Age 30 - I feel I have fully rebooted and that I have beaten my porn addiction

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I'm Aussie so my counter is a day ahead so I just hit my 90 days.

Bit of back story. Started no fap in a redevelopment period after breaking up with my ex girlfriend of four years. Got the idea from 'Models' by Mark Manson. He suggested PMO only once a week to increase desire for the opposite sex. After a while I decided to look into the no fap community and took on the challenge.

Pretty much straight away I fell into a flatline. I had no idea what was going on and relapsed. I just wanted to see if it was working and was weak. That was the one and only relapse that I had.

In my mind a change had occurred early on. For me I feel like a switch in my brain has been flicked. it went from PMO to no fap. So whenever the thought popped into my head the thought quickly moved to "I don't fap anymore". I found little in common with the relapse memes as I have found quite easy. I know that some will be annoyed by this but it is the truth. I have worked hard but also been fortunate on my journey.

The other thing that has got me though has been semi regular sex. At first it was bad during my flatline. Over time this improved as well as the O. That feels better, longer and more intense. It makes it all worth it. My only thing now is being overly sensitive though I expect that to change over time.

My last three weeks have been the toughest. Haven't had sex in that time. Been on tour though Western Australia and away from my girls back home. It was a last minute opportunity to come and I certainly didn't expect the last few days would be in hard mode. I feel that this time has been both cleansing and frustrating.

Overall I have enjoyed my journey so far. I feel I have fully rebooted and that I have beaten my porn addiction. It no longer has a hold on me. I no longer worry about post fap shame or people walking in on me or having unrealistic fantasies with plastic women. My aim now is to continue to help others reach their no fap goals.

LINK - 90 day celebration post :D

by Fuck_Dacts