I’m 28 and am addicted to porn. Started in my early teens, although 56k modems and living with my parents curbed things. I definitely knew I had an addictive personality though, as I’d often masturbate to digital pictures and magazines 5-6 times a day in my early teens. So I took precautions when I moved out. I’m thankfully intrinsically cheap, so never went to prostitutes/strip clubs. I did go out of my way to never have a computer at home. Just never bought one. Went through college fine, M’d once or twice a day to mental thoughts only. Fine is relative, as I did have bad urges every few months and would pathetically creep on the roommate’s computer when he wasn’t home and go online. But overall exposure to the internet was pretty limited or else monitored, so the addiction didn’t reach it’s full “potential.”
Dûv re ez çûm dibistana med, di 22 saliya xwe de hevala xweya yekemîn nas kir û keçbariya xwe ji ber wê winda kir. Sala yekem a dibistana meda ew qas mijûl bû qet çu carî tune ku meriv bi pir PMO-yê bixapîne. Sala duyemîn a dibistana med û piştî wê her tişt pir kêm wext dixwar. Ez ê bi dizî têkevim nav laboratûwara computerê, odeyek taybetî bistînim, demjimêr demjimêr wenda bibim û bi tevahî deflasyon, fîzîkî û derûnî derkevim. Ez ê pir caran hewce bikim ku raportan binivîsim an notan bigirim, ji ber vê yekê min laptopa ultra-olds dibistana 15 salî ya ku li ser pêvajoyek 33mhz dixebitî kirî. Xêzkirin ev bû ku ew bi hêsanî nikare bi înternetê ve girêbide. Li dora vê demê, ez dixwazim ED-ê bi hevala xweya xweya nuha re carek di heyvek şîn de bibînim û bifikirim ku ew nebûna xewê an stresê an tiştek din bû. Lê tişt bi gelemperî baş bûn, ez bi gelemperî rojê 4-5x seks dikim.
(xwedê, tenê gava ku ez viya dinivîsim ev xuya dike ku hemî di xirrêya min de pêşveçûnek wusa xêzik an jî berbiçav e.)
Xaniyê dibistanê piştî 2 salan xilas dibe lewma ez neçar mam ku biçim cîhê xwe yê derveyî kampusê. Ji bo ku ez kar û xebatê bikim û e-nameyên teqandî bibersivînim ji min re pêdivî bi komputerek rastîn heye… Hûn dikarin çi texmîn bikin çi bûn. Wayyyy bêtir PMO, awayê bêtir PIED. min dest pê kir ku ez li tiştên zor û zehf balkêş bibim. ez şok bûm ku min dît ku çawa vedigere ez li tiştên wiha êrişker û eşkere rûreş dibim. Min dizanibû ku ew xirab e û ku ez di mejiyê xwe de bi rastî xendekên rehikan ên kûr li xwe dikim. Min hewl da ku rawestim, hefteyek li vir û wir, lê tiştek dom nekir. Min fîltre danîn ser her tiştî lê ez ê hîn jî çareyek peyda bikim, tikandina şîfreya ji bîr kirî an friggin ji nû ve formatkirina computer. Heta min carekê di laptopek nû de qerta bêtêlê qir kir, tenê paşê adapterek wifi ya usb peyda kir. ew XERAB bû. Min bi giranî xwe wekî du kes hîs kir. Yek rehm û ya din jî bêtir dilrakêş.
Ji ber ku pereyên ku di malbata min de pirsgirêk dike, mîlên min di nav 2 re vekişand. Min difikirin: mezin, ev ê alîkariyê dike. Ez komputer li odeyê rûniştim. Li her tiştek berbiçaviya me hêvî dikir ku min bikeve.
Wrong. I just snuck down there at night. PMO’s into the wee early hours, then took caffeine pills to stay awake during the day. PIED with girlfriend gets worse, i get more stressed and insecure and seek out even more PMO. All this time I’m working as a psychiatrist and hear about people struggle with addictions to meth and alcohol everyday, all the while feeling idiotic and weak with my comparatively minor addiction that I still haven’t been able to shake after 10 years.
Beşek ji bernameya rûniştinê ya ku ez tê de me dihêle ku ez mehek di bernameyek metadonê de bixebitim. Min çend hefte berê dest pê kir. Min di destpêkê de nedixwest ji ber ku min hest dikir ku ew tenê bi rengek cûda addictioniya wan dihêle. Ez hîn jî timûtim wusa hîs dikim, lê di dîtina gelek mêrên 50, 60, 70 salî yên ku tenê nuha jiyana xwe ji nû ve ava dikirin piştî ku bi dehsalan bi eroîn xerckirin, xemgîniya ku di wê de heye ji min re bû alîkar ku ez bi addiction cinsî ya xwe ve derbasî dergehek derûnî ya taybetî bibim .
Berê min ceribandibû ku dev jê berde lê di demên absteniyonê de tim xwe dilpak û qels hîs dikir. Lê êdî na. Ez ji hemû demên windabûyî dûr ketim û li ber ekranek biriqok piçûk hûr û kûr im. Ez neçar mam ku piştî nerm çûbûm li tenişta hevala xwe ya nav nivînan. Ez ji devjêberdana mejiyê xwe westiyam û berdewam her dîmenek qirêj di serê xwe de her ku ez tê de bim, her kesê ku pê re bim.
Dibe ku ev post behsa klînîka ku ez lê dixebitim bikim, lê ew bi rastî YBR û YBOP e û xwendina hemî nivîsên we yên ku ji min re motîvek zêde da umph da ku ez dev ji vê yekê berdim û xwe xurt bikim. Spas ji bo her kesê ku li vir şandiye. Ez bi rastî dem û vebûna we teqdîr dikim û hêvî dikim ku ez jî wek we hemî ji min re bibim alîkar ji nexweşên xwe re.
LINK - motocross new to reboot while working at a clinical methadone working
June 18, 2013
after 10 yrs glued to the computer, I kicked the addiction and fixed the PIED!!
July 06, 2013
hey you guys/girls/men/women,
just wanted write about my success story because it’s largely the result of motivation gleaned from this site. my story is here: http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=10524.0
but in a nutshell, same story as most of you all here, looked at too much porn, started to get into harder and harder stuff, started to affect relationships, etc x 10 yrs. was so fed up with the wasted time and energy and the embarrassment of having ED at 28!
so I quit looking at porn for 2 months, still had problems with PIED, then found this site and realized I had to get serious and quite PMO altogether. I did so for the last 2 months even though i only put up the counter about a month ago.
Didn’t have sex during the last month but my girlfriend (long distance) visited last week and we’ve been having sex about twice to three times a day for the last week without any problems, at 90 to 100% hardness. i feel awesome; like I’m a teenager again. it’s a huge change from what it was, which was either ED, going soft quickly after penetration, or being at like 70% hardness the whole time and having to have sex really rough and frantically to maintain the erection. sex now lasts wayy longer. no tricks or pills or anything, just no PMO. i must sound like a cult member or salesman.
barely had any cravings during the no PMO time. Had lots of cravings during the first 2 months of no porn though. now i have no more cravings. porn is so negatively associated with humiliation and life regression and social awkwardness that i honestly find it unappealing.
flatlined for a good month during the first no PMO month. that was kind of worrisome, but it went away after that time.
I kept myself a little more busy than usual during all this time. scheduled more time with friends, worked out more, ate better, read more. during the first few weeks, i read a lot of stories on this site for motivation and i took notes!
anyways, I’m stoked. for petty man reasons, I’m happy that the wanger works again. secondly, I’m happy to have kicked this addiction. it was taking over my mind. i was seriously thinking and visualizing porn scenes for days after watching them. it was pretty toxic.
this has changed my life. more time in the day, more confidence, more energy, more motivation. who knew jerking off for 20-30min a day could have so many wide-ranging effects?? anyways, ism crazy grateful to this site an to everyone who has posted.
feel free to PM if you have any questions or wanna talk. -minh
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