Age 25 - 100 days: Kicking out porn slowly let me reevaluate my relationship and it's great.

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Today I celebrate 100 days without porn! Yay! I'm not going to lie, it feels good. I think it's time for a self-evaluation... Because being pornfree does not automatically mean being cured, does it?

Overall, I must say, it wasn't super impossible. There were moments where it was hard: I'd say around day 30 and especially from 60 to 70, I didn't really feel like watching porn but I kept thinking about it. I visited this sub multiple times a day, because if I couldn't not think about it, it might as well be in a constructive way, am I right?

Those moments were the hardest, for sure. What kept me from going back to porn was, at the beginning, my SO. I did it for her. However, from day 60 to 70, I realized that doing this for her was not enough, and the problems I felt those days were signs that I needed to understand how this is something that harmed ME, first and foremost. I'm working on it, but I can say that this shift of focus definitely allowed me to better fight the problem.

As regards to the superpowers... That's bullshit. You live better, that's undeniable, but there's always a part of me that wants to look at women in a porn way. It's getting easier tough, whenever I see a good looking girl the instincts are easier to manage. And most of all, I can look at my girlfriend and appreciate her fully. This is the best part, kicking out porn slowly let me reevaluate my relationship with her, and it's great.

Now, what? Well, there is a goal, but it's not a number of days... It's healing completely. I think my addiction wasn't as strong as others', and I probably did not start from a very low point, so that's good. With the internet, commercials and the world being the way it is, it's too easy to see a pair of tits, a great ass, hell, I saw the Wolf of Wall Street (I love DiCaprio) and the amount of naked women in that movie isn't really less than what I used to see in my porn days (that scene with Margot Robbie naked stayed in my mind for more than a few days, I'm not going to lie). However, I'd like to reach a point where I can appreciate those things without my mind going back to porn. I don't know how long that could take, but I'm willing to work towards it, and so should all of us!

Stay strong, people, stay strong. It gets better, I promise.

LINK - 100 days later, AKA why everyday is like the first day

by dbawesome