Age 17 - HOCD & porn-induced ED

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I wanna start with how I am so blessed to find www.yourbrainrebalanced.com. So many things in my life would not be as good as they are now. Anyways, to be honest I did not start a clock counter but I have definitely surpassed 90 days and am somewhere in the 100's. I started this reboot because I have HOCD which is a demonic little disease, and when I found this could help I jumped right on and knowing I could rid myself from that, I cut off from porn and didnt go back.

I would PMO for 2-3 times a day since I was 13 (17 now). I relapsed a few times on masturbation and felt extremely shitty, but this was in the first 3 weeks, and I was able to control myself. Before you masturbate or PMO on a reboot tell yourself this is a short-term pleasure that can ruin my long term goals I've been working at and that got me to stop.

After about my first month of no PMO or MO i had my first wet dream ever and was so stoked! Then I was getting them super frequently like weekly and at one point I had them three times a week and twice in a night once.. Got sick of them very fast. I think it was my body getting out of its old cycles of producing so much sperm cause of my bad habits.

After what I think is 2 months I flatlined hard for a month (still had wet dreams though). And after that ended I started waking up with erections frequently and my attraction for girls I stronger then ever. I can easily get an erection just fantising which I have to learn to control more since I've rarely had this cause I PMOed most my teen life.

My HOCD is still present but not nearly as strong. I had been smoking weed a lot lately and got too high and it spiked it, but it's whatever life goes on and I'll get rid of it soon. The reboot is honestly so worth it. I left out lots of details and if you have any questions comment below and I'll be happy to answer.

A new challenge awaits of now accutane which can be 3-6 months to rid myself of that now so wish me luck! I love checking up on this site and always will!

LINK - Beaten this challenge yet a new one lies ahead

By Chill

 


 

Initial Post - Age 17 - My Reboot (Halfway Through)

August 17, 2013

This is my first post but I just wanna say thanks to this site because of not for this i wouldn't know what was causing my HOCD and ED. I saw many stories and decided to post my own.

I have been jacking off since i was 13 to porn and am 17 now. I would jack of 1-3 times a day always accompanied by porn. I got bad HOCD in fresh year of high school and had it for 3 years. I was trying to blame it on everything else around me until I saw this site a few months back. I then realized I have porn induced ED too.

I wanted to change my life right then and just cut porn off and never went back. I still maybe occasionally see it on tumblr or ads but I just scroll past it as if it wasn't there. Masturbation was harder for me too stop and relapsed 3 times. But.. I am still one week away from 2 months of no masturbation and have been 3 months porn free.

It honesty feels amazing! I feel extremely confident, and just a cleaner, better person. I recently got in relationship with an amazing girl and get erections just from small things like holding her hand and stuff. I am still doing 3 months no porn no masturbation just to play it safe anyways.

My HOCD has become sooo lessened and is so easy to combat now compared to when it used to consume me. Only thing is that is annoying lately is I have tons of wet dreams espically if stimulated during the day. This week I've had 3-4, kinda weird but its whatever, and I'm just happy that these other problems are almost gone.

I cant express my thanks for you guys for having this site, if not for this i would still be consumed by my HOCD and watching porn.. Btw, fuck porn - people make it seem like you could watch it as much as you want with no consequences. I'll post an update soon!


 

UPDATE - Relapse after 1 year 4 months (roughly)

September 01, 2014

Hi guys. I'm just stopping in to show my progress. I guess a lot of the reason is because i relapsed too. It's the similar to people praying to God only when in times of hardship, and don't misconstrue that as sacrilegious.  I don't come around much--i think the last time was at 90 days and was porn free for well over 365. I suffered from severe ED and HOCD. I still remember the day I found out porn was the eternal fuel being added to a seemingly endless fire of HOCD, which was like living in prison or hell. Choose. I told myself I would never watch porn again, and boy did I keep at it. I relapsed on O every few months, sometimes weeks. But I never gave in to porn. My whole life began to change for the better: grades went up, motivation skyrocketed, depression evaporated. That's why I'm ashamed I gave into such hedonist pleasures and relapsed today. It's depressing, yet after watching it I also learned: porn isn't that good. I didn't enjoy it as much as I thought. I'm hoping that this is a one time thing and that I can bounce back from this one. My ED was nearly cured. I had no interest in porn. I don't know what happened, but I'm disappointed in myself. In a way the relapse can be seen as a good experience for me; I realized again that porn is not that amazing and helped show me how far I've come. I hope this failure will help lead to greater successes, as many do. I guess this is my cathartic outlet for the day. I hope you guys stay strong and distances yourselves from the enticing and malicious pornography.

best,

-chill