No ka hoʻomaka makemake wale wau e kala no kekahi mau hewa grammatical no ka mea ʻaʻole wau e hoʻohana pinepine i ka ʻōlelo Pelekania a makemake wau e haʻi iā ʻoe he moʻolelo lōʻihi loa ia, malia paha ʻo kahi o ka lōʻihi loa aʻu e heluhelu ai inā ʻaʻole ʻoe Makemake ʻoe e heluhelu ia, ʻaʻohe mea e koi aku iā ʻoe. Uhi ʻia kēia moʻolelo i nā mea āpau e pili ana i kaʻu mau pilikia i hoʻokumu ʻia e ka porn i nā makahiki ʻelima i hala o koʻu ola.
He 24 koʻu mau makahiki i kēia manawa. No laila, ʻoi aku paha ka maikaʻi o ka hoʻomaka ʻana me ka hoʻomaka. E ʻōlelo mākou ʻo kēia hoʻomaka koʻu makahiki ʻehiku. Ua hoʻomaka wau e hele i ke kula haʻahaʻa a ʻo wau nō ka BOSS no ka mea ʻo wau ke keiki ikaika loa i kaʻu papa a mahalo nā mea āpau iaʻu LOL. ʻAʻole wau he keiki hilahila a maikaʻi wau ke nānā aku a makemake nā kaikamahine āpau iaʻu. He kamaʻilio nui wau a me ka pilikanaka, hauʻoli mau ke keiki.
I ka piha ʻana o koʻu mau makahiki he ʻewalu, ua aʻo mai koʻu mau hoahānau iaʻu i ka hana masturbate, he mea ʻakaʻaka loa ia no lākou no ka mea he ʻumikūmāhā o ko lākou mau makahiki a ʻewalu oʻu makahiki, akā ʻaʻole naʻe, ʻo ia ka hoʻomaka. He mea maikaʻi loa ia, ʻaʻole wau i hoʻohana i koʻu manaʻo no ka mea ʻaʻole wau i ʻike i kaʻu mea e hana nei akā ʻike wale wau i ka hopena e weliweli wau, no laila ua hana wau i kēlā me kēia lā, i kekahi manawa ʻoi aku ma mua o hoʻokahi manawa i hoʻokahi. lā.
I ka makahiki aʻe i ka piha ʻana o ʻeiwa mau makahiki ua loaʻa iaʻu ka stash o nā makasina pālau pāʻani a ka makuakāne. E ke keiki kāne e ke keiki pehea koʻu hauʻoli. ʻOi aku ma mua o Disneyland iaʻu. Ke heluhelu nei wau i kēlā me kēia lā i kēlā me kēia manawa i kēlā me kēia lā, kupaianaha kēlā mau kaikamahine, akā ma hope o kekahi manawa ua makemake au i kahi kī ʻoi aku ka ikaika, a ʻae ua loaʻa iaʻu, ʻo ia kekahi makasina porn o ka poʻe e moekolohe nei i loko. ʻOi kēia kahi kiʻekiʻe kiʻekiʻe aʻe iaʻu a ua pani au i kahi stboy playboy no kēia makasina porn hoʻokahi. Ua pīhoihoi wau i nā manawa he nui i ka lā e hoʻohana ana i kēia makasina, akā ua maikaʻi koʻu ola i kēlā manawa. He kanaka helewīwī loa wau, pili kaiapili, hana nui wau i ka haʻuki, ʻoniʻoni loa e like me nā keiki ʻē aʻe, hiki iaʻu ke hoʻokō i kahi boner i kēlā me kēia manawa aʻu e makemake ai.
I loko o ʻelua mau makahiki ʻekolu a ʻoi mau makahiki i hōʻiliʻili ai wau i nā makasina porn hou aku akā hoʻomaka wau e luhi e like me ke kehena. ʻAʻole lākou i hana i ka kikina i koʻu lolo a me koʻu kino e like me ka wā ma mua. ʻO nā ʻoniʻoni aʻe nā kiʻi ʻoniʻoni porn i ka ʻumikūmālua o koʻu mau makahiki. E like me ka manawa mau ua ʻike wau i kahi kahawai kīwī me ka porn ma hope o 11 pm a i kēlā me kēia manawa ma ka home wale wau e nānā ana iā lākou a ma kahi o hoʻokahi miliona mau manawa ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi ma mua o nā makasina, no laila ua hoʻopau kaʻu mau makasina i ka ʻōpala.
I nā makahiki ʻelua e hiki mai ana, koho ʻoe, i nā manawa he nui i ka lā masturbation e hoʻohana ana i nā kiʻi ʻoniʻoni porn ma DVD. ʻO ka pilikia wale nō ua maʻa wau i nā hanana āpau ma hope o kaʻu nānā ʻana hoʻokahi manawa, akā maikaʻi no ʻelua mau makahiki ke hōʻike mai koʻu mau hoaaloha iaʻu pehea e nānā ai i ka porn ma ka pūnaewele a pehea e holoi ai i ka mōʻaukala ma hope o ka nānā ʻana ʻaʻole maka koʻu mau mākua. e 'ike. ʻOiai ma mua o kaʻu ʻike he mau fetish kaʻu, kahi aʻu e makemake ʻole ai e kamaʻilio e pili ana i ʻaneʻi no ka mea ʻaʻole wau makemake e hoʻonāukiuki iā ʻoe.
Ke hoʻohana nei i ka porn pūnaewele i kēlā me kēia lā, he keiki maʻamau wau, me ka pilikia ʻole, ʻaʻole wau i ʻike i ka hopena i koʻu ola. Ua hauʻoli wau i ka puni ʻana i nā kaikamahine a ʻoluʻolu mau me lākou, keu hoʻi i ka honi ʻana, ke leka uila ʻana ... I koʻu kaumaha, he uʻi wau (a eia nō wau hahaha) no laila ʻaʻohe oʻu pilikia i ka ʻimi ʻana i nā kaikamahine, akā ʻo wau mau nō pēlā. hauʻoli wau i koʻu hoʻi ʻana i ka home no ka mea ua ʻike wau e huli ana ka mea mua i kaʻu kamepiula a laila e nānā ana i ka porn. ʻO kaʻu hana kēlā me kēia lā.
I ka wā ma ke kula kiʻekiʻe he 15 a ʻaʻole wau ʻo BOSS hou aku no ka mea ʻoi aku ka nui o ka poʻe, ʻoi aku ka nui o ka poʻe a ʻo wau he hou, ʻaʻole ʻike i kekahi akā akā ua kūleʻa wau i ka hoʻomaka ʻana me ka wahine maikaʻi loa i ke kula. ʻO ka wikiwiki, ʻaʻole maikaʻi ka hele mua o ka wahine, ʻaʻole i ala kaʻu hoa aloha (i kēia manawa ʻike wau no ka porn a me kaʻu mau mea i manaʻo ai no ka porn akā ʻaʻole wau e noʻonoʻo) i ka lā aʻe ua hoʻāʻo hou mākou a me kekahi mea e like me ka moekolohe. hanaia. Mai ia lā ʻaʻohe oʻu pilikia me kaʻu hoaaloha a hiki i 5 mau makahiki i hala. Ma waena o 15 a 19 mau makahiki ka manawa o ke kula kiʻekiʻe a he kanaka maʻamau wau, pili kaiaulu, hele i waho ... Horny mau me he ahi lā, a ʻo ka mea wale nō i loli ka ʻono o kaʻu porn. Ua lilo i mea maikaʻi loa, ke nānā nei wau i nā mea aʻu i makemake ʻole ai i ke ola maoli, akā i ka porn ua huli nui kēia mau mea (novelty = dopamine). Ua nānā au i kekahi manawa i nā mea pili ʻole i kaʻu moekolohe akā maikaʻi.
I koʻu makahiki 19 i hoʻomaka ai kaʻu koleke. Ua maikaʻi wau, maikaʻi nā poʻe, pilikia wale ka hemahema o nā kaikamahine akā ʻaʻole naʻe. ʻO ka manawa ia ma ka mākeke e hele ai nā kelepona mua akā ʻaʻole wau i kahi freak e pili ana iā ia, he NOKIA kahiko koʻu hahaha. Makemake au i kaʻu kamepiula ponoʻī no ke koleke no laila ua kūʻai mai koʻu mau mākua iaʻu i hoʻokahi. Koke loaʻa iaʻu kaʻu Phone mua. ʻO ka mea nui i haki wau me kuʻu ipo wahine, ua haʻi ʻo ia iaʻu ua hele ʻole wau a luhi hoʻi. Ua haki wau, kaumaha maoli wau no ka mea aloha nui wau iā ia. Ua haʻo nui wau iā ia, akā ua loaʻa iaʻu ka pūnaewele wikiwiki, kaʻu kamepiula ponoʻī i loko o MY lumi a me kahi Smartphone.
Eʻike i ka mea i hanaʻia, nā hola o ka PMO no nā hola. He paʻakikī kaʻu kāleka a makemake nuiʻo ia i nā hola i mua o ke kamepiula, no laila ua hoʻohana wau i PMO i kēlā me kēia hora aʻelua paha. I kekahi manawa ua ulu nui wau i ka porn genome. I ka manawa i lilo ai au i mea hou,ʻo wau a me kuʻu hoaaloha loa e huakaʻi hele ana i ke kūlanakauhaleʻo Hungaryʻo Budapest a hele mākou i ka pō o ka pō, uaʻona nui loa a hui i nā kaikamāhine, ua wela lākou aʻo wau paha kekahi o lākou a pau i loko o koʻu lumi hoʻokipa. Malia paha uaʻikeʻoe i ka mea i hanaʻia, ua make kuʻu keikikāne e like me kona hiki. Ua mihi wau iā ia, ua hō'āhewa wau i ka waiʻona no kēlā mea a ua hoʻomau i koʻu ola. Ua poina iaʻu e haʻi aku ua hala mua nei,ʻo ia wale nō kēlā kaikamahine'ē aʻe.
ʻO ka manawa mua aʻu i hopohopo iki ai akā ua nui ka waiʻona i loko o koʻu koko no laila ... ʻO kēia ka lua o ka manawa akā ua ʻike wau ua lilo kekahi ahi i loko o koʻu kino, ʻaʻole wau i ʻike pono i ka mea akā ke manaʻo nei wau e like me ka luhi a nā kaikamahine maoli, a ʻo wau ua hoʻomaka i ka hana hou ʻana i ka porn hardcore hou a me ka hōʻalo ʻana i nā kaikamahine maoli i hiki iaʻu. ʻO ka pilikia nui loa wau i manaʻo ai i loko o kekahi manaʻo kaumaha, ʻaʻole makemake e hele i waho, ʻaʻole makemake e kamaʻilio me kekahi. Ua hoʻonui ikaika wau i kaʻu koleke. ʻO Porn wale nō ka mea i hauʻoli ai koʻu ola i kēlā manawa.
ʻO nā kuhi hewa nui loa i kēia manawa. Makemake au i kahi mea kūpono hou aʻe no laila ua hoʻomaka wau i ka masturbating ma cam i nā pūnaewele pūnaewele cam. Noʻu he ʻoi aku ia ma mua o ka moekolohe maoli, ʻaʻohe pilikia me ke kūkulu ʻana a i ʻole ka nalo ʻana iā ia, paʻakikī e loaʻa nā kaikamahine no laila hoʻomaka wau i ka masturbating me kekahi mau dudes. ʻAe dudes ... ʻike wau ʻaʻole maikaʻi kēia akā he ʻoiaʻiʻo nō ia.
Ua hoʻomau wau e hana ia i kēlā me kēia lā no nā hola he nui, a ma hope o kekahi mau mahina, ʻike wau he pilikia nui koʻu. ʻAʻole hiki iaʻu ke kūkulu i nā kaikamahine i ka paku, aia wale nō i nā porn hardcore loa, akā i nā kāne me ka ʻole o nā pilikia ... wtf huikau wau e like me ka hopena no laila kū wau i ka hana ʻana, ʻano ʻino loa a ʻano ʻē. Ua hoʻomau wau i ka PMO ma ka porn hardcore akā ua luʻuluʻu a paʻakikī ʻole kaʻu pēpē e like me ka wā. He pōʻino koʻu ola maoli, i kekahi pō e hulahula ana wau i ka lāʻau me kahi kaikamahine uʻi a e haʻalulu nei ʻo ia me kāna hoki a puni kaʻu hoa aloha akā ua make ʻo ia a ʻo ka manawa mua loa ia i makaʻu loa ai wau.
He mau hoʻāʻo hou aku me kekahi mau kaikamahine akā me ka laki ʻole i kēlā me kēia manawa. Ua manaʻo wau no ka nui o koʻu hopohopo a ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke hoʻomaha, ʻo kēia ka mea aʻu i heluhelu ai ma ka pūnaewele no kaʻu pilikia. ʻO ka pilikia nui ka mea aʻu i ʻike ai ma hope, a ʻae ua kapa ʻia kēia shit ʻo TRANSEXUAL porn, porn shemale, ladyboy, tranny, inoa pehea ʻoe e makemake ai. E kala aku, ʻaʻole wau makemake e huhū aku i kekahi, akā iaʻu iho he mea nui ia no ka mea ua ʻinoʻino koʻu ola. Ua maikaʻi ʻole kēia kolohe, i kēlā me kēia manawa ke nānā aku iā ia, paʻakikī kaʻu keiki e like me ka pōhaku, ʻike wau i ke ahi i loko oʻu i ka nānā ʻana iā ia, a laila hoʻopailua ma hope o ka hoʻoweliweli. ʻAʻole wau i ʻike i nā mea e hana nei a ʻaʻole wau i nānā. Akā he loop ia, ikaika ka hoʻōla a ua hoʻomanawanui wau no ka manawa lōʻihi, e nānā wale ana i kēlā ʻano porn. No laila kahi mea e pili ana i koʻu ola maoli, ʻaʻohe hoihoi i nā kaikamahine, ʻaʻohe kumu no kekahi mea, kū me kekahi ʻano haʻuki i ka wā ma mua, ua loaʻa kekahi moekolohe hou ʻole me ke kaikamahine nui loa, ua pala, momona ...
Sooooo kauwela 3 mau makahiki i hala aku nei, ua hele au a me koʻu mau hoaaloha i ka wā hoʻomaha, ua hālāwai au me kekahi kaikamahine nui loa, naʻaupō kona, naʻaupō, maikaʻi ke nānā aku e like me ka male, ʻo ia ʻo 10/10. Hilinaʻi ʻoe iaʻu, ʻaʻole wau i hiamoe me kēia, akā he manawa maikaʻi loa kā mākou, a laki nō wau e noho kokoke ana iaʻu i koʻu kūlanakauhale home, no laila ua pili mākou. ʻAʻole maopopo iaʻu pehea e hiki ai iaʻu ke kamaʻilio maʻamau me ia, no ka mea ua nānā wau i nā kaikamahine e like me ka ʻiʻo a me ka iwi, akā maopopo iā ʻoe no ke aha, i kēlā manawa i ʻike mua wau iā ia, he 10 mau lā wau i ka wā hoʻomaha a ʻaʻole ʻike i kekahi porn no laila ua maikaʻi iki koʻu lolo. I koʻu kauhale home, hauʻoli nui wau i ka wā i leka mai ai ʻo ia iaʻu, akā ʻo ka mea aʻu i ʻike ai he mana ko ZERO iaʻu e moe pū me ia, a he mea ʻē loa iaʻu. He horny loa a ʻaʻohe mea. Ua huikau wau, akā manaʻo wau e maikaʻi ke wā a inā e pau mākou i kahi moena. ʻAe ua hiki mai, ke aloha nei mākou i kekahi manawa a hoʻokahi pō ua pau mākou i kahi moena. E kuʻu mau hoa aloha e heluhelu nei i kēia… ʻike ʻoe i ke ʻano o ka manaʻo ... ʻoluʻolu ʻole ia, ʻoluʻolu ʻole hou kaʻu keiki, ua make maoli nō ia.
Ua haʻi wau iā ia ʻaʻohe mea e pili ana iā ia, luhi loa wau a me kahi ton o shit. ʻO ʻoe e heluhelu nei i kēia a ʻo wau, maopopo iā mākou ke kumu o kēia. Akā ʻaʻole ia i pau ... Ua hoʻi mai wau i ka home a huli wau i kaʻu kamepiula, hele i ka pūnaewele, kikokiko i ka porn TRANSEXUAL, a me boooom kūkulu koke ʻia, paʻakikī e like me ka pōhaku .... Mahalo e ka pūnaewele, i ka lua o ka lua ua ulu wau i HOCD koʻikoʻi. Keikikāne ua makaʻu wau i ka make he kāne kāne wau ...
ʻO nā lā mua e noho nei i gehena, ʻo ka poʻe i loaʻa iā ia, ʻike ʻoe i ka mea aʻu e kamaʻilio nei, a ma hope e haʻi hou aku wau iā ʻoe e pili ana iā ia. No laila ua pili wau i kēia kaikamahine no ka mahina aʻe a i ʻole ʻelua, akā i kēlā me kēia manawa ke hele mākou i waho no ka mea makemake ʻo ia, a ʻōlelo wau maikaʻi. ʻAʻole hiki iaʻu ke kamaʻilio maʻamau me ia. Makau wau i kahi makaʻu 24/7 a me ka ʻole o ka hoihoi iā ia no laila ua haki mākou. Ua hauʻoli loa wau i ko mākou kaʻawale ʻana no ka mea ʻoi aku ka maʻalahi o ka pōpilikia a me ka kaʻawale ʻole me ia. ʻAʻole hiki iā ʻoe ke noho me ke kaikamahine e like me ia inā ʻino ʻoe, suicidal a kaumaha. Kūpono ʻo ia i kāne nui.
No laila,ʻo kaʻu hana hou, ua hoʻomaka wau e hoʻopiʻi i kaʻu mau pilikia aʻikeʻo NoFap, YBOP, Reboot Nation, uaʻike wau he HOCD koʻu,ʻike maoli wau e hoʻopau ana wau iaʻu iho i hoʻokahi makahiki. Ua kū wau i ka nānāʻana i nā porn e like me kā lākou'ōleloʻana ma NoFap, YBOP a me Reboot Nation, ua hala wikiwiki loa nā lā hardmode a laila ua hoʻi hou wau me Tranny porn, a ma hope iho, ua hoʻokuʻu pinepine au. ʻOi aku ka maikaʻi o koʻu HOCD, akā ua mamao loa mai ka maikaʻi. Libido, kūkuluʻia a me nā kumu kakahiakaʻaʻole i koe.
Ua huhū wau iaʻu iho, no ka mea, makemake wau e lilo i BOSS e like me kaʻu e hele nei aʻaʻole e hele ana i ka make. Hāʻawi wau i kaʻu kuʻi i kaʻole; Manaʻo wauʻo kēia manawa wau i hana ai i ka 30 lā hardmode, a ua hoʻopau hoʻi me ka hoʻihoʻi i tranny porn. I kēia manawa ua pā wau i koʻu poʻo a hiki i koʻu huhū. Hoʻomanaʻo houʻia kekahi mau lā a nui hou a paʻakikī hou a hoʻi hou a ua nui ka manawa i hala i nā makahiki 3 i hala iho nei. ʻO koʻu mau mea maikaʻi loa he mau lā 160, i ia manawa e hiki iaʻu ke loaʻa i nā manawa maikaʻi maʻamau a me ka 4 / 7 lā kakahiaka kakahiaka akāʻaʻole nō he libido.
E manaʻoʻiʻo mai iaʻu, ʻaʻole pili i ka nui o nā lā i hala, nā mea āpau e hana nei i kēia mau lā, a he aha kāu e hana ai i ka manawa e hoʻomaka ana i kēia manawa a hiki i kou make ʻana. Lana koʻu manaʻo ua maopopo iā ʻoe ka mea aʻu e hoʻāʻo nei e ʻōlelo. Ma hope o kāu heluhelu ʻana i kēia, hele i waho, kahi, ʻike ke akua ma hea, inā hiki iā ʻoe, haʻalele i kāu kelepona i ka home, hele e hele wāwae i kahi wahie, hele e holo kaʻa paikikala, kau pū me kou mau hoaaloha, hele i ka hale hoʻoikaika kino, hele e kipa i kou mau kūpuna. , kōkua i kou mau mākua me kekahi mea, hana i kahi mea kūpono, ʻaʻole ia e hoʻololi i ka honua a i kou ola, akā ke hana nei i kēlā me kēia lā, e lilo ia i mea maʻamau no laila ke ʻano e lilo ʻoe i kanaka ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi. E poina e pili ana i kāu pīpī a me PIED a me kekahi mau moʻolelo e pili ana i nā fapstronauts, poina e pili ana i ka hopohopo inā loaʻa iā ʻoe kahi wahie kakahiaka i kēia kakahiaka a i ʻole, mai noʻonoʻo e pili ana i ka mea e hiki ke hana inā ʻike ʻoe i kahi kaikamahine maikaʻi a ʻaʻole ʻoe e paʻakikī a pehea ka nui hala ʻole nā lā me ka PMO a me ka bla bla bla.
He lono maikaʻi ʻole kaʻu no kekahi o ʻoukou ... ʻO ka mea nui naʻu a no ʻoukou āpau e holo hou ana. E hoʻolohe iaʻu, Pono ʻoe e hoʻomau i ka ʻimi ʻana i kāu ʻuhane. ʻO ka hele ʻana i nā lā he nui me ka ʻole o ka PMO he maikaʻi loa ia akā he piko wale nō ia o ka hau hau nui. Ke hele nei i NoFap a me ka loli ʻole i kekahi mea i kou ola e loli loa ia. Nui nā poʻe ma nā pūnaewele he ʻōhumu e pili ana i ka 1,2,3 a i ʻole 4 mau makahiki PMO manuahi a ʻaʻohe o lākou mea i loaʻa. No ke aha mai? No ka mea ʻo kā lākou pahuhopu ke loaʻa paʻakikī i kā lākou keiki kāne i hiki iā lākou ke ʻumeʻume i kēlā me kēia kaikamahine e hele kokoke ana. Ua hewa loa ia, e manaʻoʻiʻo mai iaʻu. ʻAʻole ia kāu pahuhopu, no ka mea inā ʻo kāu pahuhopu ia, a laila ke hana hewa nei ʻoe i nā mea āpau, a ʻike ʻoe i ke kumu ?? No ka mea MAU MAU.
ʻO nā keikikāne he mau kānaka nani, heʻaloʻalo, he pilikino, he nui nā maka. He kaua hou kēia lā i ka wā e lanakila ai kona naʻau. ʻO ka wahine wale nō kahi mea maikaʻi e hele pinepine mai me ka pilina. Ponoʻoe eʻoluʻolu a maikaʻi iā ia inā makemakeʻoe e mālama iā ia. Loaʻa iā ia kona ola, loaʻa iā ia kona mau pilikia, i kēlā me kēia mahina he mau lā i kona manawa a he ponoʻoe e kākoʻo iā ia, ponoʻo ia e lilo i hoaaloha maikaʻi. Mai kāohi iā lākou e like me nā pila wahine,ʻoi aku ka nui o nā kānaka ma mua o kou hiki i kēia manawa.
Ke heluhelu nei au i nā moʻolelo e ola nei, a me nā moʻolelo o ka poʻe i loaʻa nā pilikia no ka manawa lōʻihi a nui ka poʻe e kamaʻilio e pili ana i nā superpowers. He aha lākou he supermans a he aha paha? Aloha, ʻaʻole ou mana nui, e lilo ʻoe i kanaka maʻamau. E lilo ʻoe i kanaka e like me kāu e manaʻo ai inā ʻaʻole ʻoe e nānā porn no ka lōʻihi. Aia i hea wau i kēia manawa? Ua ʻike wau i kēia mea e pili ana i nā pahuhopu o ke ola i ka wā ma mua, a ua hoʻololi wau i koʻu kaila ola. Ke aʻo nei wau i ka hana ʻenekini, ma koʻu ʻāina ʻo ia ke koleke ʻoi loa o ka paʻakikī, a ua hoʻopau wau i nā hōʻike ʻoi loa no ka mea ua hoʻokō piha wau iaʻu iho, ʻeono mau mahina a he ʻenekini wau ... hiki iā ʻoe ke hilinaʻi?
3 mau makahiki i hala aku nei, ʻaʻole wau he kanaka, ʻaʻohe pahu hopu ... i kēia manawa ua pā wau i ka hale hoʻoikaika kino 3 mau manawa i ka pule, maikaʻi loa wau, ua hoʻomaka wau i ka mokomoko i ka makahiki i hala aku nei a he mea pono loa ia no ke ola e manaʻoʻiʻo iaʻu, no ka mea he mea hakakā nui ke ola, a inā ʻoe nawaliwali, e haki ia iā ʻoe. Hele nui wau i kēlā me kēia manawa ke hiki, me ke kālā a me ka ʻole. Pili nui wau, kamaʻilio wau me nā poʻe he nui, i kekahi manawa hele wau i hitchhiking.
ʻO kaʻu wahine i haʻalele iaʻu 5 mau makahiki i hala iho nei, a i kēia mau lā, ua hui hou kāua, a ua hana pono ināʻo wau i kahi 5 makahiki i hala aku nei, e hana wau i ka mea like āna i hana mua ai i ka wā he kanaka naʻaupō wau. I kēia manawa, hauʻoli nui wau me ia, he wahine maikaʻi loaʻo ia, nui koʻu aloha iā ia a ua lōʻihi kā mākou manawa lōkahi.
A i kēia manawa kekahi mea e pili ana i ka moekolohe kaʻu e manaʻo nei e ʻike nā poʻe āpau. ʻO ka hana kolohe ʻana i ka porn ... ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke haʻi iā ʻoe i ka manawa hope loa aʻu i PMO ai, akā ʻoiaʻiʻo, kuhi au ua hala ma mua o hoʻokahi makahiki a me ka hapa. Loaʻa iā mākou ka moekolohe maʻamau? ʻAe, loaʻa iā mākou, i kēlā me kēia manawa ke ʻike ʻole wau i kona ʻōlohelohe he pōhaku paʻakikī kaʻu kāne a hoʻomaʻamaʻa mākou i ka wahine karezza no ka mea manaʻo wau ʻaʻole akamai loa ka moekolohe ʻana me ka orgasm a me ka ejaculation i ka hoʻomaka a makemake ʻoe e makemake i kāu ʻoi aku ka nui o nā hoa a maikaʻi ia i nā pilina lōʻihi e mālama i kēlā ahi ma waena o nā hoa ʻelua a ke manaʻo nei wau inā he moekolohe ʻoe me ka orgasm a me ka ejaculation i ka manawa pinepine hiki iā ia ke hoʻihoʻi iā ʻoe i kahi liʻiliʻi.
ʻO ka pilikia wale nō ka hoʻi ʻole o kaʻu libido no laila ʻaʻole wau e hele me ka pōhaku i loko o koʻu mau lole wāwae akā inā pono ʻo ia e hana i kahi hana, mākaukau ʻo ia. ʻO ka manawa hope loa wau i ʻike ai i TRANNY porn ʻoi aku ma mua o 2 mau makahiki i hala aku nei, a manaʻoʻiʻo iaʻu ʻaʻole wau i kikokiko a hiki i kēia manawa hahaha.
ʻO ka nīnau āu e hele mau ana i ka porn trannsexual a iʻole nāʻano'ē aʻe. AʻOLE!! Ma hope o nā makahiki 2, ua poina maoli wau no ka nānā ponoʻana iaʻu, akā, ponoʻoe e hakakā me ia. ʻAʻole hiki ke maʻalahi ka hana.
E like me kaʻu i'ōlelo ai ma mua, loaʻa wau i kekahi mau puʻupuʻu no ka hoʻohanaʻana i ka porn, a ma hope o ka wā lōʻihi e ola nei i ka porn, ua nele loa lākou. Ke paniʻoe i ka nānāʻana i ka porn, eʻimi ana kou lolo i ka dopamine ma nāʻano likeʻole, ke'ōlelo nei au iāʻoe e'ōlelo aku e pale aku i kou lolo i nā manawa a pau, a ma hope o kou lanakilaʻana i nā kaua i kou lolo, e haʻaleleʻo ia iāʻoe, a lilo ia kou hoaaloha. Ponoʻoe e hoʻokomo i kahi paleki porn, aʻo ka hopena maikaʻi loa i hanaʻia wau,ʻo ia e hāʻawi i kaʻu hoaaloha i kaʻu moʻokāki o koʻu pale porn i hiki iā ia keʻike i nā mea a pau aʻu eʻimi ai ma ka pūnaewele. E ho'āʻo e nānā i ka porn a iʻole kekahi mea e pili ana inā loaʻa iāʻoe nā pōpō. I mea e pōkole ai,ʻaʻohe mea maikaʻi iāʻoe.
I kēia manawa e haʻi aku wau iā ʻoe i kahi ʻano pōkole i ka mea āu e pono ai a ʻaʻole pono e hana.
1) Kū koke i ka nānā ʻana i ka porn, a kū me ka masturbation. (ʻ saylelo kekahi poʻe he maikaʻi ka hoʻomaʻamaʻa, akā hiki maoli paha iā ʻoe nā mea porn addict e masturbate me ka ʻole o ka noʻonoʻo? ʻAʻole wau i manaʻo pēlā, a e hoʻopau ka masturbation i kou ikaika, a ʻo kēlā ikehu ka mea e pono ai ʻoe e hana PRODUCTIVE nā mea.)
2) Ua ho'ōkiʻoe i ka nānāʻana i nā porn, a hoʻohauʻoli a ke hele nei e hoʻomau i ka nānā aku i ka lepo maʻemaʻe youtube a me nā meleiʻoniʻoni a iʻole facebook kiʻi, twitter, instagram a me nā miliona miliona e like me kēia. NO KA PIXELS. Ke hoʻopunipuni wale neiʻoe iāʻoe wale nō.
3) E hoʻokomo i kahi pale porn maikaʻi a hāʻawi aku i kāuʻike i kāu hoaaloha / hoa / hoa / mom / dad / kaikuaʻana / kaikuaʻana a iʻole paha.
4) Hoʻomaka e hana i kekahi mea huaʻai i kēia manawa, akā e hele mua aku i kou hale, he hoʻomaka maikaʻi. Hana i kekahi mea e makemake aiʻoe no ka manawa lōʻihi loa.
5) Mai hele i kahi moe a hoʻomaka i ka noʻonoʻo ʻana iā ʻoe iho e loaʻa ana i ka moekolohe me kekahi kaikamahine, ʻaʻole wau e kaumaha !!! He mea kūpono ʻole ia, ʻaʻole maikaʻi ia e like me ka nānā ʻana i ka porn, akā manaʻoʻiʻo ʻoe he maikaʻi ʻole ia.
6) E ʻimi ʻoe i hoa. ʻO kekahi mea hiki iā ʻoe ke kaʻana like i nā mea huna a me kahi mea hiki iā ʻoe ke haʻi i ka mea e hana nei. He mea koʻikoʻi loa ia. ʻO Rewiring ka mea nui loa. Heluhelu hou ia !!!!!! Me ka ʻole, e holo mālie nā mea i hiki iā lākou. Pono ʻoe e haʻi i kāu hoa i ka mea e hana nei no ka mea e maʻalahi ka maʻalahi o nā mea a waiho i kou kaomi. Inā ʻaʻole makemake ʻo ia e kākoʻo i kou ola ke hōʻola ʻoe, ma mua o ka pono ʻole iā ʻoe PERIOD.
7) Inā helu ʻoe i nā lā, mai huhū inā ʻaʻole ʻoe ʻike i kahi hoʻomaikaʻi ma hope o kēlā helu naʻaupō o 90 mau lā. E manaʻoʻiʻo mai iaʻu, e hoʻōla ʻia paha kekahi poʻe ma hope o 90 mau lā, akā inā ʻoe he porn porn paʻakikī e like me aʻu, ma mua o 90 mau lā e hoʻomehana wale ana. Ma hope o 90 mau lā e kaʻawale ʻoe mai nā koi e nānā i ka porn aʻo ia nā mea āpau. ʻO ia ka manawa ke hoʻohana ʻoe i kou manawa manawaleʻa e hana i kahi mea maikaʻi nāu.
8) PALAPALA. He makuahine makuahine lapuwale ... wā weliweli o ka manawa. Mai nīnau iaʻu a i ʻole i kekahi pehea ka lōʻihi o ia no ka mea ʻaʻohe mea e ʻike, malia paha hoʻokahi mahina, a malia paha i hoʻokahi makahiki, inā haʻi kekahi iā ʻoe e hala ana he 34 mau lā, 9 mau hola a me 14 mau minuke, piha paha ʻo ia i ka lepo. ʻO ka manawa kēia e pono ai i kou lolo e kiʻi maʻamau no laila e lawe ʻo ia i nā manawa āpau e pono ai. Maikaʻi maoli kēia no ka mea e hoʻokuʻu ia i kou lolo mai ka ʻiʻina porn.
9) LAAU MORNING ... ʻe inā ʻoe e noʻonoʻo e pili ana i kēlā me kēia lā, hiki nō paha ʻaʻole iā ʻoe. Mai hoʻokau i kekahi mea. He hōʻailona maikaʻi ia e hoʻomaikaʻi nei ʻoe, akā hiki iā ʻoe ke ala aʻe me ka ʻole o ia no nā kumu miliona e like me ka hopohopo, stress a ALARM paha. Inā ala ʻoe i kēlā me kēia lā me ka hoʻohana ʻana i ka pū waikaua, a laila maʻamau ʻoe e heʻe i kēia wā o ke kakahiaka i kou wā e loaʻa ai ka wahie kakahiaka. No laila, mai hopohopo e pili ana, i ka manawa mua ma hope o nā makahiki he ʻumi, ua ʻike wau i ka wahie kakahiaka ma hope o 4 mau mahina ma NoFap. Ua ʻike kekahi mau kānaka ma hope o 6 a 8 mau mahina a ʻoi aku paha, no laila mai hopohopo.
10) Mai hilinaʻi i kou lolo, e ho'āʻoʻo ia e hoʻopunipuni iāʻoe i nā manawa he nui,'ānōʻo ia kou ENEMY. Mai hina i kēlā mea.
11) Pono e launa pū me nā kānaka, nui loa.
Manaʻo wau ua uhi wau i nā mea nui a pau, i kēia manawa e kōkua wau i koʻu mau hoaaloha i loaʻa iā HOCD (porn hoʻokomo aʻaʻoleʻole).
E like me kaʻu i ʻōlelo mua ai ma ka ʻōlelo, no ka nele o ka dopamine i koʻu lolo i ka hala ʻana o ka manawa ua hoʻomaka wau e nānā i ka porn kāne a me ka porn transexual. Ua luhi loa ka porn maʻamau e pili ana i kaʻu moe kolohe. Pono wau i ke kīkiʻi ikaika i ke poʻo, a ikaika loa kēia ʻano no laila ua maikaʻi wau me ia, ua ʻike wau he porn wale nō ia. Ua hoʻomaka koʻu mau pilikia ma hope o koʻu hoʻomaopopo ʻana ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke hoʻokō i ke kūkulu ʻana me ka porn maʻamau a i ʻole me nā kaikamahine maoli. Ua makaʻu wau i ka hele a male paha, a 5 mau minuke ma hope HOCD.
E like me kaʻu i ʻōlelo ai, ʻo kekahi mau pule mua nā pule ʻino loa i koʻu ola. Ua makaʻu loa wau, ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke manaʻoʻiʻo e pili ana iaʻu, makemake mau wau i nā kaikamahine, aloha iā lākou, noʻonoʻo iā lākou a me nā mea nani ʻē aʻe. ʻAʻohe aʻu mea e kūʻē ai i ka poʻe male kāne akā ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke hoʻomaopopo iā lākou. No laila ka mea aʻu i hana ai, ua hoʻomaka wau e hele e pili ana iā HOCD i kēlā me kēia lā a me ka pō, ua lilo ia i mea nui iaʻu. Ua ʻike wau i kekahi manawa i kahi hoʻomaha ma hope o ka heluhelu ʻana e pili ana ma ka pūnaewele, a i kekahi manawa heluhelu wau i kahi mea i kākau ʻia e kekahi e ʻike ʻole i ka HOCD a e kaumaha loa wau. Ua lawe koʻu ikaika a pau, ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke hana kūpono, ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke kau pū me koʻu mau hoaaloha no ka mea manaʻo wau hiki iaʻu ke lilo i kāne kāne. Inā pili kekahi kāne iaʻu, e maʻi ana wau. Ke nānā nei wau i kēlā me kēia kāne a me nā wahine ma ke alanui a hoʻāʻo e hoʻomaopopo i kaʻu makemake. Ke ʻike wau i kahi wahine, ʻaʻole wau e ʻike i kekahi mea (no ka porn o koʻu lolo i luku ʻia), a ke nānā aku wau i ke kāne kūlohelohe ua ʻike wau i ka pane o ka ʻūhū. Nui ʻino ka manaʻo.
Hiki iaʻu ke kākau e pili ana iā 10 mau ʻaoʻao hou aʻe no ka mea ua hakakā wau me ia no ʻaneʻane 2 mau makahiki akā ʻaʻole wau no ka mea ʻike ʻoe i nā mea āpau. No laila nani ka maka o ka makahiki mua, makemake wau e ʻike i nā pane āpau no ke aha wau e like me kēia. ʻIke ʻoe, ʻo kēia ka pilikia, ʻaʻole wau makemake e kāhea iā ia HOCD, no ka mea e kapa wale wau iā OCD no ka mea ʻo ia ia. Maopopo iā ʻoe he aha ia ʻo OCD? ʻO ka maʻiʻehaʻeha. He ANXIETY maʻalahi wale ia. Hoʻokahi nīnau no ʻoe a me kou lolo i ka lā holoʻokoʻa no ka hana ʻana. E manaʻoʻiʻo iaʻu, ʻaʻole ʻoe he kāne a he kāne paha, a maopopo iā ʻoe no ke aha e 100000% ʻoiaʻiʻo. No ka mea makaʻu ʻoe he kāne kāne ʻoe. E haʻi mai ʻoe iaʻu i kekahi mea, ke manaʻo nei ʻoe makaʻu ka poʻe peʻapeʻa he kāne kāne lākou? ʻAʻole lākou, makaʻu lākou i ka hopena o ke kaiāulu a ʻo ia wale nō. ʻAʻole lākou makemake e lilo i heterosexual, hauʻoli lākou no ka mea he wahine kāne lākou, e manaʻoʻiʻo iaʻu, ua kamaʻilio wau me nā kāne kāne he nui. Inā ʻoe e nīnau iā lākou, ʻo lākou ka poʻe hauʻoli loa i ka honua inā loaʻa iā lākou kahi pelane gay kahi e nānā ʻole ai kekahi iā lākou e like me ka hewa. A ke nīnau wau iā ʻoe he aha kāu e makemake ai e moekolohe a pololei paha, ʻike wau i ka pane, akā ʻaʻole pono ʻoe e pane ia mea, no ka mea e pāʻani ana kou lolo a ʻaʻole ʻoe e manaʻo e haʻi ana ʻoe iaʻu i ka ʻoiaʻiʻo.
Manaʻo paha ʻoe iā ʻoe iho me kēlā me kēia kāne kāne a puni ʻoe a ʻike hōʻino ʻoe, makaʻu a luhi hoʻi no ka mea ke hana wikiwiki nei kou lolo a ke lawe nei ia i kou ikaika. Manaʻo ʻoe ua huhū kēnā kāne kāne a puni ke kāne kāne uʻi? Manaʻo wau ʻaʻole pēlā. Akā hana ʻoe a ʻo ia ka mea e hoʻolilo iā ʻoe i 10000% pololei. Hoʻouka ʻo OCD i nā manawa āpau i kahi mea āu AOLE !!!!!!! E hoʻomanaʻo i kēia !!!
E paʻakikī kēia lā āpau a e nīnau ʻoe iā ʻoe iho i hoʻokahi miliona mau nīnau, a ʻo ia ka OCD. Ua heluhelu wau i kekahi mau hoʻokolohua naʻaupō no ka OCD e pili ana iā ʻoe ke kuhi iā ʻoe iho i ka honi ʻana i kahi kāne a i ʻole ʻaʻole (makemake ʻoe iā ia a i ʻole ʻole) a inā ʻoe e ʻae a laila he kāne aloha ʻoe a inā ʻoe e ʻōlelo ʻaʻole pololei ʻoe. He naʻaupō ia no ka mea e ʻōlelo paha ʻoe ʻaʻole akā na kou lolo e haʻi aku iā ʻoe ʻaʻole ia he ʻoiaʻiʻo. No laila, mai hana i kēia mau hoʻokolohua naʻaupō.
ʻO ka mea aʻe he poʻe kāne kāne e noho ana i nā lumi. E ʻoluʻolu mai hoʻomaka wau i ka hele ʻana i loko o kahi lumi moe a ʻaʻole wau hahahaha no ka mea ʻaʻole ʻoe a e wili wale lākou i kou lolo. ʻO ka poʻe "pololei" i ko lākou ola āpau a he keiki kā lākou a ke male nei lākou i kēia manawa, a laila nīnau ʻoe iā ʻoe iho, he aha inā ʻo kēia kaʻu hihia ... hmm hmmm ... ʻaʻole ia no ka mea he mau kāne mau lākou a makemake mau lākou e me ka moekolohe hoʻokahi akā ʻaʻole hiki iā ia ma muli o ke kaiāulu a me ka hoʻomana. He hōʻike maikaʻi loa kaʻu na ʻolua i kōkua nui mai iaʻu. Ke noho nei ʻoe i loko o ke kaʻa, a ke kali nei ma ke kukui, a ke hele nei kekahi moa wela nui i mua, maikaʻi i kēia manawa mua āu e manaʻo ai ke ʻike ʻoe i kēia kaikamahine ʻo ʻoe nō ia. Maopopo anei iā 'oe? ʻO kēia kekona mua ke ʻike ʻoe i kēlā kaikamahine ma mua o kou lolo naʻaupō me OCD i komo a hoʻāʻo e pāʻani i nā hana hoʻopunipuni me ʻoe a hoʻāʻo e hōʻoia iā ʻoe he kāne kāne ʻoe. Ma hope o 5 kekona e haʻi ana kou lolo iā ʻoe e hōʻaiʻē ana ʻo ia a pono ʻoe e nānā i kekahi kanaka uʻi, akā ʻaʻole ia he mea nui, ʻo ka kekona mua ke ʻike ʻoe he mea nui ia.
Pehea wau e lanakila ai i ka OCD koʻikoʻi? ʻAe no ka mea he porn wau, ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu ke hoʻohana iā ERP (Exposure and Response Prevent) me ka hoʻohana ʻana i ka porn gay no ka mea ʻo ia ka mea i loaʻa iaʻu, no laila hoʻohana wau i ka ola maoli ERP. Ua hele pinepine wau i ka sauna kahi nui o nā kāne ʻōlohelohe a ʻo kekahi o lākou he wahine a ke nānā nei lākou iā ʻoe i kekahi manawa (i kekahi manawa inaina wau iaʻu iho no ka uʻi ʻo LOL), akā manaʻoʻiʻo iaʻu ʻo ia ka mea kaua ikaika loa e kūʻē iā OCD.
Mai hōʻoki i ka launa ʻana me kou mau hoaaloha a mai hōʻoki i ka hana ʻana i nā mea a me ke kipa ʻana i nā wahi āu e makemake ai he shit, ʻaʻole kōkua ia, ke ʻike ʻoe ʻaʻole hiki i kekahi ke hōʻeha iā ʻoe a he naʻaupō wale nō ka manaʻo a laila ke hele nei ʻoe e ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi. ʻO nā manaʻo wale nō he manaʻo. I nā manawa he nui koʻu mau moeʻuhane me aʻu e hana nei i kekahi mau kāne, a he aha kaʻu i hana ai i ka manawa mua? ʻAneʻane wau e pepehi iaʻu iho, a he aha kaʻu i hana ai i ka lua o ka manawa? ʻAʻohe mea, ua haʻi wale wau iaʻu iho he nui kaʻu mau mea nui e hana ai ma mua o ka hopohopo no KA MEA. He porn wale nō ʻo Porn, he pikela wale nō kēia.
Hele ʻoe i ka hale kiʻiʻoniʻoni a uku nui ʻoe i ke kālā e nānā i kahi kiʻi ʻoniʻoni weliweli kahi kahi kāne me kahi kaulahao e ʻokiʻoki nei i ka hapa o ka poʻe, no laila he manaʻo ia ma ke ola maoli āu e makemake ai e nānā? Manaʻo wau ʻaʻole pēlā. Nānā ʻoe i kēia kiʻi ʻoniʻoni no ka mea ʻaʻole maoli ia a ʻano pīhoihoi ʻoe. Loaʻa iā ʻoe?
E noʻonoʻo ana paha ʻoe inā ʻoe e moe i kahi moe me kahi kāne a kūkulu ʻoe i luna a hana ʻoe i ka moekolohe ... ʻO ia kahi mea i hiki i ka hapanui o mākou ke hana. ʻO ka hapa nui o nā mea hana keaka ma nā kiʻi ʻoniʻoni porn. Inā wehe ʻoe i ka pālākiō Kinsey, e ʻike ana ʻoe ʻaʻole nui ka poʻe he 100% a he 100% pololei paha. ʻO ka manaʻo ia he nui ka poʻe e hiki ke moe kolohe me ke kāne like, akā ʻo ka mea nui ka mea āu e makemake ai. A i kēia manawa huikau ʻoe a maopopo ʻole iā ʻoe ka mea āu e makemake ai. Ke hiki mai kēia mau manaʻo iā ʻoe, ʻo ka mea wale nō āu e hana ai, ʻo KA MEA. ʻO kēia wale nō ka ʻokoʻa ma waena ou a me kekahi mea ʻaʻohe o OCD. Inā nīnau ka mea ʻaʻohe ona OCD iā ia iho he kāne kāne ia, pōkole ka pane. NO i hoʻokahi kekona aʻo ia wale nō me ka hana ʻole a me nā pilikia akā ʻaʻole ʻo ʻoe. ʻAʻole hiki iā ʻoe ke hana i kēia. Ke noʻonoʻo nei ʻoe i nā manawa āpau.
ʻAʻole hiki iaʻu ke kākau ma aneʻi i nā mea āpau e pili ana iā ia no ka mea ua ʻohiʻohi wau i kēlā me kēia pane hiki ke nānā i ka lapuwale o ka nīnau. Manaʻo wau he mau pane kaʻu e pono ai no ka mea ua loaʻa maoli wau i ka HOCD koʻikoʻi a ua lanakila wau. ʻIke ʻoe, mai ʻimi e pili ana iā HOCD a i ʻole OCD, inā pono ʻoe, e ʻimi e pili ana i ka ANXIETY no ka mea ʻo ia ka mea e hōʻeha nei iā ʻoe, ʻo HOCD kahi manawa hou aʻe, ʻo ANXIETY ke kumu o kāu mau pilikia a inā makemake ʻoe e kipa i ka psychiatrist, e koho pono no ka mea he nui ka poʻe ʻike ʻole i ka mea āu e ʻōlelo ai, a e ʻoi aku kou manaʻo ma mua o ka wā ma mua.
No laila, inā he nīnau kekahi e pili ana i kekahi mea,ʻoluʻoluʻole e noi aku no koʻu manaʻo e lilo kēia kikokikona i mea nui i ka hahaha nui. He miliona mau manaʻo ma koʻu poʻo e pili ana i nā mea hōʻalo a me ka HOCD e makemake wau e kaʻana aku iāʻoe me ka koho wale nō e kākau i kahi hehehe puke.
Ua makemake au e kākau i kēia no ka wā lōʻihi loa no ka mea, ke manaʻo nei au e like me kaʻu e uku nei i kahi kaiāulu.
Makemake wau e hoʻomaikaʻi aku i nā mea nui a pau ma kēia pūnaewele a me nā pae'ē aʻe'ē aʻe, i kōkua mai iaʻu i nā manawa nui loa o koʻu ola, a me ke aloha nui loa iāʻoe i nā mea a pau.
Ke manaolana nei wau e hoʻonāuki kēia i kekahi a kōkua i kekahi oʻoukou. Inā hoʻokahi wale nō mea eʻoi aku ka maikaʻi ma hope o ka heluheluʻana i kēia, a inā hoʻokahi wale nō mea e hana i kaʻu e'ōlelo ai, ma mua o kēia hana a pau no ka kākauʻana i kēia, e lilo wau i mea hauʻoli loa i ola.
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