Age 47 - Unhappily married with four kids. I'm straight but attracted to gay porn,

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Here I am again, celebrating 90 days. I'm doing this with SA. Before this streak, I've done some SA work, going to meetings, but not having a sponsor or working the steps. But then I relapsed. This time, I decided to go all the way. I got a sponsor. I go to meetings weekly religiously. I call other guys in the SA fellowship every day. And I'm working "the steps." When I feel tempted, I have guys I can call on the phone, 24/7, and they help me out.

So far, it is a good experience, and I'm glad I'm doing it this way. I'm restoring my life to sanity, not only by staying away from PMO, but also by addressing my underlying problems. I'm cleaning up the wreckage of my past, and facing the issues that I've used PMO to avoid for all of these years. As I do that, I feel like I'm having less bad stuff to fap about. I have a long way to go, and this has been a great start.

Background: I'm 47 years old, unhappily married with four kids. I'm straight but attracted to gay porn, for whatever it's worth. I first quit PMO five years ago, and have been in therapy for it every since. I'm also bankrupt. I have ADHD, as do all my kids.

tl;dr SA works, if I do the whole thing.
 

LINK - 90 days (again)

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