Mgbe ụbọchị 125 zuru oke, n'abalị ụnyaahụ, enwere m nnukwu mmekọahụ na ọtụtụ n'ime ya - na enyi m nwanyị ọhụrụ. Nke a na-akpụzi ka ọ bụrụ otu di na nwunye, adaala m nwa agbọghọ kpamkpam. Mmekọahụ dị ịtụnanya ma nwee ọtụtụ n'ime ya, n'abalị niile. Echere m na mmekọahụ anyị pịrị n'ụzọ zuru oke. A ga-enwe ọtụtụ n'ime ya na-abịa n'ọdịnihu ma enweghị m nchegbu ọ bụla banyere ihe ọ bụla, n'eziokwu.
Maka onye ọ bụla nọ ebe a na-agụ ma na-echegbu onwe ya. Biko ghota na nke a bucha ihe i gha emeriri. Ghọta na ị nweghị ike, na agbanyeghị okwu niile nke ED, mkpịsị akwụkwọ gị nwere ike ịbụ ọrụ zuru oke na oke ọrụ, zuru ike, gbanwee omume gị, ma nwee oke mma. Enweghị m ike ikwusi ike na nke a - bụrụ ihe dị mma!
Chọta onye ị ga-eso bụ ihe ịtụnanya na ọ ga-eme gị, ma ọ bụrụ na ị nwere àgwà ziri ezi. Izu ole na ole gara aga, alụbeghị m di na nwunye, nweekwa obi abụọ na m ga-abụ nwoke. Taa, enwere m mmekọrịta ma enweghị obi abụọ ọ bụla banyere ya. Enwere m nchegbu banyere nrụpụta maka ọtụtụ ọnwa. N'ọnwa gara aga, m kwụsịrị ichegbu onwe m, jikọọ na nnukwu nwa agbọghọ, na n'abalị ụnyaahụ enwere m ụlọ na inwe mmekọahụ ruo ọtụtụ awa, na-enweghị mkpa mmetụ anụ ahụ ọ bụla. More - M na-ere ere mgbe m hụrụ ya, metụ ya aka, susuo ya ọnụ, ọbụlagodi mgbe ụfọdụ mgbe m na-eche banyere ya. Ihi ụra na-agba ume ma na-agba ọtọ, na-esote onye ị nwere mmasị na ya nke ukwuu, mgbe ahụ na-eteta ma na-enwe mmekọahụ dị egwu karị ma na-ehi ụra ọzọ bụ mmetụta dị ịtụnanya. Enwere m afọ ojuju taa. O nwekwara obi uto - ma o choro ka anyi mee ya oge niile.
Ghọta nke a, onye ọ bụla: ị nwere ike ime nke a. Mmekọahụ nwere ike ịnọ ebe ahụ, ị ga-etinye nchegbu niile ma nwee oge ahụ. Kwụsị ikiri egwu ruo mgbe ebighị ebi - ọ bụ igbu oge gị na ume gị, ọ bụ ahụmịhe owu ọmụma. Ma ọ bụrụ na ị nwere ike ịkwụsị igbo onwe gị agụụ mmekọahụ, ma ọ bụ ma ọ dịghị ihe ọzọ ịkwụsị igbo onwe gị mgbe mgbe - mee ya. Echere m na m ahapụla masturbation na mgbakwunye na porn. Naanị m chọrọ inwe mmekọahụ ma kesaa. Kọrọ ndị ọzọ mmekọrịta nwoke na nwanyị enweghị atụ. Enwere m mmasị na inwe mmekọahụ mgbe ọ bụla, ọ na-ewute m nke ukwuu ruo nwa oge. Ugbu a na m laghachiri n'ime ya, ana m akwado ihe m kwuru na mbụ - Agaghị m aga ochie ochie ọzọ. Girlsmụ agbọghọ dị ka nwoke na nwanyị na-enwe mmekọahụ na ụmụ nwoke zuru oke na site na ihe m ghọtara ma ọ bụrụ na m nwee ike inye nke a, nwa agbọghọ ahụ hụrụ ya n'anya ma na-eche banyere ya, na-achọ ya ma chọọ karịa. Ma ụdị ọmarịcha ihe ndị ọzọ - dịka mmekọrịta na ntụkwasị obi - na-eto. Nwere ike ịhụ n'anya ma hụ gị n'anya, lekwasị anya na ịme onye ọzọ obi ụtọ. Nke a abụghị maka anyị ịpụ n'ihu ihuenyo site na onwe anyị. Nke a bụ maka anyị na onye ọzọ ịnọnyere ma hụ n'ihu ha oge dị ukwuu ha na gị na-anọ. Nke a dị nnọọ mma karịa masturbation. Ọ nwere ike ịdị mma karịa ihe ọ bụla ọzọ.
Thislọ ọrụ a na ebe nrụọrụ weebụ Gary baara m ezigbo uru. Achọtara m ha n'oge enweghị olileanya zuru oke, ikekwe ọbụnakwa ịda mbà n'obi. M gụrụ ya ihe dị ka otu ọnwa n’ekwughị okwu. Achọpụtara m na nlekọta Marnia na Gary bụ, na otu nnukwu obodo bụ. M sonyeere, gụkwuo, dere ụfọdụ, mụtara banyere mmekọrịta nwoke na nwanyị, wdg. Ihe kachasị mkpa bụ na o nyere m ọgbakọ iji tụlee mmetụta m, ịjụ ndụmọdụ na mmetụta njikọ. Enweghị m ikele ekele maka Marnia, Gary, na onye ọ bụla nọ ebe a maka nkwado na ịja mma niile. Marnia na Gary: ihe ị na-eme dị ezigbo mkpa ma enwere m obi anụrị na achọtara m gị ma mụta ọtụtụ ihe n'aka gị. Achọrọ m ka ọtụtụ ndị mmadụ ghọta ihe ọrụ gị pụtara. Directly na-enyere anyị aka ịpụ n'olulu ma banye na egwu ahụ maka obi ụtọ. Ọ bụghị ọtụtụ mmadụ na-eme nke a. Daalụ!
Beingbụ nwoke na inwe obi abụọ banyere ịbụ nwoke gị, ihe ụmụ nwanyị anyị chọrọ iji oke kerịta oke n'ime anyị, na-emebi ihe. Mana nke a bụ naanị mmetụta nke ga-agafe n'omume ziri ezi, na oke zuru oke, ndidi, na agụụ. O were m ọnwa 4 mana enwere m ike ịgwa gị na ọ bụrụ na m zutere nwanyị a 2 ọnwa gara aga, o yikarịrị ka ọ ga-arụkwa ọrụ. N'ime ọnwa 4 ndị ahụ, anaghị m ele egwu ọ bụla ma anaghị m emegharị ahụ. Enwere m agụụ ịmụ amụ na ọnwa 2 mbụ - ana m emetụ ya aka oge ụfọdụ ma mee ka ọ guzo. Mgbe ahụ, mgbe m gụsịrị ụfọdụ akụkọ ọma ebe a, ekpebiri m ịghara imetụ aka ọ bụla. Ọ dịghị mkpa ịlele ma ị ga-arụ ụlọ. Ihe nrụpụta ga - abịa - ọ ga - adịgide - mgbe oge dị mma dị. Mụ okorobịa - ọ bụghị naanị gị nọ ebe ahụ ma nsogbu gị na-agbanwe agbanwe kpamkpam. Latụgharị uche banyere ya, ịkwụsị porn maka ihe ọma, na inwe àgwà ziri ezi bụ isi ebe a. Echegbula onwe gị banyere ihe ọ bụla, ị nwere ike ime ya. Mụ onwe m enweghi mmekọahụ bara uru ogologo oge. M na-echegbu onwe, obi abụọ onwe m, freaked. Enweghị isi. Kwụsị omume owu na-ama, pụọ ebe ahụ ma nwee obi ụtọ. Ndu mkpụkpu sụru t'ẹphe meje…
Enwere m onwe m maka ajụjụ niile onye ọ bụla nwere ike ịnwe. Ọzọkwa - daalụ maka nkwado gị. Jisie na-echeta: echegbula ma na-nti, nke a bụ nnọọ merie!
[Fewbọchị ole na ole ka nke ahụ gasịrị, na nzaghachi ajụjụ si n'aka onye otu ọgbakọ] M were zinc, ginkgo, na l-arginine n'oge gara aga. Amalitere m ozugbo m banyere nsogbu a na mbido ọnwa Nọvemba afọ gara aga. [Ọ bụ ugbu a bụ njedebe nke May.] M weere ha ọnwa ole na ole wee kwụsị ha na February, ihe dịka ọnwa 3 gara aga. Echeghị m na ndị ahụ nyeere aka. Agụọla m banyere ndị mmadụ na-ewere oke ọgwụ l-arginine tupu ha enwee mmekọahụ, n'ihi na ngwaahịa a kwesiri ịbụ ihe na-adịghị njọ. Enwetụbeghị m ụdị ọgwụ ahụ. M mere ihe ọ bụla nkwanye ahụ edere na karama ahụ kwuru.
Ana m ewere mmanụ azụ ugbu a, nke m na-anụ dị mma maka arụ ọrụ zuru oke nke ahụ gị na maka ebe obibi gị.
Enwetụbeghị m viagra ma ọ bụ cialis, achọghịkwa m iwere ihe ndị a. Agaghị m akwado ndị a. Ha na-ekpuchi nsogbu ahụ nwa oge ma ghara idozi ya. Echere m na ọtụtụ, na ikekwe niile, nke mgbakwunye ndị akpọsa dị ka ndị na-eme ka mmekọrịta nwoke na nwanyị bụ BS, echekwara m na ha nwere mmetụta na-adịghị mma n'ahụ.
Rie ezigbo nri, lekọta ahụ gị anya nke ọma, echekwala maka mgbakwunye. Ndị ọzọ kwesịrị isochi ya.
Jikọ - Gụọ ihe zuru ezu maka ịmaliteghachi ahụmahụ
BY – piper
Hallo, after I joined this community and posted my long story yesterday, I’m starting a blog. I won’t write much today as I already wrote quite a bit yesterday. And while my fingers are generally freer than in the past, typing all that much would constitute another over-indulgence – something I’d like to not invite. Smile
I’m mostly writing to connect with people and to start a place where I can put my thoughts on this embarrassing subject, one that needs to be addressed for the sake of men, women, and couples of whatever sexual orientation.
OK, it has been 43 days of no pornography and no masturbation. Here is where and how I am:
Let’s start with the mandatory promise to self: I will never watch pornography ever again. Pornography is nonsense – for way too many reasons. Unfortunately, we, selfish mammals, realize this only after we realize it has hit and harmed us. Watching it made me more isolated in the past. It also provided a fake and misleading feeling of sexual satisfaction. This would translate into many missed sexual opportunities that are real as well as into failures when the opportunities present themselves. Let’s all stop it forever and not feed pharmaceuticals cashing in on people’s manufactured problems, not feed the nonsensical culture of human isolation and immediate gratification further, and not feed our minds with garbage. Life is here, it is real, and it is to be enjoyed.
I won’t masturbate at least until I have sex with a woman.
No touching of the member whatsoever except for the purposes of hygiene under the shower and of using the restroom. In the past I often masturbated without being erect prior to masturbation and without particularly feeling like relieving myself. Today I find such behavior compulsive and disturbing. Artificially creating desires that need to be satisfied: I have always been against such practices in society. And I did it to myself – what a shameless hypocrite.
Generally, weak libido and weak desire. But not always – sometimes the libido comes and I feel slightly fidgety. No touching though. I enjoy the feeling greatly as it makes me feel alive in a way I want to be.
1 wet dream – the first in years – on day 24. Well, night 24… During the wet dream and the subsequent ejaculation I don’t think I had an absolutely full erection. As I was ejaculating I woke up – the erection was unconvincing.
Erections in the mornings sometimes but not always. Sometimes the erections are harder than other times. I had a huge and lasting erection yesterday morning. Lesser one today. As I fully wake up, however, the erections disappear.
No social problems meeting women and talking to them. I don’t have these. The problems start when things get to intimacy.
I take several supplements: fish oil, men’s multivitamins, amino acids, 5-htp, gaba, ginkgo biloba, and zink. I don’t’ overdo them, of course: each once a day, the multivitamins, the fish oil, and the amino acids – 3 times a day: not exceeding what’s prescribed on the bottles.
I drink alcohol occasionally but not excessively. Other weak substances (that are already legalized in parts of the world) are rarely used but not excessively.
I quit smoking several months ago. I completely quit it at once. The way I quit pornography. I think it is a matter of will and I think we can all do this at least for the sake of people that want to be with us, that want to be given a chance to love us and make love with us.
I am in good physical shape.
I am ready and willing to wait as long as this process of normalization takes. My immediate goal is to recover my sexual health and to be able to connect sexually – and then emotionally – with a woman I really like, a woman that has demonstrated sexual interest in me. There are several women that would sleep with me but this particular one is the only one I am truly interested in. Using a rubber is a prerequisite with all of them.
Rubber is a department in which I have failed every time, multiple times. So, another goal is to get to use one successfully and reliably. This, I think, is one of the great inventions man has come up with. And the fact I can’t use one angers and frustrates me enormously. It is not only destroying my sex life, but it is also hindering my ability to emotionally connect with women that want to sleep with me.
Enough for now. I follow people’s posts and progress and will write again soon.
Thanks, Marnia, for enabling me to blog! Good luck, everyone!
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