Age 21 - Was depressed and couldn't connect with people
I am a 21yo male. This has been the longest clean streak in my life thus far. It did not, however, happen by itself. I reached a point in my life where I felt completely unable to connect with others. My impulse control was out of the window, and I would surf the internet mindlessly for days on end. I was beyond depressed and started thinking about suicide daily.
Somewhere, thankfully, I reached a point where I could no longer take it anymore. I snapped. The change wasn't immediate. Things got worse. Yet I knew that either I change and improve and become a man, or I fap and hide away my twenties only to wake up later with regret. If I died tomorrow, what legacy would I be leaving behind?
Today I can honestly say I am happy, able to connect with others and truly contribute to their lives. I am no longer driven by my impulses.
These are the things that got me here:
- Accountability partner who you look up to ( and complete honesty!)
- 30 days of discipline
- No fantasizing! This for me is one of the most important ones.
- Heavy, daily exercise
- Faith that things will only get better
I feel that as a male, it is a part of my nature to want to conquer challenges set before me. I see Pornfree and NoFap as one of the "initiations" which sets me apart from being a boy. My confidence, sense of humor and general mental strength has also increased profoundly. I am no longer content with just sitting around, I want to explore and overcome and live!
I hope this helps whoever is reading this in some way! Good luck everyone on this journey with me!
by occasional_warrior 50 days