Hi everyone! This is my first post on Reddit. I’m a 24yo italian guy and I struggled with P related problems since teenage years. I started watching P at the age of 11, from the first time I had high-speed internet connection.
From 14 to 20 I only suffered of
- mild social anxiety
- problems of connection with people I was watching P for about 3 hours a day at that time.
Nanomboka tamin'ny 21 dia nanomboka nijaly aho
- Tena mitebiteby sy mitebiteby
- fahaketrahana
- fahaverezan'ny tanjaka sy ny antony manosika
- drivotry ny atidoha mavesatra ary tsy fahampian'ny fifantohana sy fahatsiarovana
- derealization [depersonalization]
- Fifandraisana 0 amin'ny olona ary latsaky ny fihetseham-po 0
- Vanilla sexual fantasies dia niova ho fetisetra faran'izay henjana
- mild PIED
- fahaverezan'ny faniriana sy fanantenana amin'ny ho avy
- Tsy mahaliana ahy ny vehivavy nijery an'i P nandritra ny fotoam-pialan-tsasatro, na tamin'ny alina aza indraindray.
Avy eo nisy zavatra niova tao amin'ny atidohako. Ny andro farany tamin'ny volana desambra, raha nieritreritra ny tamin'ny taona lasa aho, dia nahatsapa fa nanana olana tamin'i P. Nanomboka nitady tamin'ny Internet aho ary ny vokatra voalohany dia ilay horonantsary malaza an'i Gary Wilson.
Ny valiny:
- From January to June I didn’t watch P of any kind.
I noticed very huge improvements with all the problems listed above. I was MOed 2 times a month during that time.
Then, in a very stressful moment, I relapsed. It was really different this time. I watched less extreme stuff for a short period of time. I PMOed 3 times in July and once in August. I didn’t ruin all the improvements I made during past months, but I wasn’t satisfied with results.
So, 90 days ago, I started a new streak, and this time I decided to not watch P or MO. I will reintroduce MO when I will feel ready. I don’t know if the first streak helped to achieve the benefits I have achieved in the second one, but after these 90 days I feel a completely different person.
Voamariko ireto fanatsarana manaraka ireto:
- Mitebiteby ny fanahiana ara-tsosialy ary mihena isan'andro. Ankehitriny dia afaka miresaka amin'ny olona tsy fantatro aho
- Mahatsiaro ho matoky kokoa aho ary mahery kokoa ny feoko rehefa miresaka.
- Manana fahatsapana bebe kokoa izao aho: mieritreritra bebe kokoa ny hafa aho ary tsy dia mahaliana ahy loatra
- Tsapako fa ilaina ny mifandray amin'ny olona ary tsy tiako ny irery
- Ny hatsarako dia tsara kokoa amin'ny ankamaroan'ny andro. Mihomehy bebe kokoa aho ary tiako ny mitsiky ny olona, indrindra fa ny ankizivavy
- Tena mahavita asa aho
- Manana hery aho hanaovana zavatra bebe kokoa mandritra ny andro
- Nihena ny orana ary mihena hatrany. Mihatsara ny fitadidiako.
- Mahatsapa fihetseham-po bebe kokoa noho ny teo aloha aho. Tsara sy ratsy ny fihetseham-po.
To reach 90 days, I did the following things:
- Used OpenDNS on router and K9 Web Filter on computers to block P at home
- Stopped using computer at home
- Manually blocked most common P sites on Android phone editing hosts file.
- Reduced phone use
- Started accepting all invites by friends and going out from home literally everyday
- Read this reddit section (Thanks to everyone)
I hope this will help someone. Thank you for reading and sorry for my english.
LINK - 90 Andro: Inona no niova?
by littlemars93
Fanavaozana - 102 Days : A new update!
Here I am, only 12 days after my post about 90 days. That’s a short period of time, but something really incredible has happened to me. When I started this journey:
- I was really shy and had social anxiety.
- I didn’t really care about other people emotions, and in every social context it was like I was acting.
- I didn’t have any connection with another human being, and I felt better when I was alone in my room.
- I couldn’t go to the supermarket or another public place, because I had panic attacks.
- My mood was very low and people didn’t like to stay near me.
- I was always the one that doesn’t talk during group conversations.
Well, this was my background. Yesterday, I did something that I didn’t think it was possible for me.
- I went to a conference, and talked to a crowd of people without trembling voice or any other problem of social anxiey.
- I told a nice girl my feelings about her, in front of her, and I have been truthful (she accepted to go out with me).
This is what changed in about 12 days.
Fanavaozana - 4 months : A new update!
After 4 months of pornfree journey, I’m sure I made the best choice of my life. This is what happened to me:
- I have the courage to do anything I have in my mind. I told to a girl that I like her, directly, without thinking too much. I revealed her my most intimate secrets, the first time in my life.
- When I’m alone in my room, with nothing to do, and a smartphone and a computer near to me, I don’t feel any urge to PMO.
- Accidental sexy scenes during movies don’t arouse me, but a single smile by a girl can make me aroused.
- I’m more active and I’m never at home. Now I prefer to go out, meet people, go anywhere. I stay at home only when I need to sleep. My social anxiety is almost gone.
- I have more energy than before and I do much more things during the day.
- I’m going to gym almost everyday. I’ve lost a lot of pounds and I’m quite fit right now.
- I have much more confidence with people and especially girls. Now I’m able to flirt with girls I like without the fear and thoughts I had before. If I get rejected by a girl, I feel sad just for a moment, but after that I have enough confidence to flirt with another one.
- I’m really good at eye contact, physical contact, and speaking. Even public speaking don’t scare me anymore.
- Emotional numbness faded away. Now I feel strong emotions, that I never experienced before.
- I was a writer in the past, but for the last 4 years I’ve had no creativity. Now, I can write many poems a day and I have many more original ideas in general.
I’m sure that I achieved more than these benefits, but I don’t remember that at the moment. Feel free to ask any question about my journey.
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