I can’t believe I made it to 60 days without PMO, it feels unreal. Started at 10yo, now 23yo. Used to do it at least once a day for more than a decade. Also was deeply addicted to video games (10+ hours/day) and a fucking mess. Had no friends, bad grades, crazy social anxiety (I’d try to gather courage for literally hours before going to the grocery store).
I hit rock bottom 2 years ago. I looked like death (130lbs for 6’1”). Couldn’t talk or even look at anyone (even family) without feeling shame. When I’d talk to a girl, she’d look at me with her eyes telling “I don’t want to be here”. I was depressed and had zero self-confidence during this entire period. I instinctively knew something was wrong. I used to think about suicide a lot, about how I could take a gun and end it all. It was a pleasant feeling.
Di heman demê de ez nikarim wê naxwazim, tiştek guherîn an ez ê bikujim. Dest pê kir ku bi xwe çêtirîn xurt bike û li NoFap. Ev xala destpêkê ya guhertina.
Recovery evolution
I’m in no ways cured but completely changed my life for the better. I read reports here with people saying that they don’t feel interested in porn anymore, or that they relapsed after XX days and they felt nothing. Not in my case. I took a peek at day 45 and immediately felt the rush and had intense cravings for days after.
I eventually became angry at porn, at how you feel tired and powerless, and started to get better and better streaks. During the last year, I implemented meditation, work out 5 times a week (gained 30lbs in 2 years), eat healthy, read books, take care of myself and saw tremendous benefits, both for my mental and physical health.
Alîkariyên
- Baweriyê: Ez nuqteyeke civakî tune. Ez hest dikim ku tiştek ku ji min re çê dibe û ez ê jî dîsa baş im. Ew xuya nakin, lê ev yek bi jiyana xwe guhert. Ez şikir dikim ji bo vê yekê, ez hestek azad im.
- Çavên min: Çavên min ên şahî hene û niha ew ronahî dikin. Gelek pesnê qebûl kirin.
- Keşfa keçan: Guherîn dîn e. Ez gelek wextê xwe li ser kar bi 3 keçan re derbas dikim (A, B & C, ku hevalê wan hene) û di derheqê wan de gelek anekdot hene, lê ecêb (an na) ew tenê dema ku ez li ser rêzê me pêk tên. Hin ku di hişê min re derbas dibin:
- A her tiştek digerin ku ez bi xwe bikim an destên xwe veşartim, ew jî qirêjê xwe hilda xwe da ku "bibînin ku ez dişibînim" bibînin.
- Em bi hevpeyvînek komputerê heye, û ji bo kêfa kêfên hevbeş (neyînî) hev hev didin. Bê min veşartî "sexy swimmer" (Ez bi dest û lingên dirêj hene). Navekî bi tenê bi navê bi navdar ve vekirî ye.
- Em gelemperî di komkujiyê de diqewiminin, Cê bi bedenê me an nêzîkî hema nêzîkî min nêzî ye, heke hema hebe hebe. Hevkarên din ên ku li wê derê qewimî û ew wek xetek sor bû.
- Êdî bêhtir xemgîn e: Ez bi rastî jiyanê kêfxweş im, ez di pêşerojê de dilxweş im. Ev tiştek tiştek ku ez salan 2 mumkin bûm ku bawer nakim.
Şêwirdarî
- Stay busy, all the fucking time. Don’t stay in your house if you feel energetic.
- Take this challenge very seriously, this is by far the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, you can’t give only 99%.
- Enjoy life and have fun, this is the best way to forget about PMO.
- Lift, the benefits are insane. As with NoFap, it taught me discipline, to work towards a goal and give everything you have to reach it.
LINK - Rojên 60 rojan de raporên dijwar
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