Age 29 - Married: When I was addicted to PMO I would seek out the most deviant sites I could find

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nailsIn these 100 days the #1 thing I've found to have changed that I am most thankful for is the fact that I no longer like disgusting abuse porn. When I was addicted to PMO I would seek out the most deviant sites I could find and I didn't care who the girls were or what they were going through.

I wanted to see their insides ripped out, I wanted to hear them screaming. I wanted to see men with massive dicks and women getting penetrated by 3-4 men at once. I was a sick puppy. I even had thought about doing these things myself. The addiction was stronger than I thought and it was twisting and controlling my mind.

Now after just 100 days I'm clean. I love women instead of lust them. I want to see happy women with fulfilled lives. I want to see their faces and their curves. I want to see their eyes sparkling and know that they are going home and sleeping happily at night with a loving husband, just like my wife does. I don't even have the desire to look at porn anymore. I have my wife and she is more than enough for me. If I didn't have her, I'd be looking for her.

Nofap does wonders. Don't give up and don't give in. Some of my many other improvements:

-I exercise daily

-I gained mass from 170 lbs to 205 lbs (I've always been a skinny runt)

-I no longer bite my nails at all

-I look people in the eyes

-I never masturbate

-I don't get desperate for sex

-I sleep well

-etc

 

LINK - Many things have changed, here's my #1 favorite:

by Never2Fap