Age 22 - 90 days: Porn seems fake, More confident with girls, less anxious, dating

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DawnSo I'm not religious but I decided to give something up for Lent with my other roommates. I read up on YBOP and other similar sites and got really excited about the positive "superpower" side effects I would get from this. So below is a timeline of my experience:

Day 1: "That's it! I'm gonna give up jerking off for Lent, I want to see if I can, and hey, there might be some awesome side effects!"

Rest of Weeks 1 and 2: "This is easy! Full steam ahead, I'm not even horny!"

End of Week 2: Wow I wake up...and I'm horny. I walk to class, I'm horny... In bed at night all I can think about are sexual related matters.

Week 4: "Hmmm, I don't mind looking at girls in the eye- I see them more as people not as objects. I smile, they smile back- this is a good social interaction and if I feel weird doing it then something must not be right with me.

Weeks 5-7: Kind of a blur, pretty much just smooth sailing. I notice that I am more confident in approaching girls. I've dated a few girls during these weeks- nothing materializing but who cares I'm learning every time I do something new.

Week 8: Wall #2. The only thing I can concentrate on is really extreme stuff partially because of escalation but also because it interests me on sociological level- ie- it's interesting to analyze and study why human sexuality can be that extreme. I spend a lot of my time right now thinking about all of that.

Weeks 9 & 10: Things have begun to normalize. Although I still have a high sex drive - college student who's not getting laid often, I'm more at ease, less anxious, happier and more confident. Friends and coworkers have said I seem more confident and less anxious so it's starting to affect the people around me.

Weeks 10, 11, 12: I'm a lot more confident with girls. I continue to date around and meet girls at bars and house parties with success but also with the awesome reminder that I do not have to be outcome dependent around people - rather I should just appreciate a social interaction for what it is and accept all of them as learning experiences.

I've since tried going back to porn and even relatively soft-core stuff genuinely confuses me. I think to myself- why would people enjoy this- it's so fake, the production values are shit, the performers are simply just performers, most videos are probably exploiting someone- probably the actress, it's unrealistic and can place unrealistic expectations on sex and relationships. It just doesn't make sense anymore- though the interest in porn's relation to human sexuality is still fascinating to me, I now know that I need to experience human sexuality with another person, not a video screen of them.

TL;DR- I stopped watching porn for Lent, kept going, got some of the awesome super powers, now I don't understand why I was ever aroused to porn over genuine human interaction.

It's a hard fight but it's doable! Stay strong fapstronauts!

LINK - And with that folks, 90 days! Stay strong ladies and gents! Here's my story!

by ccas25