Wahine - Makahiki 19 & Palani: Hoʻopaʻa hou wau i ka moekolohe, ʻaʻole i kaumaha hou

6 mahina i hala, ua hoʻoholo wau ho'āʻo ʻaʻole e nānā i ka porn a i ʻole masturbate (masturbation me porn i hiki ʻole ke noʻonoʻo ʻia a) i ʻekolu mau lā. Hana wau i kahi manawa iki, ma hope o ka nānā ʻana keia ninaninau o ke mele I aloha wau i ka manawa.

No ke aha wau i hoʻoholo ai i kēia? ʻO ka mea mua, no ka mea, ʻo ia kaʻu kumu hoʻohālike e like me ka mea hana kiʻi a makemake wau e hoʻāʻo i nā mea āna i hana ai i mea e ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi. Akā ʻo ke kumu maoli, kaumaha wau. Loa, kaumaha loa wau. ʻO wau ʻo 19 makahiki. He keiki ʻōpio kēia. No ka Makahiki Hou, ʻaʻole i hele ma ke kai, me koʻu ʻohana, noho au ma ka home. E kamaʻilio me koʻu pōpoki. Makemake wau makemake e loaʻa nā orgasms e like me aʻu i makemake paʻa ai, me ka pia a me ka waiʻona. Ua pau koʻu inu ʻana, a manaʻoʻiʻo iaʻu, ʻo ia ka mea hope loa e hauʻoli ai iā ʻoe. Ma kahi o ka hoa aloha ʻana a i ʻole ka ʻoliʻoli maoli ʻana, ua kamaʻilio wau i nā mākua i ka ʻoi aku ma mua o koʻu makuakāne me kā lākou mau pīkoi ma kā lākou mau avatars. E like me ka mea hoʻoili. Ua hoʻāʻo wau e hoʻokaʻawale i ke kala, akā ʻo fuck, ʻO kēia kahi haʻahaʻa haʻahaʻa loa o koʻu ola.

No laila ma kahi o 3am. Aia wau i loko o koʻu wahi moe, ʻo ka mea aʻu i hiamoe ai i koʻu wā liʻiliʻi, ka mea aʻu i nānā ai i ka porn no ka manawa mua loa, e nānā ana i kēia ninaninau ʻana, a ua ʻike wau i kahi kiʻi, ʻaʻole wau e hoʻomanaʻo i kahi o ke kaumaha. hoʻonāukiuki i kaʻu hoʻoholo. E pili ana i ka hoʻopunipuni ʻia o nā kaikamahine me ka manaʻo o ke kamāliʻi, a hoʻopunipuni ʻia nā keikikāne me nā kiʻi ʻino. He 2 a me ka hapa makahiki kaʻu mau punahele ma xhamster. ʻAʻole nui ia no nā mea he nui ... Akā he nui ia. Ua nīnau wau iaʻu iho: ʻae, holoi paha wau i nā mea āpau?… A ua hana wau.

I ka wā mua, makemake wau e hoʻāʻo no 3 lā, no laila ua leka aku au i nā mea a pau ma ka xhamster ʻaʻole wau e hele mai no nā lā 3, akā hoʻopau wau i ka holoi ʻana i kaʻu mau punahele, a laila, holoi aku au i kaʻu moʻokāki. Ua haʻi au i ka poʻe ma ka Facebook ua hana wau, ua ʻimi au no ka ʻ pornographyʻowalewale ponokala ma luna o kahi tumblr, i pau keia ʻO ka mea e kamaʻilio ʻana, e alakaʻi ana iaʻu e hana i reddit, a ma muli o ka loaʻa ʻole nā ​​reddit hele wau i kēia kolamu a hoʻopaʻa inoa. Boom, ua loli ke ola. Noho U ʻole. ʻO ke koena ka mōʻaukala.

Ua hoʻololi nui wau?

Ke hoʻolohe mau nei wau i ka CocoRosie e like me wau i uku no ia. Manaʻo wau i ka hoʻomana ʻana i nā mele ma mua o ke Akua Katolika aʻu i manaʻoʻiʻo ai e like me ka mea i ʻike ʻia. ʻO kekahi o kaʻu mau taleni koʻikoʻi o ka hiki ke hoʻolohe i ke mele "Raphael" ma kahi hoihoi hou i nā hola he nui. Aia nō iaʻu i ka palapala palapala a Skyrim i kahakaha ʻia i loko o kaʻu mau kapili a ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi ma mua o ke kūlanakauhale aʻu i noho ai mai koʻu makahiki ʻo 3. ʻOiai ʻaʻole maikaʻi au. Ua hōʻeha pinepine wau i nā poʻe aʻu e aloha ai. Lūlū au i ka hōʻaiʻē. Ua maluhia wau. ʻOi piha mauʻu i ka momona ma muli o kaʻu kaila hakakā nui mai nā mahina ʻekolu i hala. ʻO wau nō ka fangirl nui a he hōʻeha nui kēia kēia i ka hoki (nā keikikāne a me nā kaikamahine, mahalo nui wau iā ʻoe ʻaʻole e nānā iā Orange Is The New Black inā ʻaʻole ʻoe he piliona pākētike e pani hou ʻia. Fuck iā Alex Vause , Ua wela loa ʻoe noʻu, ua ʻōlelo wau e HINDU me ka hana hake aloha a e ʻāʻā ana ʻoe me aʻu). Ke hoʻoiho nei au e like me ke madwoman. ʻO wau he addict kamepiula, a he lae wale nō, he Katolika hewa. A ʻo ka mea nui loa ... ʻo ke kaumaha ʻo ka wahine aloha maikaʻi loa kaʻu i loaʻa i kekahi manawa. ʻAʻole ia no ka mea hauʻoli nui wau i ka wā lōʻihi ʻaʻole wau i kekahi mau manawa kaumaha. No ka mea, he paʻakikī ia. E hōʻeuʻeu i nā mea a pau e ʻōlelo mai ana he maʻalahi, me aʻu hoʻi. ʻAe, ua lawe wau i ka hoʻoholo e haʻalele, a ʻae, ʻo kēia ka hōʻoia maoli loa ʻaʻole wau e haʻalele hou, akā paʻakikī nō ka fuck.

Aka e ike oe i ka aha kane. Ua hoʻololi wau. He kanaka ʻē loa wau. ʻAʻole wau ʻo ka "kūʻokoʻa" o ke kaikamahine i hoʻopaʻa ʻia ma ʻehā mau mahina i hala aku nei. ʻAʻole wau i hoʻowahāwahā iā ia.

ʻAʻole he kaua ʻo NoFap. ʻAʻole he kaua. ʻAʻole ia he mea āu e lanakila ai. He moʻolelo o ka hoʻolauleʻa a me ke aloha. ʻOi aku pololei, haʻalele i ke addict. ʻAʻole wau e manaʻo i ka like ʻo NoFap a hemo nō hoʻi. NoFap ka luʻu. Pau loa. E poina ʻole i kāu mea hala aku, akā e kala mai.

ʻAʻole wau e ʻike hou ai:

1. i ke aloha. ʻAʻole hiki iaʻu ke ʻike i ke koʻikoʻi o kēia. ʻAʻole kēia wale no ka lilo ʻana i kauā o ke ola kaulana - aloha wau iā Bianca, aloha wau i kēia wahine. ʻAʻole wau i aloha hou. ʻAʻole ia he manaʻo ua "hāʻawi" wau a hōʻoia i ka ʻoiaʻiʻo ʻaʻole wau e "noho pū me ia" a i ʻole kekahi mea ma nā laina; he manaʻo akāka ʻole ʻo ka mea aʻu e ʻike nei ʻaʻole ke aloha o kahi ipo. Pehea e wehewehe ai i kahi mea kūlohelohe i ke ʻano? ... ʻAʻole wau e aloha hou me kahi ʻuhane. I kēia pule i hala iho nei, ua kaumaha wau e ke kāne, kaumaha nui loa. No ka mea ke manaʻo nei wau e aloha hou ana wau i kahi ʻano fiction. Manaʻo wau ʻaʻole hiki iaʻu, akā ʻo ka Haku o ka Lani kahi kokoke loa. ʻO ia kahi mea aʻu e ʻike ai ma ka puʻuwai. ʻO kēia ke ala aʻu i noho ai no 19 mau makahiki. He paʻakikī ke hoʻokuʻu.
2. nāwaliwali kūmole. He kaikamahine hauʻoli. He kaikamahine maikaʻi wau, supra hauʻoli, ʻo ke kaikamahine hauʻoli loa e hui ai ʻoe. Ke hoʻomaka nei wau i nā manawa a pau. Akā i kekahi manawa, haki iki ka pale ʻana. A i kekahi manawa, paʻakikī mau ke ola. A he kūpono e kulou i lalo. ʻAʻole wau e inaina hou iaʻu. ʻAʻole naʻe wau i ka hoaaloha aloha loa ʻia, akā makemake wau e make iaʻu. A ʻo ka mea hewa, ʻo ka ʻenemi hoʻokahi wale nō wau. Point: ʻAʻole wau makemake e make iaʻu iho i ka manawa pōkole loa. A ʻo kēia ka makana nui loa i hiki iaʻu ke loaʻa. E ola wau, a ola pau au.
3. he mea hihiu, he mea pāʻani, he youtuber, ma Facebook, a ma Tumblr. ʻIke wau i nā pāʻani i kahi shitload. Makele wau i nā universes, poina wau i ka nānā ʻole a mālama i ka honua holoʻokoʻa, makaʻu wau i ka poema a me adrenaline. Akā… ʻaʻole wau ke pāʻani nei. "ʻAʻole ia he hana". ʻAʻole wau i nā pāʻani, no ke kumu nui kaʻu i hoʻomana ai iā lākou. A i kekahi manawa, makemake wau e ulaula. ʻO ka maʻamau ke kaumaha wau. Akā ma ka hopena o ke lā, ʻaʻole au e kūʻai i nā pepa o nā pua. "ʻAʻole wau e hana."
4. he mea makua. Hiki paha ke kamaʻilio e pili ana i kēia. Akā ʻaʻole ia mea he mea. Ua haʻalele au.
5. Moʻokūʻā, ua hoʻopuka mau ʻia au. ʻOluʻolu wau i ka ʻumi kekona, he mea hilahila, ʻike maoli i kekahi mea e hoʻokū iaʻu. Ua maikaʻi ia. A ʻoiai, inā he ala wau, ʻaʻole wau i ʻike mamao pehea e lilo ai kēia mea he kumu noʻu e masturbate a nānā ʻole i nā porn. Makemake au i ka wā maoli, manawa. He nui nā moe kuhi nui iaʻu no ka mea ua taleni wau i ka hoʻoili ʻana iaʻu.

ʻO wau kahi e:

1. he kanaka luna. ʻ ,lelo, no laila pale ʻole au, a ua loaʻa iaʻu kahi LOT o ka paona, akā ke hōʻole nei wau ʻaʻole e manaʻo i ia mea ʻaʻole wau e pae i kaʻu kaupaona. A e holo wau i kahi marathon. E holo wau i kahi marathon no koʻu māmā hiki ʻole, a no wau, KEIA HUA NOHO.
2. ʻaʻole i hoʻopili ʻia i nā mea lako. ʻO ka nani o ka haʻalele ʻana i ka addiction PMO ʻo ia ka mea, ke ʻoki nei ʻoe i ka leʻaleʻa i nā mea leʻaleʻa i hāʻawi ʻia e PMO, ʻimi nui loa kou lolo e komo i nā leʻaleʻa liʻiliʻi a hiki ke loaʻa mai kēlā ʻAʻole wau e ʻike i ka palaka iā ia, e noʻonoʻo ʻoe, akā ʻo ka manaʻo maoli ia. I ka hopena, ke hauʻoli nei wau i nā mea ʻoluʻolu liʻiliʻi i ke ola x1000000000. He ʻeha loa au. Ua lawa ka hele ʻana ma Lākana iaʻu kahi HIGH. E like me ka lāʻau lapaʻau kiʻekiʻe. ʻAʻole wau i lawe i kekahi lāʻau lapaʻau, ma muli o koʻu ʻano pili i kahi mauʻu, ʻaʻole loa e like, akā ke kāne, ʻaʻole au ʻike inā makemake wau ia, no ka mea e loaʻa iaʻu ka SOOOO kiʻekiʻe ma ke ola wale nō. Ma luna o kēlā, ua emi wau a emi iho i ka manaʻo o ka loaʻa ʻana o nā mea i hoʻopiha ʻole ʻia me ka hala ʻole. Ua hoʻopio ʻo PMO i ka puʻuwai manaʻo aʻu i manaʻo ai, ʻo ia kaʻu kime wahine maikaʻi e like me ka lio, kaʻu kauwā kāne ʻimi, a ʻo ka hauʻoli nui loa iaʻu. Aʻole pilikia. Pono wau i kēia manawa. Pono au e haʻalele. Ua hana au. "Ua hauʻoli wau, ua pau". Ma ka hala ʻana o PMO, ua ʻike wau i kahi o nā mea huna. A ua hoʻōla wau iā lākou, hoʻokahi lā a me ka puʻu i ka manawa. ʻAʻohe mea hoʻohālike au, a he ʻino wau i ka wā e haʻalele ai. Ua like me ka PMO i hoʻopiha i ka hala, i nā mea ʻē aʻe a pau kaʻu i hana ai. A ʻo ka mea liʻiliʻi hoʻi aʻu e liʻiliʻi ai, ʻo ka liʻiliʻi ka pono o ka waiwai nui o kaʻu mea e manaʻo ai. Ua minamina au i ka hoʻokaʻawale ʻana i ka "pono" a "makemake", akā ua ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi o ia mea. ʻO kekahi manawa manawa a ʻoi aku ka maikaʻi o nā manawa a me nā manaʻo ma mua o nā mea artifact. Hāʻawi wau i kaʻu waiwai pilikino nui loa no ka lua o ka nalowale ʻana iaʻu ma ka lā mua o kahi ʻaha mele.
3. ʻoi aku ke kālā. A he pōpilikia nui loa ia ʻoe e nā hoaaloha. ʻAʻole wau i minimalist, akā no wau ke pīhoihoi nei i kēia ala nani. Hāʻawi au i koʻu lole a me nā ukana. Ua hiki iaʻu ke pahuhopu i koʻu manaʻo e hoʻomaopopo pono i kaʻu mea e hana ai. ʻO wau no ka hōʻaiʻē, aila'ē maoli nō, a e hana au ma muli o ia. E like me ka mea i lilo i mea hoʻokele kanaka. E hoʻomaʻamaʻa e like me ka mea hoʻokūkū ... ʻaiʻai e like me ka mea hoʻokūkū. Aia ma Roma, e like me ka hana a ko Roma. ʻAe, ua kālā nui kaʻu poʻe i kekahi, a ʻo ka hoʻolilo kālā ʻaʻole iaʻu e ʻoliʻoli nui hou aku nei, i kēia manawa, ʻike wau e ola au ma New York. ʻO wau ka hapalua o kahi hoarder, a me ka hapalua hoʻi minimalist. E hilinaʻi iaʻu - ʻaʻohe mea akā hiki iaʻu E hōʻole wau i ka maʻamau. He momokunu, ʻeā? ʻAʻole wau e hāʻawi i kahi palupalu, à la Marshall Matters. ʻAʻole wau e nele i kahi. E kūleʻa wau a hoʻokō wau i kaʻu moe. KOKOKOA FAKU KOMOHAKO. Ke manaʻoʻiʻo nei au i ka Providence, hana paʻakikī, a me ka manaʻolana.
4. I manaʻoʻiʻo wale aku i ke Akua.
5. hauoli mau. I aku la o Nuff.
6. ke holomua ʻana. Mai hoʻopau i ka hoʻomaikaʻi ʻana.

Kōkuhi: Nā mahina 6.

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