Age 32 - ED: Had sex for first time last night: Stayed hard: miracle. #nofapshitworks
Felt fucking whoa. Stayed hard: miracle. #nofapshitworks stick with it bro. I'm pretty relieved and excited... still need to not forget what got me here and stay off PMO.
A year ago when I started this journey, I was limp as a soggy noodle with a hot HOT girl. After the shame, I spent all day researching which led me to YBOP and nofap. Thankful for how it worked out but... NEVER want that to happen again.
I think it also helped that it was a very intimate lovemaking time with a trusted and patient partner. She knows about my P addiction issues and PIED... We even talked about it before and after. Helped a lot.
Man, I'm starting hard mode AGAIN today. Have been at nofap since March, with a couple decent streaks. I'm ten years older than you and, like you, told myself is never continue with P past about age 22. Well, a decade on from that and have been still sunk in this hell. My symptoms are:
- social anxiety -- gone when on streak
- DE, sometimes PE
- insomnia (except when on streaks)
- depression, binge drinking to numb my conscience and quiet the dark thoughts
My advice? Do absolutely everything you can NOW to leave off this destructive behavior as a thing of the past. For real, you don't want to be battling the shit in your 30s