Age 17 - 90 days: reduced social anxiety, porn fetishes

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17-year old guyI haven't seen many stories of young rebooters, so I didn't have much to go by. I always felt that being young it would take me a very long time to reboot due to the lack of benefits that I had throughout most the whole process. I have gone through 90 days and I would like to share my experience to the other young people on this form to let them know that they're not alone and that there is light at the end of the tunnel :P

Intro: Welcome to my 90 day reboot report of my no PMO journey. I would first of all like to say that throughout this whole journey, I didn't relapse or have any orgasms other than wet dreams. I would also like to say that I initially started PMOing at the age of 13 and did it at least 2 times a day and up to 7 times a day, every day until the age of 17. Sometimes I would also look at it for hours and just look at multiple videos/pictures for most of the day. Eventually my taste in porn changed but not drastically until I got into some bestiality and hardcore rape scenes which made me a bit confused. As the years went by, my porn collection grew up to 110 GBs which was mostly HD scenes that took up a lot of memory. I also was unsure why I couldn't talk to girls and be myself, I always had some form of social anxiety from the start and I never realized PMO was the root of it. Upon multiple Google searches relating to social phobia and social anxiety and the fear of talking to girls, I finally discovered YBOP which changed my life. I watched all of the videos and deleted my porn collection that has been saving up over the years and started my reboot on February 7th, 2013.

Days 1-17: The first 20 days were a bit rough. I experienced a lot of hornyness and increased symptoms of ADHD. I've always had it and the first 20 days made it a lot worse. This was probably due to the decreased levels of dopamine, which is a symptom of withdrawal. I tried to keep my mind off of it by skateboarding a bit and also learning how to play the guitar.

Days 18-49: This is when I started to see some improvements. I ended up going to Houston, Texas, for a competition relating to events that I was competing in for a school organization. Many people were in this organization, ranging from middle school to college students. I was in the high school section which was mainly held in a big hotel full of teenage boys and girls for about 4 days. I did however, throughout this whole trip, got a grip on social interaction a bit. I personally learned how people interacted to a degree. It's like I forgot how because of being on the computer so much. Another thing that happened was all of the looks that I was getting from most of the girls. I liked it but I was never tempted to really get out there and socialize with them. This made me feel a bit shitty but then again, I knew what was wrong with my brain and I just let myself heal.

Days 50-85: All I can say is FLATLINE. This is when it started and ended. I initially thought that my crappy days were just me flatlining but not until this section of my reboot. This made me realize that porn really did damage to my brain and I'm not going to lie, I didn't like it and I felt like it was mainly no PMO doing this. Some days I felt pretty shitty, but for most of the days, I just felt unmotivated to do ANYTHING. I started getting insomnia and depression which wasn't a good combo. This did help my reboot tho since I wasn't motivated to watch porn at all. On day 75, I had my very first wet dream. I was initially wanting to have one around days 30-50, just to have one and experience it, but then I started to not care about them since the anticipation of having one just died out. The orgasm from the wet dream wasn't stimulating that much. It didn't really feel like an orgasm, on a scale 1-10 id say it was a 3. I experienced a little bit of an increase of libido the following day which was expected, but I didn't really feel like I was out of the flatline until my next wet dream, 10 days later, on day 85. This wet dream was about a 7-8 and I felt different the following day. I had a feeling of "inner peace"; calm and also not really caring about anything.

Days 86-89: My libido didn't really kick in, until day 86. Women's faces seemed much more appealing... well everyone's face to be honest. It's like I can see everyone's sex appeal and idk... it was pretty cool. For once in my life I had the feeling of being myself as well. I wasn't intimidated by people and my social anxiety was going away. To be honest, throughout days 86-89 I did experience some random spikes of social anxiety, so I know its still there a bit. Other then that tho, at the moments where I didn't have any social anxiety, I felt fucking amazing! I didn't need to think before I would speak, everything would come out so naturally and I was surprised on what I was doing while I was talking. I talked to some girls at my table in art and I was making them laugh a lot too. I was finally being myself and I know that they realized that I changed and I could see that they liked it. Anyways, there were some awkward moments and also some very great moments throughout the day when I would socialize with people. The days have been getting better and my libido is back as well. My social anxiety is slowly going away and I'm going to keep going with no PMO until I'm completely back to normal. One thing that I have noticed is the way I carry myself when I walk now. I don't care what people think and I'm not over thinking things through anymore. My posture has been more natural and I speak my mind more often as well.

Day 90: Today, day 90, I noticed how my actions have been more instinctive, my voice getting deeper, and how I have been doing things without realizing it. I used to think something through, then do it, and it would make me feel like shit... it was the anxiety. Now I naturally do things without thinking about it and it feels great. Today I was watching a movie at school in a class and I got into the movie, I would comment on certain things that the actors would do and it felt very natural. I ended up replying to a girl in the classroom when she asked what was the name of the movie to her friend. Her and her friend looked at me as she replied to my answer. I then ended up answering a question that she asked me which was about the movie and everything felt so natural. I replied and looked at her in the eyes and she was smiling. I knew she was attracted to me through her natural smile... her friend was smiling at me as well and I gave them both eye contact and a smile back. It was so natural and I felt amazed about it afterwards.

I know that there is more progress to be made, but as I stated, I just wanted to let other young rebooters see my progress summed up into one post so that they will have a form of relief if they aren't seeing any results yet for themselves. I personally feel like I have a fair amount of progress to make, but other then that, 90 days has made a good amount of results regarding myself before the reboot.

LINK - 90 Day Reboot Report (Age 17)

May 7, 2013

by XFinity

Comments

What are the things you did during reboot did you try to cut down onsomething else like tv internet and besides skating did you exercise. Im 17 and got into porn when I was 13 too. Thanks for sharing its given me more hope. Maybe have anymore advice?

You had and orgasm while dreaming??