Age 21 - 40 Days: Depression Gone, Social Anxiety Gone, Motivation Back
I actually used to be on the NoFap train before I knew about NoFap. I went on for about a 300 day streak, 300 days of the most productive and motivating days of my life. Then I slowly slipped into PMO multiple times per day which slowly got worse as did my social anxiety, motivation. I have been pretty depressed over the past year which has been tough for me because everyone knows me previously as a super motivated and awesome guy.
I consider myself to be quite attractive, I hear about a lot of people with crushes on me through the grape vine of my friends. However on the flip side a lot of girls I know say that they are very attracted to me but can't see themselves dating me because of my lack of outgoingness. Last year I had the chance to date one of the hottest girls in the school - but PMO had already turned me into an unmotivated wimp with a ton of social anxiety and no confidence. This led to a more vicious PMO cycle.
Despite all the things I have going for me in my life, a perfect grade point average, numerous scholarships, athletic success and a loving family that is putting me through university debt free - I just had no motivation to do anything in life and I got depressed over girls and feeling sorry for myself.
It's truly amazing the power of the mind - it really is. I have made many conscious efforts to get over this depression over this period. However - all have been depressingly unsuccessful. That is until I rekindled NoFap through this sub.
Only 40 days in and I can't even count the number of times that I have heard girls tell me how different I have been acting. I have been getting so many more looks around campus than I could have imagined. I'm getting motivated in life again. Things that would have sent me into depression don't even phase me anymore. I could care less what other people think about me and I finally feel confident in myself. I am so much more social that it isn't even a comparison.
To those that think that depression is their fault - it's not - but it is under your control. Take hold of this beautiful thing called life and get on for the ride because it's unparalleled by anything that fapping can offer.