Age 19 - I became a very conscious person I feel emotionally connected to myself as well as others. I no longer feel numb.

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Today marks day 120. And a lot has happened since the first day I started this journey. I became a very conscious person I feel emotionally connected to myself as well as others. I no longer feel numb.

But at the same time I'm not a superman because I'm on nofap. I and maybe others probably thought that nofap is a easy thing to do and that we will be sex gods and social figures and etc. well I am here to tell you that yes that will happen but only if you put yourself out there and get out of your comfort zone.

I will be honest, I am yet to get out of my comfort zone. Right now I'm at a point in my life where I don't hang out with anyone. I don't have any friends. I've always been a loner. it isn't anything new to me. but the difference between before and now is that now I don't give a shit. Before I did.

Before I was negative, sad, depressed and even now I still have days where I feel low and some days I feel good. and these days can last a long long time. Basically flatlines. also I have gotten rid of my fear of being with women. actual women. before my porn addiction crippled my personality and made me extremely scared and shy and timid. I couldn't even look a woman in her eyes. But now I have a girlfriend whom I love and care for. And this surprises me.

But honestly all I wanna say is nofap isn't peaches and cream. be prepared for sad and awkward moments with yourself and others. And i also want to add what i love about nofap the most. I love that nofap has given me my own sense of individuality and independence.

LINK - Day 120 and the truth.

by Ahmed1998