ED - From suicidal to the top of the world
Started June, 2014 and promised to write only when I confirmrf the cure. My first true sexual experience was on my wedding night for both myself and my partner. Before that i was only making out. Needless to say complete failure first 5 attempts (2 weeks!!).
Couldn't believe what is happening as I have been always thinking i will be a sex machine. Due to overseas business I had to be away for few months. While I am googling about this issue, mainly typing these keywords ( sex not pleasurable, why porn feels better,...etc) I found my savior. This forum and the others. All of this made the perfect sense. Yes I was a pmo master but on bed with real women was the complete opposite.
Without thinking too much I stopped pmo completely, entered in dreadful flateline. I was away from wife thanks god at the time as i was very depressed and for some time i was very suicidal.
After 6 months in and out of shortening flatelines and 6 wet dreams, I met my wife again. It has been nearly one month now and without any exaggeration we have done it 23 times and the last 7 -10 times was extremely wild.
What helped me:
- know about problem and read success stories. Don't spend much time though especially reading depressive posts.
- complete pmo free. It is easy when you know it is the reason for your failure.
- resist flateline depression and negative thoughts. Believe me it passes eventually and it is part of your healing
- add healthy changes to your diet ( e.g. no caffeine, no refined sugar, less fats, more protein )
- exercise, running and weights
- vitamin D, B complex and zinc
- wet dreams is a sign of recovery even if it sends you back to flateline. However not necessary to happen to everyone.
- 5-6 months pmo free is good and when u introduce sex again first few times are not very good but believe me it improves greatly with time.
- No Viagra or similar products. Doesn't work with pied
At the end I thanks everyone who contributed here with positive thoughts which gave me hope on times I was at the bottom
BY - survival2014