Chabwino, ndalingalira za tsikuli kwakanthawi ndipo ndimadzifunsa ngati ndipanga pano. Nayi malamulo omwe ndidakhazikitsa ndikufotokozera momwe zinthu zilili mmoyo wanga zomwe ndikumva kuti zandifikitsa komwe ndili:
Ndine wokwatiwa ndipo mkazi wanga amadziwa kuti ndimayang'ana zolaula nthawi zonse ndipo amandiuza kuti alibe vuto nazo, koma ndimadziwa kuti ziyenera kumusokoneza pamlingo wina. Chisankho changa chosiya zolaula chidafika mwadzidzidzi nditapeza r / nofap ndikuganiza kuti ndi nthabwala, koma kenako ndidayang'ana nkhani ya TED yokhudza zolaula. China chake chinadina mwa ine ndikundipangitsa kuzindikira kuti ndiyenera kusiya kuyang'anitsitsa nthawi imeneyo, ndipo sindinayang'anenso kalikonse kuyambira pamenepo.
Ndinkagwiritsa ntchito zolaula tsiku lililonse. Ndimayang'ana zinthu pa ipod yanga pabedi pafupi ndi mkazi wanga pomwe amagona. Ndimayang'ana zithunzi zantchito kuti ndithamangire pang'ono tsikulo. Ndimakumbukira ndikutenga laputopu yanga m'bafa kunyumba ya kholo langa pa Khrisimasi ndikuyang'ana zolaula ndili kuchimbudzi pomwe makolo anga ndi akazi anga amalankhula mchipinda chotsatira. Ndinali woledzera.
Ndinaganiza zopambana kuti ndikhale wolimba ndikudziletsa kuti ndipewe onse zoyipa zomwe zidandipatsa chiwerewere, mosasamala kanthu kuti chingatanthauzidwe kuti zolaula. Masabata angapo oyambilira zinali zovuta kwambiri kuti ndisapite kumalo omwe ndinkakonda, ndipo ndimafuna kukonza kulikonse. Ndinayenera kudzikakamiza kuti ndisayang'ane kwina ndikawona azimayi okongola mumsewu pomwe ndimayendetsa, chifukwa ndimadziwa kuti sindimangoyang'ana koma ndikungowakonzera kuti ndithamange. Zithunzi zachiwerewere zikabwera pa TV, ndimayang'ana kwina. Ndidayamba kuyankha mosazindikira pomwe zomwe ndimaganiza zosafunikira zomwe ndimayenera kupewa, ndimakhala ndi nkhope yolusa ndikumva pakamwa panga patakhazikika. Zinandipweteka kwambiri kuti A) sindinathe kuyang'ana pazinthu zomwe ndimafuna kuti ndiyang'ane ndi B) zomwe zinali zovuta kuzikana.
Ndachitanso nofap kwathunthu nthawi yonseyi. Sindingalole kuti ndizichita maliseche chifukwa ndikadakhala ndikuganiza za zithunzi zolaula pomwe ndimachita ndipo izi zitha kukhala zovuta kuti ndibwererenso m'malingaliro mwanga. Ine ndi mkazi wanga takhala tikugonana modabwitsa ndipo wawona kusintha kwakusintha m'moyo wathu wogonana.
Ndinali ndi zizindikilo zobwerera m'mbuyo. Nthawi zina ndinkaona kuti moyo wanga ulibenso tanthauzo. Ndimamva ngati chinthu chachikulu ichi chomwe chidandipangitsa kukhala wokondwa kwambiri kuchotsedwa m'moyo wanga. Ndinkavutika maganizo komanso kukwiya msanga. Koma ndimadziwa kuti ndikufuna kupitiliza ndikumva izi kuti ndisadzayambenso.
Pang'ono ndi pang'ono, sindinkafunikiranso kuganizira za izi ndikudziyesa apolisi mwankhanza. Kukhala popanda zolaula kunayamba kuchitika zokha, osati china chomwe ndimayenera kuyesetsa kwambiri kuti ndichite tsiku lonse. Ndikhoza kumasuka kwambiri.
Ndinafika popita kwa katswiri wazamisala ndipo adandiyika pa wellbutrin, yomwe imayenera kuthandizira kuzolowera komanso kukhumudwa. Zinandithandiza kotero sindinamve kuwonongeka kwakukulu kwamphamvu masana pomwe zokolola zanga zidatsika mpaka zero. Zinthu zinachepetsa kwambiri, ndinasintha maganizo, ndipo ndinasiya kudziletsa.
Ndinapitanso kumisonkhano ingapo ku SA ndipo anali abwino, koma ndinamvanso ngati “wopepuka” kukhala pafupi ndi anthu omwe apita kundende chifukwa cha zolakwa zogonana. Ndinayenera kudziuza ndekha kuti tonsefe tikupeza bwino osati kudzifanizira ndekha.
Ponseponse ndimamva kuti ndili ndi mphamvu, ndikudziyang'anira ndekha, ndikuyembekeza za m'tsogolo, ndipo ndimakhala ndi malingaliro abwino okhudzana ndi kugonana. Dziko langa silizunguliranso, koma sizitanthauza kuti ndikusangalala nalo pang'ono. Sindikumva mantha chifukwa cha azimayi, chifukwa sindikumva ngati ali ndi mphamvu zochuluka kuposa ine. Sindikukuyikanso pamiyala yazimayi / zinthu zogonana. Nditha kuwawona ngati anthu enieni kuposa momwe ndimayang'ana pa zolaula. Ndikukhulupirira kuti nkhani yanga imakulimbikitsani nonse / zolaula kuti mupitilize, kuyambiranso, kapena kuyambiranso. Kuchotsa zolaula m'moyo wanu kudzasintha moyo wanu kuzinthu zenizeni komanso zopindulitsa, ndikuchotsani ulemu, manyazi, ndi mabodza.
Mkazi wanga akuti akumva kulumikizana pakati pathu ndi kugonana mwa ine komwe kwayamba kuchepa panthawiyi. Ndakhala ndi nthawi zenizeni zochoka komwe ndimamva kutopa kwambiri komanso kupsinjika, koma ndikudutsa chifukwa sindikufunanso kutero. Tikuyembekezera ubongo wokhala ndi maulumikizidwe atsopano a neural omwe adakwaniritsidwa kuti akhale ndi moyo weniweni ndikusangalala nawo mpaka max!
Khalani amphamvu.
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