- Ndine watsopano patsamba lino ndipo poyamba sindinkafuna kugawana nkhani yanga yokhudza zolaula, ED, komanso momwe zakhudzidwira. Komabe ndaganiza zopita kuzinthu zosangalatsa za moyo wanga komanso ulendo womwe ndiyenera kusiya kuseweretsa maliseche. (Uthengawu ndiwotalika chifukwa sindinkafuna kusiya chilichonse, chifukwa chake ndimatha kuyang'ana kumbuyo.)
Zonsezi zinayamba pamene ndinali ndi zaka 10. Bwenzi langa panthawiyo anandiwonetsa chithunzi cha mtsikana wamaliseche pa intaneti, ndipo nthawi yomweyo ndinalowako. Ndinadziŵa kuti kunali koipa kuyang'ana zolaula komanso kuti ndinali wamng'ono kwambiri, zomwe zinapangitsa kuti ndikhale wosangalatsa kwambiri yang'anani. Chimene chinayang'ana ngati kungoyang'ana pa atsikana amaliseche akukwera mofulumira.
Sizinanditengere nthawi kuti ndipite ku makanema olaula, ndipo izi zinali zisanachitike ngakhale ndikunyansitsa maliseche. Sindinakhalepo ndi mwayi wolumikizana kwenikweni ndi mtsikana chifukwa ndinali nditakuta mdima wa zolaula ndili mwana. Pofika nthawi yomwe ndinali 16 ndinali ndikusunthira ku ukapolo ndi ziboda zamisala chifukwa ndi zinthu zokhazo zomwe zikadatha ndichotseni. Sindinkatha kulankhula ndi atsikana ndipo ndinkangokhalira kuchita mantha ndi anthu, ndipo sindinkaganiza kuti mwina zingagwirizane ndi zizolowezi zanga zolaula.
Pakati pa nthawiyi ndimafuna kutaya unamwali wanga, ndipo ndinapeza mtsikana amene amafuna kugonana. Chinthu chimodzi chinatsogolera ku china ndipo tinali pabedi langa tili maliseche, koma ndinalibe chilakolako chogonana. Sindingathe kukhala wamanyazi ndipo sindinathe kukhala ndi erection chifukwa cha izo. Sanali wokopa kunena pang'ono, chifukwa chake zikachitika izi mumangonena kuti mulibe udindo. Ndinaganiza, "samatentha, ndichifukwa chake sindimatha kugona naye." Kapenanso, "Ndinkachita mantha kwambiri kuti ndisachite mantha." Ndinali kutali ndi chandamale.
Izi zidanditengera kudzidalira ndipo NDimamva ZOKHUDZA. Komabe ndimapitilizabe kucheza ndi atsikana osiyanasiyana ndikudutsamo. Ndinali kunyamula atsikana ndipo ndinali nditawerenga kwambiri ndikuphunzira za ma PUAs (ojambula ojambula) omwe amaphunzira sayansi yokopa ndikuigwiritsa ntchito kukumana ndi azimayi. Chifukwa chake sindinataye thupi kokha, komanso psychology yanga idasokonezedwanso, popeza ndidasokoneza malingaliro adziko lapansi omwe adandilowetsa m'mabuku a PUA. Osanena kuti ndinali waluso kwambiri pantchitoyo, zomwe zili ngati kukhala wopaka utoto wabwino koma wopanda bulashi la utoto. Nditha kucheza ndi atsikana ambiri omwe ndidawapeza mchipinda, koma ndinkachita mantha kuti ndikafika kuchipinda sindidzatha kulimba.
Ndinapita kwa urologist, ndinkachita masewera olimbitsa thupi ndikusala kudya, kumwa madzi ambiri, kuyang'ana mabuku amisala, kumwa ma DHEA, ndikudya zakudya zowonjezera za testosterone, zonse sizinaphule kanthu. Ndinali wokhumudwa komanso womvetsa chisoni ndipo ndimaganiza kuti ndizotheka kukhala moyo wosakhazikika popanda kugonana. Mwamwayi sindimasiya mosavuta, chifukwa chake ndidapitilizabe, ndikufufuza momwe ndingathere kuti ndidziwe. Pambuyo pake ndinapeza chibwenzi ku sekondale ndipo anali namwali kotero kuti sanathamangire kugonana. Amandipatsa nthawi zonse bj, ndipo ndimatha kukhala ovuta kwa iwo. Izi zinandipatsa chiyembekezo.
Ex gf anapitiliza kulera ndipo anati tsopano anali wokonzeka kuchita zogonana, koma funso lenileni m'maganizo mwanga linali "kodi ndakonzeka kugonana?" (btw, nthawi yonseyi ndimakhala ndikuseweretsa maliseche ndikuyang'ana zolaula, ngakhale zolaula za pa intaneti zochepa. Ndinakhala ndi malingaliro abwino ndipo ndimatha kugwiritsa ntchito maliseche m'malo mwake. china chake sichinali bwino.)
Tidali amaliseche ndikuyesera kugonana, koma sindinathe kupitiriza ndi kondomu, ndipo pamapeto pake ndinatayikanso kugonana kwanga. NDINAKONDA KWAMBIRI. Tinasiyana patatha mwezi umodzi chifukwa sindinkafuna kuti aganize kuti sindingathe kumulowerera, chifukwa chake ndidadzipezera zifukwa zopusa zomwe zidachitika. Iye anali junior ndipo ine ndinali wamkulu ndipo zikanakhala zovuta kuti tisunge ubale wathu kuchokera kutali kwambiri ndikapita ku koleji.
Ndondomeko yomweyi inkachitika nthawi zambiri ndi atsikana osiyanasiyana. M'kupita kwa nthawi ndinadandaula kwambiri ndipo ndinamva kuti sindinakhulupirire kuti ndinasiya kuyesera kulankhula ndi atsikana. Chinachake chodabwitsa chinachitika ngakhale nditachoka kunyumba kuchokera ku koleji yatsopano chaka. Msungwana uyu wochokera kumudzi kwanga amene ndinali wokongola pafupi ndikubwera ndipo tinamwa mavoti awiri a vodka. Tinali m'chipinda cham'mwamba m'chipindamo ndikukumbukira kuti ubale wathu sunayambe wagonana. Ine ndinamuuza iye kuti aganizire chomuchitikira mu moyo wake chomwe chinali chabwino kwambiri chimene iye anayamba wakhala nacho, ndi kundifotokozera izo. Ndiye ine ndinamuuza iye kuti ayesere ndi kumverera kuti akumverera pakali pano. Ine ndimayesera kuti ndimupange horny yake ndi kumverera kwa kugonana. ZIMACHITITSA. Ine ndinayika kondomu ndikuyamba kutonthoza, koma nthawi ino ndinayipsa, ndikuichotsa. Tinagonana. Iyi inali nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndakhala ndikugonana, ndikukhala 18.
ZINALI ZOFUNIKA KWAMBIRI ZINTHU ZOFUNIKA KUTI NDIDZAKHALA KWAMBIRI.
Ndinali ndi chiyembekezo. Ndinamva bwino. Ndinkadziwa kuti vuto langa silinali lakuthupi. Ziyenera kukhala zamaganizidwe.
Ndinabwerera ku koleji ndipo mavuto adapitirira. Ndinapitirizabe ndi zolaula zanga zodzaza malingaliro ndi kuseweretsa maliseche. Linandithandiza kugona usiku. Kachiwiri ndinakhala ndikusowa chiyembekezo komanso opanda chiyembekezo. Posachedwa ndinayamba kupita kwa wothandizira, ndipo anandipatsa nzeru zokhudzana ndi kugonana nditatha kulankhula naye nthawi zingapo za momwe ndimamvera. Ichi chinayamba chikhumbo chokwiya kuti ndifufuze mochuluka momwe ndingathere. Ndayang'ana pa intaneti ndikupeza yourbrainonporn, ndikuyang'ana mavidiyo onse. Chinachake chinangodutsa ndipo ine ndimadziwa kuti ndinali pa chinachake.
Sindinayambe kuseweretsa maliseche, kuonera zolaula, kapena kugwiritsa ntchito malingaliro anga pa nov 2, 2012. Ndinabwereranso nthawi zingapo, osati ndi zolaula. Nthawi yoyamba ndinamwa mowa ndipo ndimangochita maliseche, koma osati ndi zithunzi. Nthawi yachiwiri ndinangomangirira bedi langa chifukwa sindinkafuna kugwiritsa ntchito dzanja langa. Nthawiyi inali chabe kumverera.
Zakhala zokhudzana ndi masiku 57 kuyambira pomwe ndinayamba ndikuyamba nkhuni. Kugonana kwanga ndikukula, ndipo ndikuyenera kugwira ntchito mwakhama kuti ndikhale ndi zithunzi zogonana m'mutu mwanga. Koma ndimamva bwino kwambiri ndipo ndikuwona kumene izi zimanditengera. Tsiku lina pa nthawi.
LINK - December 29, 2012: Masiku 57 opanda PMO
by machiritso
ZOCHITA: 2 / 3 / 2013
Ndasintha dzina langa Healingpath ku streetlesstravelled.
Ndasintha dzina la magazini yanga kuchokera Ulendo Wanga Wopenga ku Njira Yowomboledwa.
Moyo wanga wadzazidwa ndi kudzidzinyenga ndi zowawa zosafunikira zomwe ndinadziika ndekha. Ndikutenga masitepe omwe ndikufunika kuti ndiwathandize kuthetsa zomwe zinachitika.
Sindingaganizepo mavuto omwe PMO amachititsa, ndipo popeza kusiya moyo wanga kwandithandiza kwambiri.
- Ndipeza zolemba zabwino pa mayesero anga
- Ndili ndi mafuta okwanira 10%, ndikumva kukhala wathanzi komanso wathanzi kuposa kale
- Atsikana amandifunsa nambala yanga / abwera kwa ine ndikundiuza kuti ndine wokongola
- Ndidzuka m'mawa ndikuyembekezera tsikulo
Pamene ndinali akadali PMOing:
- Ndinali wovutika maganizo
- Nthawi zonse pa kompyuta
- Anadana ndi kucheza ndi anthu
- Sanapite kumakalasi
- Zinkawoneka zoipa ndikukumva zoipa
Palibe njira yoti ndingazikane.
NDINE ZOTHANDIZA ZOCHITIKA, NDINE WOTSATIRA ZINTHU ZOTSATIRA.
Ndakhala ndikupambana ndikukhalabe wolimba, koma zisanangokhala zoyesera kuti ndiwone zomwe zichitike. Tsopano zikuwonekeratu kuti zolaula ndi zoipa bwanji kwa amuna
Janurary 28, 2013
ALRIGHT!
Masiku 30 opanda maliseche. Kumva anyamata abwino. Sindinasinthe zolemba zanga kwakanthawi chifukwa sindinkafuna kuyang'ana kwambiri za PMO yonse. Mu kanthawi kochepa kamene ndakhala ndikusiya zolaula ndi maliseche zinthu zambiri zasintha.
- Ndikudzuka m'mawa ndikuyembekezera tsikulo.
- Sindikhala m'chipinda changa kwa maola ambiri potsirizira pa intaneti.
- Sindigwiritsanso ntchito reddit. Ayi konse.
- Ndikupanga zibwenzi ndi atsikana okongola kwambiri ndipo sindimachita mantha kuyankhula nawo.
- Ndimapita kukachita phwando ndikukacheza ndi anzanga, ndipo sindimamva manyazi komanso kukhala ndi nkhawa zochepa.
- Ndimakonda kukhala ndi anthu ambiri ndikuona ubwino wokhala ndi malo ochezera a pa Intaneti.
- Ndikuwona kukongola kwa chilengedwe. Ndimakonda kuyamikira chilengedwe changa ndikupita ku kalasi. Udzu amawoneka mobiriwira ndipo mlengalenga ndi buluu.
Palinso zina zomwe ndasintha pamoyo wanga.
- Ndakhala ndikudya paleo pa masabata a 3 tsopano ndipo ndimamva zosangalatsa. Phukusi langa lachisanu ndi chimodzi tsopano likuwonekeratu ndipo mzere wanga wa nsagwada umakhala wochuluka.
- Ndili ndi mphamvu zowonjezereka ndipo ndimakhala wochenjera ndikudzuka. Sindimakhala ndi zovuta zamatenda kapena zamimba. Ndimangomva ngati ndikumwa mowa.
- Ndikupitanso kumalo ochita masewera olimbitsa thupi 3x sabata iliyonse kuti ndikweze zolimbitsa thupi ndikuchita cardio 3x sabata.
- Ndimatenga madzi ozizira nditatha kugwira ntchito ndipo amamva bwino.
Zosangalatsa, moyo uli ndi njira yobweretsa zinthu palimodzi. Ndinawerenga pa YBOP kuti kusinkhasinkha kungathandizire kufulumira kuchipatala kuchokera ku PMO. Ndikutenga maphunziro a Buddhist semester iyi ku koleji kuti ndikhale ndikuphunzira zonse za kusinkhasinkha.
Komanso, ndazindikira kuti moyo wanga wauzimu sunakhalepo kwa moyo wanga wonse. Pa chifukwa chimenechi ndayamba kupita kutchalitchi. Sindinaleredwe kukhala Mkhristu koma kupita kutchalitchi kumandipatsa malingaliro omwe sindimadziwa kuti anali mwa ine, ndipo mwina zimamveka ngati ndikubwezeretsedwa.
Tsopano musananyalanyaze izi chifukwa zomveka zimakuwuzani kuti ndizopenga, inde ukunena zowona. Mwachidziwikire zipembedzo zilibe maziko ndipo sizimveka. Komabe kulingalira si njira yokhayo yamalingaliro yomwe timaganizira. Kuti tiwone bwino, makolo athu omwe amakhala m'mapanga amatenga nawo mbali pakupanga (miyambo yamaliro, nsembe, ndi zina zambiri).
Taganizirani izi: Kodi FUCK mtundu wapamwamba wopindulitsa ungathe kuchita mwambo wamanda? Komabe, ndizosavomerezeka kuti miyambo imeneyi ikufala padziko lonse lapansi komanso m'mitundu yonse ndi mibadwo.
Mfundo yanga ndiyakuti anthu samachita zinthu chifukwa chongochita zinthu. Ngati wina ali wokhulupirira wachipembedzo kapena chikhulupiriro, ndichifukwa chakuti chimapereka mtengo kwa iwo. Zimawapangitsa kumva bwino. Ndikulimbikitsa kwa moyo.
Mutha kukhala munthu womveka bwino kwambiri padziko lapansi, koma ngati simukusangalala ndiye chiyani?
Njira yoyenera kutsatira ndikupeza njira yapakati. Ndikanena izi ndikubweretsa nzeru zachi Buddha, koma malingaliro okha sangapangitse wina kukhala bwino chifukwa malingaliro athu sali omveka bwino ndipo sitinganyalanyaze mbali zathu. Kumbali inayi, sitingathe kupereka lingaliro la chisangalalo, chinyengo, ndi chikhulupiriro chokhazikika chachipembedzo. Ndiye mumakhala osabala ndi osazindikira. Chifukwa chake ndikupangira njira yapakati.
Tsopano kuti mutembenukire kuchokera ku chigawo ichi mpaka ku mutu waukulu, ine ndikumverera ngati zinthu zonsezi zomwe ndikuchita zikundithandiza. Sindikudandaula za kubwereranso pakali pano chifukwa Ndikufuna kukhala ndi mgwirizano weniweni ndi GALI WOONA! NDIFUNA KUKHALA NDI ZINTHU ZOSABWINO, OSATI MANKHWALA NDI NKHANI YANGA!
Palibe chomwe chingatayike ndipo ZONSE zimapindula.
Ndapita masiku a 30 opanda mtundu uliwonse wa maliseche, ndipo ngakhale nthawi yaitali popanda zolaula. Tsopano ndikupita kukapindula ndekha. Ndimakukondani anyamata.
PEZANI
LINK - Kupambana - Sipadzakhalanso Mr. Blue Balls by machiritso
Feburary 6, 2013
Ndili ndi uthenga wabwino.
Ndinkangokhalira kumva zolaula kwa nthawi yoyamba pafupifupi masiku 40. Nkhani yabwino ndiyakuti sizinali zodzipangira zokha. Ndili ndi BJ ndipo ndinali wovuta nthawi yonseyi!
Kawirikawiri ndi wanga wakale gf ine ndiwuluka pa theka lakati pamene kupeza bj. Osati lero ambuye.
MASIKU ano, NDIKHALA NGATI MUNTHU.
Sindinayenera kupeza mafotokozedwe amtundu uliwonse kuti ndisakhale ovuta. Sindinachite kunama. Zigawo ziwiri zokha zausiku zinali zamwamuna ndi mtsikana kumangoyesererana kuti azimva bwino.
BTW, uyu anali msungwana yemwe amakonda zachipembedzo ndipo ndimaganiza kuti sangayende mwachangu kwambiri. Mukayang'ana positi yomaliza mu zolemba zanga mumvetsetsa. MNYAMATA ndinali kulakwitsa. Amangokhalira kundiuza momwe ndimakhalira wokonda komanso momwe ndimamutumizira, ndipo akuti akumva kuti ndakwanitsa nditabwera pambuyo pa BJ.
Usikuuno ndili ndi magalimoto osinthika.
NDIKUDZIWA KUTI NDIKUTHA "KUGWIRITSA NTCHITO MASEWERA KAPENA KUONANITSITSA PORN PANTHU.
Sindingathe kuphonya zokumana nazo ngati izi. Ayi. Ayi. Osatinso. Unali usiku wabwino.
Ndine wokondwa kuti ndapeza tsamba ili.
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