Wow yana da wahala a yarda cewa shekara guda kenan tun lokacin da na kalli kowane batsa. Ya kasance tafiya mai tsawan shekara 7 amma daga karshe nayi shi. Bari na baku labarina da wannan jarabar.
A karo na farko da na taɓa kallon batsa ya dawo cikin 2004 lokacin da nake ɗan shekara 12. Abokina ya kunna ɗan'uwansa DVD batsa a TV don kamar 15 na biyu kafin ya cire shi. Ban ji komai ba daga baya kuma na ci gaba da yini na. Amma shekaru 2 daga baya a cikin Nuwamba na 2006 lokacin da nake aji 9th a makarantar sakandare ɗaya daga cikin abokaina ya nuna min batsa a PSP ɗinsa kuma saboda wani dalili mara dalili na yi tunani a kaina cewa ya kamata in kalli wasu batsa lokacin da na dawo daga makaranta. Da zarar na dawo gida sai na hau kan komputa kuma Google na nemi wasu batsa kuma yayin da nake kallo sai na fara fara al'ada ta kuma wannan shine karo na farko da na taɓa taɓa al'ada a rayuwata.
Bayan na shigo wando na ji abin mamaki sannan kuma bayan wannan na fara PMO don yin batsa kusan kowace rana bayan makaranta lokacin da iyayena basa gida. Wannan ya haɓaka mini har ma da taɓa al'aura zuwa batsa ta anime “Ya I was a fuck fuck looking for that dopamine rush”, batsa ta shemale, da batsa mai tashin hankali. Na ƙarshe na daina kallon hotunan Shemale, da batsa mai tayar da hankali kamar yadda wannan shit ɗin zai haifar min da fuck lokacin da nake kallon shi. Na fara ganin tasirin da batsa ta yi mini lokacin da na fara jin kunya da damuwa game da mutane musamman 'yan mata. A lokacin ina cikin bakin ciki koyaushe saboda ana tsananta min a makarantar sakandare kuma hakan ya sanya jarabar PMO na ta zama mafi muni saboda zan yiwa PMO lokacin da na ji haushi, damuwa ko tawayar.
Ba har zuwa 2010 lokacin da na gano daga binciken Google menene jarabar batsa da kuma tasirin ta a kwakwalwata kuma a wancan lokacin ne na so in daina kallon batsa amma ya fi sauƙi a ce sai anyi. Na ci gaba da komawa bayan kwana biyu zuwa hudu ba tare da PMO ba. Don haka na yanke shawara don samun kyakkyawar fahimta game da abin da waccan jarabar take da tasirin ta a kwakwalwa. Don haka sami wani gidan yanar gizo da ake kira feedtherightwolf ya nuna min abin da zagaye na jarabar batsa yake da yadda zan magance buƙatun kallon batsa. Ya taimaka min kaɗan saboda a wancan lokacin na kasance PMOing sau biyu kawai a mako wanda ya kasance ci gaban inda nake a da.
A cikin 2012 na sami damar yin nesa da batsa kusan watanni biyu amma na sake komawa kuma na ci gaba da yin hakan sau biyu a mako har zuwa shekarar da ta gabata. Shekarar da ta gabata ta kasance matsala a gare ni lokacin da na fara kuka bayan na PMOed zuwa wani fim na batsa kuma na ce a cikin raina cewa wannan shi ne kuma ba zan sake yin haka ba saboda ina cutar da kaina ta hanyar ɓata lokaci na yin hakan. Don haka na yi matakai don tabbatar da cewa ba zan sami wani abin da zai haifar da kallon batsa ba.
Makon farko na makonni na na sake yin tauri ne saboda ina fama da yawan alamu na janye jiki kamar na bacin rai ba gaira ba dalili, yin fushi ba gaira ba dalili, kuma naji wani rashi a raina. Amma bayan watanni 2 na dakatar da samun irin waɗannan ji kuma na fara jin na al'ada.
Saurin-sauri zuwa yau Ina jin daɗin rayuwa yanzu fiye da yadda nake a da. Ban sake jin tsoro lokacin da nake tare da mutane musamman 'yan mata ba, kuma ina jin daɗin farin ciki sannan ban taɓa samun komawa cikin kwanakin PMO na ba.
Karanta wannan post ta underdog http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=15558.0 da gaske nayi wahayi zuwa gare ni in canza wasu abubuwa a rayuwata don mafi kyawu kuma ina bada shawara ga duk wani mutum a wannan rukunin yanar gizon da yake kokarin sake duba shi. .
Da kyau zan gode wa mai bayar da abinci, yourbrainonporn, da wannan rukunin yanar gizon da suka taimaka min wajen shawo kan wannan jaraba kuma ina fata duk wanda ke wannan shafin zai shawo kan wannan jaraba.
LINK - Shekara guda ba tare da batsa ba
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