Age 18 - How I kicked FemDom addiction for good

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MothI had been watching femdom videos since I was 11, or 12. First it started as a simple foot fetish (something I still probably have, and don't really care), so you couldn't imagine my happiness when I found foot fetish videos on Youtube. And of course, most of those foot fetish videos have a component of female domination, or are completely based on it. That's when it started.

Soon after, it was the only kind of porn I was watching. Nothing else turned me on, and by it, I mean "normal" porn. Intercourse wasn't arousing at all. Of course, being so young, and different from others, I was desperate to "get rid of" my fetishes, but that didn't keep me from watching my kind of porn, because it was the only thing that really aroused me.

And then ... I drifted into more extreme kind. First it was humiliation, spitting, then golden showers, and finally, SCAT porn. Even foot fetish videos didn't do it that much for me anymore. At first I was disgusted at myself, tried to stay away from it, but I would eventually relapse every time. Even the thoughts of becoming a toilet slave crossed my mind.

I tried to abstain from that kind of porn a few times, and the closest I got was about 1 month. Then I would just "check" if it still turned me on. BIG MISTAKE. DON'T DO IT. It was the cause of every single relapse that I had.

Also being into pick-up, I know that many, many girls are turned on by male dominance, but how could I do that, when I wanted girls to shit in my mouth? It was a component that helped me gain my motivation, but the biggest of them all is HOPE. When I read these materials on how porn can change your brain's wiring and make you drift into more extreme kind, something clicked in my brain, and I had hope that my femdom fantasies are all artificial. I was right.

Since then it's been about 2 months and so far it's a success. I had many urges to watch it during 1st month, but every time I reminded myself of why I was doing this, and what will happen if I relapsed, and it kept me going.

Tonight I masturbated to "regular" sex porn, and the level of arousal was nearly the same as with scat crap before. Then I checked femdom porn again, to see levels of arousal, and got only a mild reaction. (I know I said don't do it, but at this point I was sure 100% that I had complete control of my actions, and that relapse wasn't an option. Don't do it for 2 months at least.) Then I closed my femdom tab, sure that I will never check that crap again.  :)

Oh yes, almost forgot, real girls' touch, smell, sometimes even holding intense eye contact, can get me hard now. Something that was COMPLETELY IMPOSSIBLE before.

I hope I can inspire someone with a similar situation, because, please, if you are a male and have femdom fantasies, unless you are 100% sure that being a slave would make you happy, don't do it!! It's not how nature made you. Try this for a few months(2 at least), and if you don't like the results, you can always go back to your porn/dominatrix.

LINK - Age 18 - How I kicked FEMDOM addiction for good

BY - NewHope972


 

UPDATE - 20 MONTHS LATER: Re: Screw#Femdom [Open Group]

Oh well ...

I slipped yesterday. Masturbated to femdom 3x in a row. I had urges to do so today as well, and normally I would, since I feel like I "failed", and should reset the reboot, but I decided not to binge. No giving up.

Again tho, I had thoughts .. why me??? Why did I have to aquire this shitty sexual taste that statistically I was unlikely to get. And it's mostly the reason why I was unsuccessful with girls throughout my whole life, while most of my friends enjoy satisfying relationships. Sometimes I hate being this way honestly, and want to give up hope that it will ever go away. But if I do, I'm done. So the journey goes on, die hard or keep trying.

Comments

....Why deny yourself "foot fetish" and SCAT pornography? That's "healthy" and "who you really are". You're just "sexually repressing your true nature".

I'm kidding, I'm kidding!

It's so funny how crazy and just RANDOM these sexual fetishes are....and yet the pop sexologist and the media tell people that that's "natural" and if you don't watch it you're "repressing your true nature", etc., etc.

I don't think any human being evolved to ejaculate into feet. And yet we're told that this is "perfectly healthy". Being removed from this pornography now, I can see plainly how absurd it is. And yet, just two years ago, I was very much like this guy. Sometimes, I almost believed the lies that this was "expressing my true nature" and it was "healthy".

I was addicted to the same porn as you not scat but femdom and humiliation with feet and all that nasty stuff, im free of that now for 2 month, im on da6 64. I can feel my true sexuality coming back but real slowly, but surely ;). I recently about 7 months ago went 110 days pmo free then relapsed but now i'm good on that.