Age 25 - Porn use impaired my judgement & and made me an A-hole

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Hi, I'm Matt. I'm 25, and have recently emancipated myself (since the beginning of 2014, minus a few relapses) from pornography after keeping it up for almost a decade.

I remember it like it was yesterday...It was the summer before my sophomore year in high school, and i figured out how to get around the parental blocks of our dial up provider. It was the last even slightly intelligent thing I remember doing....because little did I know how it could ruin you.

There are many potential major consequences of porn use, I suffered two of them I would like to share. First I believe it impairs your judgement. I was a bright young person before all this, known as one of the smartest people in my class. However, I have until recently managed to make decisions that aren't indicative of myself, and have caused harm. The second consequence is by far the worst...And it is that the usage caused me to treat others horribly, and flat out ignore them. People who loved me deeply and I just gave back hate. When my mind finally rebalanced about a month ago I looked at the profile of a girl who was the sweetest most loving person to me for the long time I knew her, and I just broke down and started crying. I feel I won't live this result down.

But enough of the warning, I'm here to celebrate. While there are some things, and most importantly people, that i will not get back. I feel like there is still a great future ahead. The truth is breaking free of this is extremely uplifting...to quote one of the Reddit users "It's like being reborn after years of death." To go over-the-top i might even say I know why I exist again.

Well that's it. I usually like to keep things short, but i felt the need to explain because it's a lot to take in for me. I certainly welcome any discussion. I think this is a good space for accountability and advice. So if you feel you can relate, or can help, or need help feel free. Best of luck to everyone in you journey.

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