ʻO ka manawa mua aʻu i moe kolohe ai me kaʻu kāne, ʻaʻole ʻo ia i hele mai. Ua ʻike wau ma hope ma hope he kūlana kēia nona - no ka hapa nui o kona ola moekolohe, paʻakikī ʻo ia, akā ua nalowale ia i ka hapalua. Ke hele a koʻikoʻi ko mākou pilina, ua maikaʻi ka moekolohe, akā ʻaʻole naʻe ia e like me he mea lā noʻu. ʻOiai ʻoiai he ʻelua mau melemele ʻōpio me kā mākou keiki ʻole a me nā tona o ka manawa, ʻaʻole mākou i hana pinepine e like me kaʻu makemake. Aia nō kekahi mau manawa ʻaʻole ʻo ia i hele mai. Ua hoʻopiʻi ʻo ia iā ia ma ka make wai ʻana, ka wai ʻona, ka hana nui, ka hiamoe ʻole, a me ka hopohopo paha no kaʻu hoʻonānea.
Ma hope o kekahi mau keiki a ʻaʻohe manawa, ʻike ʻole ʻia ua hana mākou i ka mea liʻiliʻi. ʻAʻohe ʻo ia i noi. A inā wau i noi aku ia, he crapshoot inā ʻo ia e komo i loko. Pono pono ka manawa - pono ʻo ia e hoʻomaha maikaʻi, ʻaʻole ʻona loa, ʻaʻole piha a piha, ʻaʻole hana nui. Ua haʻi wau iaʻu iho he haʻahaʻa paha kāna o ka wahine, a lawe i ka mea e hiki ai iaʻu ke kiʻi.
I loko o nā makahiki, loaʻa wale wau he porn i nā manawa he nui. He pupule ʻo ia i ka hūnā ʻana iā ia. Akā, aia nō kahi manaʻo nunui, kahi palaka i ko mākou ola moekolohe hiki ʻole iaʻu ke ʻike. I ka manawa a mākou e ʻakaʻaka nei e pili ana i ka moʻoina o Seinfeld masturbation, a ua nīnau ʻakaʻaka wau iā ia i nā manawa he nui i hala i kēlā me kēia pule. Ua ʻoluʻolu ʻole ʻo ia, a ʻae ʻia i 4-5 mau manawa i kēlā me kēia pule. Ua pūʻiwa au. Ua noʻonoʻo wau: pehea kona ikaika e kāpae ai i kēlā nui akā ʻaʻohe ona ʻona noʻu?
I kekahi lā i ka wā o kahi noiʻi pūnaewele hohonu e luʻu i ka pilina a me nā pilikia moekolohe, ua heluhelu au i kahi ʻatikala e pili ana i ka hoʻomana porn a me ka hana erectile porn-induced porn. I kēlā manawa, ʻoiai me ka ʻole o ka nui o nā hōʻoia, maopopo iaʻu.
Ua haʻi wau iā ia e pili ana i ka ʻatikala. I koʻu pūʻiwa, ua haʻiʻo ia iaʻu ua manaʻo lōʻihi ʻo ia ua lilo ʻo ia i ka porn, a ua hoʻohana ʻo ia ia i nā lā o ka pule ma ke ʻano he ala e kū ai. Ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia ua hoʻāʻo ʻo ia e kī i nā makahiki, akā ʻaʻole hiki, a makemake ʻo ia e kū hoʻokahi a no nā mea āpau, me aʻu a me aʻu hoʻi.
I kēia manawa ua maopopo iaʻu ka nui o kāna pili me ka porn, ua makaʻu wau, kumakaia, ʻano weliweli, akā me ka lana o ka manaʻolana. Ma hope o kāna haʻalele mua ʻana, ua ʻōlelo ʻo ia ua nele a hakahaka a hoihoi ʻole i ka moekolohe. ʻO kēia, ua ʻike wau, he pane maʻamau ia i ka haʻalele ʻana i ka porn. Akā i nā mahina i hala, ua loli ke kino. Ua paʻakikī ʻo ia ma mua o kāna, a ua hele wikiwiki ʻo ia a maʻalahi hoʻi. Ua makemake pinepine ʻo ia i ka moekolohe. Ua haʻi wau iā ia i ke ʻano ʻokoʻa o kona kino mai ka haʻalele ʻana i ka porn, a manaʻo wau ua hauʻoli ʻo ia, akā manaʻo wau he mea ʻeha loa nona ke ʻike i ka hana ʻino a ka porn i hana ai ʻaʻole wale i kā mākou pili, akā i kāna mau pili i hala a me ʻo ka hopena, ʻoiaʻiʻo, iā ia iho. …
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