Update : I am currently on day 120 of my journey. (Background)
All the benefits that I am experiencing are only getting better.
I finally feel free of my addiction and my life is so much better that I am determined that there is no way that I am ever going back to my old ways.
Last week I managed to have sex 6 times in 2 days with my girlfriend. I was talking to this girl since I was 30 days free from pornography but I was busy with work so I was travelling a lot so we were not really in a relationship. We went on couple of dates and around day 120 we decided to have sex and I was able to do it.
Regarding P fantasies, my porn tastes [had] escalated and I was watching some stuff that I don’t find arousing in real life at all. I think after 2-3 months those P fantasies diminished completely.
I struggled with PIED most of my life since I conditioned my brain to only respond to pornography since I was 10 years old.
I was afraid that my brain was permanently wired to respond to pornography only but all of our ancestors have successfully reproduced and our sexual circuits in our brain are still there we just need to awaken them
This was a huge achievement for me and I have never been happier in my life.
Just to give anybody hope who is struggling. Life does get better a lot but you need to stop with artificial sexual stimulation . There is nothing good in it.
[Additional benefits]
Tombontsoa azoko:
Tombontsoa ara-tsosialy - Ny ankamaroan'ny tombontsoa hitako dia azo antoka fa ara-tsosialy. Rehefa lalim-paka tao anatin'ny fiankinan-doha aho dia akoran'olona. Matahotra ny toe-javatra ara-tsosialy, matahotra ny vehivavy, matahotra milaza ny hevitro, manahy be ara-tsosialy. Hatramin'ny nitsaharako io fahazarana io dia nahatsikaritra ny fihatsaran'io sehatra io isan'andro aho. Isan'andro dia miaina tombontsoa ara-tsosialy bebe kokoa aho. Karismatika kokoa aho, mampihomehy kokoa, tony kokoa amin'ny toe-javatra sosialy, mora kokoa ny miresaka amin'ny vehivavy isan'andro. Matoky sy matoky kokoa aho amin'ny toe-javatra sosialy. Nanomboka nifanaraka tamin'ny tena tenako aho tamin'ny farany rehefa miresaka.
Tsy haiko ny siansa ao ambadik'izany. Raha misy manana fanazavana ara-tsiansa dia tiako henoina. maminavina fotsiny aho. Fihetseham-po mahamenatra ny fijerena pôrnôgrafia sy filahiana. Tsy misy mirehareha amin'izany. Tsy misy olona mivoaka sy miresaka amin'ny namana sy ny fianakaviana hoe firy ny pôrnôgrafia nojereny ary impiry izy ireo no manao masturbate. Menatra isika rehetra amin'izany fihetsika izany. Izany no mahatonga anay hahatsapa mazava tsara ny post nut. Ny tenantsika ambony no milaza amintsika fa tsy tokony hataontsika izany. Tsy tena azoko antoka fa ny heveriko dia izany no mahatonga antsika hahatsapa ho mitebiteby ara-tsosialy sy tsy matoky tena. Ahoana no ahafahantsika matoky fa mahafantatra izay ataontsika rehefa irery isika ary mitondra henatra be? Tsy afaka mamitaka ny fahatokisana isika. Tsy maintsy avy ao anatiny izany ary tsy maintsy tena izy. Rehefa mitondra henatra be loatra isika ka tsy ho tena misy ny fahatokisana. Na dia miezaka manao fihetsika matoky aza isika fa fantatsika fa mandainga, dia tsy mahatoky ny tenantsika isika. Tsy afaka ny hanana fiheveran-tena tsara kokoa fotsiny isika. Raha ory isika ary mamadika ny tenantsika amin'ny fijerena pôrnôgrafia dia tsy afaka manapa-kevitra fotsiny ny hahatsapa ho tsara momba izany isika ary hanana fiheveran-tena tsara sy fahatokisana. Tsy tena izy io. Rehefa mijanona amin'ny farany isika ary mandeha ny fotoana, ary tena mahatsapa isika fa voafehy ity fiankinan-doha ity, izay vao manomboka mahatsapa tena. Amin’izay vao manomboka manjavona ny henatra. Mahatsiaro ho tsara kokoa ny tenako aho ary matoky tena kokoa satria fantatro fa tsy izaho intsony ilay olona nijery sary vetaveta tamin'ny taon-dasa. Maty io olona io. Tsy hamadika ny tenako aho. Tsy hiverina any intsony aho amin'ny fiainako.
Nihena ny tebiteby sy ny fahaketrahana - Mahatsiaro ho tsara kokoa aho hatramin'ny nijanonako tamin'ity loto ity. Ny tebiteby sy ny fahaketrahana dia lohahevitra sarotra ary tsy tiako ny milaza fa ny pôrnôgrafia sy ny masturbation dia 100% no anton'izany. Saingy tena nandray anjara lehibe tamin'izany.
Fanentanana bebe kokoa, faniriana ary fiara - Mahatsiaro ho mazoto kokoa aho ary maniry mafy. Fantatsika rehetra fa ny fiankinan-doha amin'ny pôrnôgrafia dia mety handany ny dopamine ary very ny antony manosika sy mitondra fiara hanatratra zavatra hafa eo amin'ny fiainana. Hatramin'ny nijanonako dia tsapako fa niverina. Natsahatro ihany koa ny hetsika dopamine mora vidy toy ny scrolling amin'ny Instagram, Facebook, Youtube, tsy nihinana siramamy intsony aho. Manao detox dopamine aho ary tena manampy ahy izany. Mazoto kokoa aho hikatsaka zavatra eo amin'ny fiainako.
Mahatsiaro fihetseham-po lalina kokoa aho - Heveriko ho tombony izany na dia mety tsy hanaiky aza ny rehetra. Nilaza aho fa io fiankinan-doha io dia nampianatra ahy zavatra maro momba ny tenako. Ny zavatra iray hafa tsapako dia ny nanenoko ny fihetseham-poko tamin'ny fahafinaretana sy ny fiankinan-doha. Isaky ny mahatsapa fanaintainana ara-pihetseham-po aho dia mamely azy amin'ny pôrnôgrafia. Rehefa nijanona aho, dia niverina tamin-kery ireo fihetseham-po ireo. Ny fiainana dia mety handratra antsika ary miaraka amin'ny traikefa niainana sasany dia niaina alahelo, fahasorenana, hatezerana, fialonana, ratram-po ary ireo fihetseham-po ireo dia tsy mahafinaritra fa izany no dikan'ny hoe olombelona. Tsy hatakaloko velively amin'ny fahaketrahana ara-pihetseham-po tsapako izany. Noho izany rehefa mitranga ny zava-tsoa dia afaka miaina fifaliana sy fahasambarana amin'ny ambaratonga lalina kokoa koa aho.
Update : Day 166 of nofap
I am currently 166 days completely free of watching pornography. I have 0 urges to ever watch pornography again . It just doesn’t cross my mind anymore.
I think I am still healing cause I am still continuing to see improvements in all the benefits I mentioned. I am completely different person than when I was deep in my addiction.
I believe that I am still healing sexually. I conditioned myself to pornography from really early age so it takes time to reverse the damage that I have done.
I am currently in a relationship and I have sex every weekend and I was struggling with PIED before but now I think I am at least 90% cured. I still can’t get it up sometimes for 3rd round but I wouldn’t consider that an issue. Sometimes stress and tiredness and other life problems can cause that and it’s 3rd round so I wouldn’t worry too much about that.
I am still healing sexually cause I notice that my erections are better every weekend when I have sex with my girlfriend. Also I notice that every orgasm with my girlfriend sets me back to a flatline where I don’t have any libido for a week. Would that happen to me if I never condition myself to pornography? I can’t really know. Will that improve overtime? Time will tell that and I’ll pay attention to that.
Anyway I am excited to continue this journey and I’ll never go back to that lifestyle. Everyday I see how much life is better without porn. It truly is a poison and life is more and more beautiful every day since I am free from my addiction.
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