown