Age 38 - Recluse with depression: now married & happy

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Hey all, just wanted to drop in and leave a note to mark my one year of Nofap. It's been a long journey, the beast never entirely goes away, but at this point relapsing would be pretty difficult for me.

Why did I do it? I was a 38 year old recluse and used pmo to hide from depression and other issues in my life. I didn't date because of ED issues. I did nofap to exert some self control and possible cure my ED, start dating and turn my life around.

How did I do it? I'd been attempting nofap on my own since June 2010 with mixed results; 30 days a few times, with a max of 45. Then I discovered this community and that nofap is a thing and dived in. For me what worked was no touching myself, no browsing anything remotely arousing, and no edging.

So after a year, I feel a million times better about life. I met a wonderful girl and got married (note we've been together for 2+ years now). So far I'm fap free in my marriage and intend to keep it that way. I still have ED issues and use pills for intercourse. At this point I don't know if my ED issues are pmo related or something else. But my wife and I are managing it.

I didn't see the super powers many talk about, but I wasn't looking for them as I'd been doing nofap on my own for a while. For me nofap is about dealing with emotional issues I'd been hiding from for years; anger, guilt, boredom, self loathing. It's an ongoing process. There's nothing I'd like more than to go rub one off but the weight of days and months (and now a year) keeps my hands off my junk. For now at least.

Anyway there's some data for you all to integrate. Good luck guys and gals, I can say it gets easier, but the urge hasn't gone away entirely for me at least. For me it hasn't been a cure all but a definite improvement. I plan to keep it going for as long as I can. Cheers!

LINK - One year tomorrow woot woot!

 by ma_duece