Age 33 - After 1.5 years no porn, finally able to feel emotions, commit

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couple smiling2 days ago I told my g/f that I loved her, we have been together for 4 months. I am 33 and this was the first time in my life i told a girl I loved her without her saying it first. I am fully and deeply in love with my girlfriend and have no doubts about what i am feeling.

It's a warm feeling I get inside every time i think of her, her smile, her sense of humor, her way of thinking just everything about her. And for the first time in my life her imperfections don't bother me at all, every time I see her she just looks like the most beautiful girl in the world to me, she is definitely not the super model type and body wise is average but I just don't care about minor physical imperfections anymore she is waaay more than her looks or body I see her as a whole person and not an object.

I have not watched P at all in 1.5 years. Back when i was addicted to P the moment a relationship started to become serious i would get this intense feeling that i would be missing out on so many opportunities with other hotter chicks and could never ever commit. I would start checking out girls everywhere and get a sad feeling inside that I would never have someone like that. I thought it was fear of commitment and that it was perfectly normal for a young guy to act that way. Now after 1.5 years of no PORN I know there are physically hotter girls than my g/f out there and I am guy and probably still check them out often. BUT I NO LONGER HAVE THAT SAD FEELING THAT I AM MISSING OUT ON SOMETHING BECAUSE I HAVE THIS AMAZING CONNECTION WITH MY G/f NOW.

I don't ever want to go back to P and sexual novelty seeking brain ever again. I know its too easy to get back into that trap even after 1.5 yrs P is nothing more than a trap I beg you don't get stuck in it and miss out on the best parts of life!!! I have waited far too long to be able to fall in love I cant thank YBOP, YBRB enough!!

LINK - After 1.5 years no P, finally able to feel emotions

by ram