Nkhani Zophatikizapo ED 7

Nkhani Zokhudzana ndi Zithunzi za ED 7 zili munkhani zingapo za 8 zokhala ndi zitsanzo zazing'ono zodzidziwitsa za amuna osiyanasiyana omwe adakumana ndi zolaula zomwe zidapangitsa ED. Kuti mumve zambiri onani ma ED ndi ma forum awa:

• Zambiri zolaula / maliseche zimayambitsa ED?  (Zolemba za 3300)
• 22 ndi zolaula zinapangitsa kuti erectile iwonongeke?  (Zolemba za 450)
• Zithunzi zochititsa manyazi za ED: YourBrainRebalanced.com
• Zomwe zimayambitsa matenda ED: RebootNation.com
• Zomwe zimapangidwira zithunzi za ED: NoFap.com
• Kuwonetsa-kunayambitsidwa ED sub-reddit

Wonani zikwi zikwi za kudzidzimva zokhazokha kuti mudziwe zomwe iwo adachiritsidwa awona: Kubwezeretsanso Mauthenga Ambiri Page 1, Kubwezeretsanso Mauthenga Ambiri Page 2, Tsamba lokhazikitsa malemba a 3ndipo Zowonekera Pakadali Kubwezeretsanso Blogs & Zingwe.

Moni, ndili ndi zaka 28 ndipo ndikuvutika ndi ED posachedwa. Ndimayamba kuseweretsa maliseche kuyambira ndili 19 ndipo nthawi zambiri ndimagwiritsa ntchito zolaula ngati mawonekedwe owonetsa. Ndazindikira kuti sindinathe kukhala wolimba panthawi yogonana kapena ndimangofooka. Funso langa nlakuti: kodi kuseweretsa maliseche molumikizana ndi zolaula "kumatha" chidwi changa chokhudzana ndi kugonana ndikupangitsa kuti ndisakhale ndi mwayi wogonana? Ndikuda nkhawa chifukwa ndikuganiza kuti ndidakali mwana kuti ndikhale ndi vuto la ED. Lingaliro lililonse? KULUMIKIZANA

Zikomo chifukwa cha zolemba izi. Ndapeza kuti zandithandiza kwambiri. Ndili pachibwenzi kapena ndinali munthu wabwino yemwe atatha nthawi ya 4 m'thumba naye amatha kumadzutsidwa ndikudziseweretsa maliseche ali pabedi nane. Mnyamata ndimadzimva kukhala wosakwanira. Ndimakonda kuganiza kuti ndine wokongola komanso wokonda kugonana. Sakonda ntchito zowombetsa ... Pitani mukawoneke! Anena kuti vuto lake ndi zaka zakusangalala ndi maliseche komanso njira yokhayo yomwe angabwerere ndikakhala kuti ndimangolankhula zonyansa ndikufotokozera nkhani zogonana kapena zogonana kwinaku ndikulakwitsa… ndimangopanga zinthu posowa moyo weniweni wa kinky zinthu zoti ndinene iye. Zinkawoneka ngati ntchito yambiri kwa ine - kupanga chikondi chakuthupi komanso kumalankhula naye pafupipafupi kuti pamapeto pake azichita chiwerewere! Ndizoyipa kwambiri chifukwa apo ayi ndimakondwera kwambiri ndi nthawi yathu yogona ndipo amadzipangira fallatio yomwe ndikuganiza kuti ndi yomwe amayang'ana chifukwa cha mantha ake zikafika povuta kuti agonane. Kodi ndingatani chifukwa ndikudziwa kuti nditsala ndi akatswiri ochita zachiwerewere!

Zaka 20, akhala akuchita zachiwerewere ku koleji koma ED nthawi zonse. Kodi njira yabwino kwambiri yochitira NoFap ya ED ndi iti?

Ndine wophunzira ku koleji, ndimapita kumapwando nthawi zonse, ndimatha kupeza atsikana (ndikudziwa kuti izi zikumveka ngati tambala koma ndikungoyesera kufotokoza), koma sindingathe kuzimvetsa! Ndikufuna kujambula apa: Kungogwa kumeneku ndabwezeretsa atsikana atatu osiyanasiyana kwathu, ndipo nthawi iliyonse sindimatha kuyimilira ngakhale tonse tili maliseche.

Tsopano, ndikapita kumapwando ndimamwa. Koma sindikuganiza kuti mowa ndi vuto langa (ngakhale ndikudziwa kuti mowa umatsimikizika ukhoza kupatsa ED). Sindikukumbukira nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndapeza boner masana, osayang'ana zolaula kapena kudzikhudza. Ngakhale ndikamayang'ana zolaula, ndimayenera kudzikhudza kuti ndikonzekere.

Sizili ngati ine ndikupanga tani mwina. Mwina kamodzi masiku 2-3. Ndipo sindimayang'ana konse ukapolo / kinky kuti andichotse, zomwe ndimakonda ndi zinthu monga X-Art kapena makanema ojambula.

Wawa ndili pano bc ndikufuna thandizo !!! bf wanga wakhala akuchita maliseche zolaula nthawi yayitali looong ndisanamudziwe. Ndili ndi zaka 20 ndipo wangokhala ndi zaka 31. takhala pachibwenzi kwa nthawi yoposa chaka chimodzi tsopano ndipo ndinali ndi mavuto bc sitimagonana pafupipafupi zomwe sitinakhalepo ... zambiri koyambirira tsopano tili otsimikiza. .nthawi zonse ndidamugwira maliseche m'mawa wina ngakhale usiku womwewo tisanagone ndipo ndidamufunsa ngati akufuna kugonana n adati ayi ...

Ndiye kuposa momwe ndimaganizira ndikazindikira kuti ali ndi vuto loonera zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche ... amadziseweretsa maliseche osachepera 3times sabata ngati sichinapitirire ndikugonana kamodzi pamasabata awiri aliwonse .. amadziwa kuti ndipanga chilichonse ndili pabedi ndipo ndili wachichepere komanso wotentha kotero sindikumva! wayamba kuonera zolaula osati kuseweretsa maliseche kuyambira koyambirira kwa Januware… .takhala tikugonana kuyambira pamenepo kamodzi pamlungu mwina. komabe palibe kusintha ... kodi pali chilichonse chomwe ndingachite kuti ndithandizire zambiri kapena chilichonse chomwe sindiyenera kuchita ?! chonde ndithandizeni ndikufunitsitsa !!!

Ndikungofuna kugonana ndi bf wanga ndipo ndikungofuna kuti agone nane…KULUMIKIZANA 

Mu Chifuwa chirichonse

Ndikufuna kupita ku minutiae yovuta mu positi yanga yotsatira koma pano: Ndine wamwamuna wazaka 23 yemwe wasankha kusiya zolaula komanso maliseche. Patha maola opitilira 12 ndipo ndatsala pang'ono kutha kale. Ndine namwali. Ndimasewera maliseche kamodzi patsiku. Nthawi zambiri ndimamatira kuzinthu za vanila koma nthawi zoyipa ndamira kwambiri.

Chifukwa chachikulu chomwe ndikusiya ndikuti ndimawona zolaula komanso maliseche zakhudza kwambiri ubale wanga ndi azimayi komanso thanzi langa lamalingaliro. Zinthu zinatha ndi chibwenzi chomwe ndimakonda; Kulephera kwa erectile kunathandiza kwambiri. Tsopano ndakhala wopanda nkhawa komanso wopanda nzeru pochita ndi omwe nditha kukhala nawo. Zimakhala ngati ndikuwapatsa mgalimoto koma ndataya makiyi. "Kodi tikuphunzira chiyani pamenepa? ” ndilo lingaliro lomwe nthawi zambiri limadutsa m'maganizo mwanga, pambuyo poti mobwerezabwereza za ED ndi atsikana, zaka zisanu ndi ziwiri. Kotero monga gawo la kusintha kwakukulu (motero ndemanga yomwe ili pamwambapa), ndikusiya zolaula ndi maliseche ndikuyembekeza kubwezeretsanso ndikukhala wodalirika, wogonana yemwe samasowa zokumana nazo zabwino pazaka zabwino kwambiri za moyo wake. Kudzakhala kovuta. Ndidayesapo kale koma ndalephera kale koma ndalimbikitsidwa kuti ndapeza tsamba labwino kwambiri lino ndikulimbikitsidwa ndikulimbikitsidwa podziwa kuti pali anthu ena kunja uko omwe akumenyera nkhondo yomweyi.

Ndinachita zinthu monga "Erectile Dysfunction" ndipo popanda kuwerenga zambiri kapena Googling ine ndinapeza webusaiti yosangalatsa komanso yothandiza kwambiri webusaiti yotchedwa https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/ (YBOP) yomwe inali ndi nkhani zambiri komanso mavidiyo othandiza. Ndinayang'ana mavidiyowo ndikuwerenga nkhanizo ndipo ndinakhala ngati wina adalemba mwachidule za moyo wanga ndikuziyika pa intaneti.

Tsopano sizinali ndi zonse zomwe zimandigwira monga kukhala mwana yekhayo, makolo osudzulana ndili ndi zaka 5, osakhala ndi amuna achitsanzo chabwino m'moyo wanga, osadzikonda, odziona ngati otsika kenako ndikusankha moyo wanga wokonza zinthu ndi zaka 4 zakulimbikira ntchito pophunzitsa moyo. Zinalibe chilichonse chokhudza kukhala namwali mpaka zaka 28.

Koma palinso zina zomwe zinali zofanana kwambiri ndipo zinandipangitsa kuzindikira kuti chifukwa chomwe ndakhala ndikuchepetsedwera kuti ndikhale ndi moyo weniweni mtsikana nthawi zambiri sichinthu chochita ndi mtsikana ndipo palibe chochita ndi thupi langa . Ndili 28, posakhalitsa ndidzakhala 29, ndikukhala wabwinobwino, ndikudya bwino, sindimamwa mowa komanso sindinasute fodya ndipo sindinagwiritse ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo m'moyo wanga. Koma chimene chinandichotsa ine kukhala wokakamizika mwakhazikika ndi chosasinthasintha chinali chakuti ndakhala ndikusocheretsedwa kwa mawonekedwe a akazi ndi zachiwerewere chifukwa cha kugwiritsira ntchito zolaula pa intaneti. Chimake ndi chophweka.

Kuchokera pazomwe ndawerenga sindine woyipa ndipo NDIMADZIWA kuti nditha kudzichiritsa. Ndizovuta ngati mankhwala ena aliwonse osokoneza bongo kapena mowa ndipo zonsezi zimakhudza momwe zimakhudzira ubongo ndi dopamine ndipo sizikhudzana kwenikweni ndi mbolo yanga kapena testosterone.

Kupeza tsamba la YBOP kumawoneka ngati kwatsoka. Ndimakhulupirira tsogolo mpaka pamlingo ndipo zidandithandiza nditapeza tsambalo. Chifukwa chiyani? Chifukwa ndakumana ndi Rachel. Ndiwodabwitsa. Ndi munthu yemwe ndimalumikizana naye mwanjira yomwe sindinayandikirepo kutali kuti ndilumikizane ndi wina aliyense m'mbuyomu. Ndiwanzeru, woseketsa, woyendetsa, wosamala, wachikondi, wachifundo, wokoma komanso wokongola. Amatentha kwambiri. Ali ndi thupi lodabwitsa. Mwina samaganiza choncho, koma ndiwokongola ndipo ndili ndi mwayi. Chifukwa chiyani? Chifukwa tsopano ndi bwenzi langa.

Koma nayi mgwirizano. Monga momwe nkhani inanenera (https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/how-i-recovered-from-porn-related-erectile-dy…) pamlingo waubongo Ndikudziwa bwino kuti Rachel ndiwokongola. Zowona komanso zowopsa monga izi zitha kumveka mwanjira zina, ndikamamuyerekeza mwakuthupi ndi azimayi onse omwe ndidayanjana nawo (osati ambiri), azimayi omwe ndakhala ndikugwira nawo ntchito kapena akazi omwe ndangowadziwa mwanjira ina, akhale abwenzi , banja, omwe timadziwana nawo, atsikana ochokera kusukulu komweko ndi ena, a Rachel, amatsogola, kuposa ena onse. Iye ali, osakondwera kwambiri za izo, ndendende zomwe ndimayang'ana mwa mtsikana. Ndiwokongola. Wokondadi kwambiri.

Komabe tikakhala limodzi ndimangolimba pang'ono ndipo sindingathe kuumitsa kwakanthawi kwakanthawi. Ndinadabwa ngati inali misempha. Si. Sindikumva mantha ngati momwe ndimakhalira ndikafunsidwa za ntchito kapena kukalankhula kwa oyambitsa ma toast kapena ngati ndikudziwa ndikadakhala ngati ndingakakamizidwe kulumpha kuchokera ku helikopita kapena china chake chopenga ngati chimenecho.

Vuto ndiloti, ndilibe, ndikudziŵa, komanso mamiliyoni a amuna ena padziko lonse, akuwononga ubongo wanga pakuwona zolaula zambiri. Ndondomekoyi ndikuti ndayendetsa mbali ya ubongo wanga ndikuwona zolaula zambiri.

“Nkhani sikuti ili m'malingaliro a owonerera omwe ali ndi thanzi labwino, koma m'malingaliro aubongo wawo-ndipo palibe njira yothetsera vutoli. Kuzindikira kwakanthawi kwa dopamine m'magawo olandirira mphotho ndikofunikira kwambiri pakukwanira kuchita zachiwerewere, ndipo chidwi chochulukirapo chimafooketsa kuyankha kwa dopamine kwa ubongo wambiri. ”

Ubongo wanga sukutulutsanso dopamine yokwanira kuti iwuke ndipo ndilibe ma dopamine receptors okwanira muubongo wanga kuti nditenge pang'ono dopamine yomwe ikumasulidwa.

Pokumbukira, sitinakhalepo ndi intaneti yapaintaneti m'nyumba yomwe ndinakulira ndipo intaneti yonse inali yaying'ono kwambiri ndipo sindikuganiza kuti ndinayang'anirapo zolaula. Ndikukumbukira kuti ndimangogwiritsa ntchito intaneti nthawi imeneyo ndipo awa anali masiku asanafike Google. Zinatenga mphindi zitatu kuti tsamba lililonse lizitsitsidwa komanso kuti zigawo zake zonse zizisonkhanitsidwa pazenera ndi zinthu monga (zinthu 3 zomwe zatsala) zikuwonetsedwa kumanzere kumanzere ndi ngodya yazanja pazenera. Ngakhale kuyang'ana pazithunzi za akazi amaliseche kukadakhala kopusa chifukwa zikadatenga mphindi kuti chithunzi chimodzi chokha chikhale. Komanso, m'masiku amenewo sindinkadziwa kuwerenga makompyuta komanso kudziwa intaneti monga momwe ndiliri tsopano ndipo ndikuganiza kuti ndimadziwirabe kuti Amayi angadziwe ngati ndachita chilichonse chosokonekera ndikuyenda pa ine.

Ndimakumbukira kuti ndinali ndi imodzi, mwina makope awiri azomwe tili kuno ku UK ngati anyamata anzeru atagona ndipo ndimakonda kuwaseweretsa maliseche. Iwo ndi owoneka bwino. Kwenikweni atsikana atavala zovala zamkati kapena ma bikini ndipo opanda mawere kapena maliseche owonekera. Zinali zosavuta kuti ndipeze thanthwe lolimba ngakhale. Wopenga kwambiri. Ndikadakumana ndi Rachel nthawi imeneyo ndikadatha kumunyamula ndikumangokhala ndekha popanda manja.

Chifukwa chake, mwachangu mpaka Seputembara 2001. Ndimapita kuyunivesite mumzinda waukulu. Intaneti siyofunika kwambiri. Ndimatenga PC yanga kuti ndipange naye limodzi koma palibe kulumikizana kwa intaneti mzipinda zomwe tidakhala mchaka choyamba. Sindikuphonya ngakhale. Ndinali nditangokhala ndi foni yam'manja ndipo sindinkaigwiritsa ntchito. Facebook ndi Gmail kunalibe, ndipo Google kunalibe.

M'zipinda zanga ndinalibe Intaneti komanso zithunzi zolaula. Ndinkasewera pamasewero a atsikana okongola omwe ndinawawona pamsasa, ambiri a iwo sakanatha kundipeza, chifukwa, nthawi imeneyo sindinali munthu yemwe ndakhalapo tsopano. Ndinali mwana wamng'ono. Ndingagwiritse ntchito malingaliro anga ndipo palibe china. Ndikajambula zithunzizo m'zovala zamkati kapena zopanda zovala ndipo zikanakhala zokwanira. Ndikhoza kuganiza kuti akugonana ndi ine, koma ndi zomwezo. Tangogonana basi. Zogonana za vanilla munganene.

M'chaka chachiwiri, Seputembara 2002 mpaka chilimwe 2003 ndimakhala ndi anyamata 5 3 omwe anali pa Computer Systems ndi Networks course ndipo osakhala ankhanza, anali ma geek akulu. Tili ndi burodibandi momwe amafunira ndipo adakonza zonse ndikuzilumikiza. Kuganizira za izi, inali nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga kuti ndikhale ndi burodibandi. Sindinadziwe kuthamanga kwake ndipo sindimadziwa chilichonse za izo kupatula momwe zimakhalira, ndipo zimathamanga nthawi zonse.

Chifukwa chake zikutanthauza kuti aliyense amatha kusewera maukonde ndikutsitsa zinthu nthawi yomweyo osatayika. Zosonkhanitsa nyimbo za anthu ena zinali zazikulu kuposa hard drive yanga ndipo anali kutsitsa makanema apa TV aku USA ndikuwayang'ana asanatulutsidwe pa TV ku UK. Tinalibe YouTube kapena iPlayer koma intaneti inali kukula.

Ndimakumbukira kuti wina adatsitsa zomwe amaganiza kuti ndi kanema Panic Room ndi Jodie Foster mmenemo koma idakhala kanema wa zolaula waku Danish wa ola la 3. Ndinaziwonera zina mwa izi ndi anyamata mnyumbamo momwe mungamayang'anire kanema wamba ndikuziona zoseketsa koma zinali zomwezo. Ndinawoneranso kanema wapa zolaula mwachidule ndi mzanga wina mchipinda changa chifukwa anali oseketsa. Amuna awiri amagonana ndi mkazi pagombe. Pakadali pano ndidazindikira kuti ndizoyipa kwambiri komanso zoyipa. Zinali zogonana ndipo palibe amene amaoneka kuti akusangalala nazo. Ndimakumbukira kuti sindinadzutse kwenikweni. Nthawi zina timaseka momwe zinthu zonse zimawonekera zovuta. Nditha kulingalira wotsogolera akuwakalipira kuti apitilize koma mwina amangodandaula momwe madziwo amazizira. Panali nyimbo yanyimbo. Zinali zolaula zam'mbuyo.

Ndimakumbukira kuti mchaka chachiwiri wina adasiya magazini pabalaza pomwe panali nkhani zolaula. Icho chinali ndi zithunzi, koma ine ndimaganiza kuti izo zinali zinyalala. Akaziwo anali okongola, koma sindinawone tanthauzo lake. Ndinawerenga zina mwa nkhanizi komabe ndinadzutsidwa mwamphamvu mkati mwa masekondi a 10 ndipo ndinayenera kuyika magaziniyo pansi ndikulingalira china chake kuti erection ichoke. Zinali nkhani zofotokozera kwambiri ndipo zinafika pofika pomwepo. Apanso, sizinatenge zambiri kuti ndipite. Ndikadakhala nditawona mkazi atavala zovala zamkati zamsinkhu uno ndikadayenera kulimbikira kwambiri kuti ndisadzuke.

Mu 3rd ndi chaka chomaliza, September 2003 mpaka May 2004 Ndinakhala ndi abwenzi awiri ochokera kunyumba komanso gulu la anthu ena ndipo tsopano ndinamvetsa kufunika ndi kufunika kokhala ndi webusaiti yotsegula kwambiri m'nyumba yathu monga momwe tingathere chipatala cha yunivesiti ndi kupeza zolemba za pulogalamu yambiri ndi kulemberana makalata aphunzitsi athu ndikuchita zonse zomwe zingatheke ku laibulale kuchokera ku chitonthozo cha zipinda zathu. Laibulale nthawi zonse inali yodzaza ndi anthu ambiri ndipo inali yoopsa kwambiri.

Zolaula zomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito mchaka chimenecho zidali zithunzi za azimayi ovala zovala zopanda nsalu, kapena zovala zamkati zosambira kapena zamkati. Zithunzizo zimanyamula mwachangu chifukwa cha burodibandi. Ndinkanyamula yomwe ndimafuna ndikuyiyang'ana nthawi zina kwinaku ndikuseweretsa maliseche kuti ndikumbukire momwe akaziwo amawonekera, koma kupatula kuti malingaliro anga amadabwa. Ndikadapangabe zabwino zanga. Mkazi ndi zochitikazo atha kusintha ndikusanduka zopeka koma sizinali choncho. Ndimakumbukiranso kuti ndatsitsa mwina zidule zazifupi 30 kuchokera patsamba zingapo zomwe ndimayang'ana. Mwina ndidatsitsa mwina mchaka chachiwiri kapena chaka chomaliza, sindingakumbukire kwenikweni.

Zithunzizo sizinali zazitali. Oposa 1 GB yathunthu ya onsewo. Ndimakumbukira ndikugawana nawo pa intaneti ndi mnzanga yemwe panthawiyo anali zolaula. Ndikutsimikiza kuti anyamata onse mnyumbamo anali kupatula munthu m'modzi yemwe anali ndi bwenzi lake komanso wina yemwe amadutsa mwa akazi mwachangu kuposa momwe ndimamwa mowa pang'ono. Sindikukumbukira zambiri koma sindinali wogwiritsa ntchito zolaula kwambiri. M'malo mwake sindikuganiza kuti kuchuluka kwa zolaula kapena kutalika kwa magawowa ndikofunikira ndi izi. Ndimphamvu zake pokhudzana ndi kumasulidwa kwa dopamine komanso kuchuluka kwa magawo. Ngati mwatsegulidwa m'maganizo ndipo INUYO mukugwiritsa ntchito zinthu zomwe zimakupatsani mwayi, nthawi yakumapeto siyikhala yayitali konse. Ndizochitikira zanga zaka khumi zakugwiritsa ntchito zolaula.

Pafupifupi mwezi umodzi nditachoka ku United Union tinasamukira mu July 2004 ndipo ine ndinali ndi mawindo akuluakulu kwa amayi ndi ine. Ndinaligwiritsa ntchito ku uni zaka zaka zapitazo za 2 ndipo sindinabwererenso. Kotero ife tinaziyika izo pakhomo ndipo ntchito yanga yolaula ikupitirira. Sindikudziwa kuti zinali zotani pamene tinasamukira pachiyambi. Ndinali ndikugwiritsa ntchito mawebusaiti a zithunzi. Ndikayang'ana pazithunzi kuti nditsimikizidwe ndikupita ndikugona ndikuganiza za osankhidwa awiri kapena awiri kuchokera pazithunzi ndikusakaniza ndi akazi ochokera ku moyo weniweni ndi amayi omwe amatsenga kuti ndiwapange mutu wanga. Ndikanatha kuchita maliseche ndikupanga zochitika.

Nthawi ina ndidayamba kuwonera makanema kunyumba. Mwina zidule zochepa pa intaneti zomwe mungapeze kwaulere chifukwa mumayenera kulipira zonse, kapena ndimatsitsa makanema ena pogwiritsa ntchito Limewire monga momwe ndimachitira kuyunivesite. Zongowononga chabe ndi zinthu monga choncho. Sindikukumbukira kuseweretsa maliseche ku PC pomwe ndimakhala ndi Amayi. Ndimakondabe kugwiritsa ntchito zithunzi kapena makanema kuti ndiyambe kutseguka ndikubwerera kukagona kuti ndikasangalale ndikadzuka mokwanira.

Ndinachoka pakhomo ndili ndi zaka 25 mu June 2008 ndipo ndinapita kukakhala m'nyumba yapafupi ndi tawuniyi. Poyamba sindingakumbukire momwe kugwiritsira ntchito zolaula kwanga kunaliri. Ndimakumbukira ndikuwonetsa mayi yemwe ndimakhala naye kunyumba kanema chifukwa anali ndi chidwi chofuna kudziwa zolaula pa ntchito yake ngati wothandizira. Zinali kwenikweni paulendo wanga wolimba. Pambuyo pake ndinachotsa mafayilo popeza sindinakonde kukhala nawo pa PC yanga. Masamba a Porn 2.0 adayamba kwambiri pakati pa 2006. YouTube ndipo idawonekera mu February 2005 ndipo sizinatengere nthawi yoti dziko lachiwerewere lipange tsamba lofananalo koma ndi mutu wachikulire. Chifukwa chake malowa anali atakhazikika bwino nthawi yomwe ndidatuluka ku 2008.

Nthawi ina ndimaganiza kuti ndinakupeza iweporn.com ndipo pasanapite nthawi yaitali, mnzanga yemwe anali wosakwatiwa anandiuza za Pornhub.com ndipo ndimagwiritsa ntchito malo awiriwa. Sindingakhale nawo pazinthu zoposa maminiti a 30 panthawi imodzi komanso kamodzi kamodzi pa tsiku la 2 kapena 3. Sindinagonepo pazinthu zolaula pazinthu zoposa 30 mphindi iliyonse pokhapokha nditadziwa malo omwe ndingagwiritsire ntchito ine ndangopita kumene kwa iwo omwe anachepetsa nthawi yofufuza mozama. Onjezerani pa chingwe cha 10 MB chingwe ndi kufufuza masamba mu Firefox ndipo zinapangitsa kuti zinthu zikhale zosavuta. Ndinaphunziranso kugwira ntchito mofulumira chifukwa chogwira ntchito mu ofesi ndikugwiritsa ntchito MSN ndi Gmail kunyumba ndipo ndakhala ndikudziwitsa zambiri zochepetsera makina a Firefox. Zinthu zonsezi zing'onozing'ono kuphatikizapo chinsinsi cha chipinda changa mnyumbamo chinapangitsa kuti ndikukonzekere mwamsanga komanso mosavuta.

Posakhalitsa ndinali nditadziphunzitsa kuseweretsa maliseche pamalo oyenera nditakhala pampando wanga m'malo mogona ndikupukuta mbolo yanga ntchafu yanga monga momwe ndakhala ndikuchitira. Ndinkagwira mbolo yanga ndi dzanja langa ndikumayendadi. Uku ndiye kunali kusintha koyenera. Izi zikutanthauza kuti ndimatha kuseweretsa maliseche pa PC m'malo mongobwerera kukagona ndipo sizinatenge nthawi kuti ndiganizirenso zopeka zanga, koma ndimangogwiritsa ntchito kanema yemwe anali pazenera patsogolo panga. Sindikupanga malingaliro anga ndipo sindinasinthe zomwe ndimaziwona, ndimangogwiritsa ntchito momwe zasonyezedwera. Tsopano ndinali ongowonera. Nthawi zonse ndimadabwa kuti anyamata ena angachite bwanji izi, koma ndinali nditadzakhala m'modzi wawo. Ndinamva kupindula kwachilendo, chifukwa ndinali kuseweretsa maliseche ngati wamkulu.

Kunali koyambirira koma njira yomwe intaneti idasinthira imatanthawuza kuti ine ndingathe monga webusaiti ya YBOP inandiululira dzulo, yambani kusaka zomwe ndizo zomwe dopamine amachita. Zimasaka. Imafuna mphotho. Ndondomeko ya ubongo mu ubongo wanga inali ikuwombera pang'onopang'ono koma ndithudi.

Ndinayamba kutulutsa mavidiyo ambiri m'magulu ena pa malo monga anal ndi ukapolo, osati kungofufuza pafupipafupi kapena kugwiritsa ntchito kanema yoyamba yomwe ndinagwira diso langa, zomwe ndakhala ndikuchita kwa kanthawi. Ine tsopano ndikupita ku gawo la iwe tube tube makamaka kwa anal, ukapolo, doggy kalembedwe kapena chirichonse chimene chinali chimene anatenga wanga zokongola. Chimenechi chinali chizindikiro china chotsitsimula. Ndikhoza kuthamanga mofulumira kudzera m'mavidiyo kuti ndipeze zenizeni zowonjezera zomwe zikanandichititsa kwambiri, zomwe zikanamasula kwambiri dopamine nthawi yochepa kwambiri. Panali mbali yothandiza kwambiri yomwe mungathe kuyendetsa mtolo wanu pazenera nthawi yomwe ili pansi pa pulogalamuyo ndikuwona chithunzi chaching'ono cha chithunzi chomwe chinali kuchitika pa nthawiyo. Ndimagwiritsa ntchito izi kuti ndizisaka mopitirira, koma nthawi ino sindikusakasaka pulogalamuyo, koma ndikusaka kupyolera pandekha.

Ndinkasiya kuvula aliyense, kumayankhula, kukopana, chilichonse chonga icho, ndikudula molunjika ku zovuta kapena kuwombera. Pazaka zapitazi za 3 osatinso, ndakhala ndikufunika zolaula kuti ndizidzuka. Palibe zonyansa, zongogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, amuna ogonana ndi akazi, kugonana koyipa, komanso zinthu zina zomangika koma sizinali choncho. Komabe ndizopepuka zaka zochepa kuchokera pazithunzi za bikini zomwe ndidayamba nazo mu 2003-2004. Koma ndikuganiza za izi ndikhoza kunena kuti ndikawona zithunzi za atsikana okongola kapena atsikana okongola m'moyo weniweni ngakhale zitangokhala zovuta pagombe kapena china chake, ndiyenera kuti ndiyatsegulidwa koma sindine.

Tsopano sindikungosowa zolaula ndimafunikira magawo angapo amakanema angapo, olimba, opangidwa mwaluso kuti andichotse ndipo ndazindikira kuti ndimatha kuseweretsa maliseche ndikutulutsa umuna wofewa. Izi nthawi zonse zimandipangitsa kudabwa zomwe zimachitika. Ndinawerenga kwinakwake zaka zapitazo kuti mbolo iyenera kugwedezeka mwamphamvu mpaka kukodzera, koma ndikudziwa kuchokera pazomwe ndidakumana nazo kuti sizili choncho.

Chifukwa chake, pamenepo tili nawo. Palibe chifukwa choti ndinene zambiri kupatula izi zidapitilira pomwe ndidasamukira ku nyumba yanga yomwe ndimakhala mu June 2011. Ndidali ndi bonasi yowonjezeredwa yopumuliratu nditatsala pang'ono kusamuka ndipo izi zidandipatsa nthawi yambiri kukhala ndekha mnyumba masana ndi nthawi yomwe Ndimatha kuseweretsa maliseche. Chosangalatsa kwambiri mwina ndimayang'ana zolaula osakwana ola limodzi patsiku ngakhale osagwira ntchito. Koma zili ngati mankhwala osokoneza bongo. Amawombera m'mawa ndipo mwina sangafunike kugundidwa kwina kwakanthawi.

Kwa nthawi yayitali pomwe sindinkagwira ntchito sindinayang'ane zolaula kangapo kapena kawiri patadutsa milungu iwiri.

Nditakhala ndi Rachel pa radar yanga monga munthu yemwe ndikufuna kuti ndiyankhule ndi kudziŵa zambiri, ndiye ndinasiya kugonana kwathunthu. Mwina mwangozi, mwinamwake chisankhulidwe ndi chiyanjano chinadzaza chopanda pake. Ndasiya kulemba maliseche kumapeto kwa mwezi wa August, ndipo ndinangochita kambirimbiri mu September ndi nthawi zingapo mu October. Kamodzi ndi zolaula komanso nthawi yonse popanda.

Zowona kuti ndinkadzidalira ndipo sindinakhale ndi chibwenzi kwazaka zambiri sizingathandize izi. Zinthu ziwirizi komanso kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula mwina zimadyetsana wina ndi mnzake mopanda kuwononga.

Sindinadziwe kuti zakhala zikuchitika pang'onopang'ono za zizindikiro zowonongeka monga momwe tafotokozera m'nkhani yowonongeka yomwe ndimagwirizana nayo kale.

“Sindikumva kalikonse. Zili ngati ndilibe libido. Palibe matabwa ammawa. Palibe maloto onyowa. Palibe zozizwitsa zokha. Palibe zolakalaka. Sanakhalepo wamanyazi. Ndakhala ndi mwayi wogonana koma thupi langa silikuyankha. Ndikuphunzira maphunziro a tango, chifukwa chake ndimakhala ochezeka koma palibe chisonyezo cha libido yanga. Nditha kuvina ndi msungwana wokongola ndipo sindimachita chilichonse. Ndimazindikira kuti mtsikana ndi wokongola, koma sindimamva. ”

Maganizo amenewa siachilendo kwa ine. Zolaula zomwe ndimagwiritsa ntchito komanso chizolowezi choseweretsa maliseche zatha koma chifukwa sizinathe kwathunthu ndikukhulupirira kuti chaka chatha kapena ndakhala ndikungokhalira kukonzanso ndikubwezeretsanso, sindingathe kuthawa zolaula. Sindinakhalepo ndi maloto ambiri onyowa, chimodzi chokha chomwe ndikukumbukira ndikudzuka ndikuyamba kutulutsa magazi kulikonse ndipo ndinali ndisanakhale ndi intaneti zaka zambiri zapitazo. Ndakhala ndisanakhale ndi nkhuni zammawa kwazaka zambiri. Ndikuganiza kuti mavuto adangowonekera bwino mzaka 3 zapitazi pomwe azimayi enieni adachitapo gawo koyamba.

Ndikutha kukumbukira kuyankhula za izo ndi moyo wanga mphunzitsi ndi kuziyika kuntchito ya nkhawa. Tsopano ndikulingalira kuti nkhaŵa yeniyeni yokhudzidwa ikanakhala yayikulu kuposa 10% ya vutoli. Chododometsa kwenikweni, koma chinthu chachikulu ndikudziwa kuti ndikudziwa chomwe chili cholakwika ndi ine ndipo ndikudziwa kuti chingathe kukhazikitsidwa popanda kugwiritsa ntchito ndalama kapena kufunafuna chithandizo chamalonda kapena chirichonse chonga izo.

Zolaula, Maliseche, Chiwerewere kapena PMO mwachidule. Ndiyenera kupita popanda PMO mpaka Tsiku Latsopano Latsopano. Ndicho cholinga changa choyambirira, tsiku lililonse kuyambira pamenepo adzakhala bonasi. Ngati nditenga lero, 18 Okutobala ngati Tsiku 1, ndiye Tsiku la Zaka Zatsopano lidzakhala tsiku la 75. Ngati ndingathe kupita popanda PMO kuyambira pano mpaka pano, ndikukhulupirira kwathunthu kuti ndibwerera mwakale. Zingatenge nthawi yayitali kuposa pamenepo, koma zitha kutenga nthawi yayitali, sindikudziwa. Chinthu chimodzi ndichakuti, ndidzachita bwino. Cholinga changa? Rachel. Sindikusowa chilimbikitso champhamvu kuposa iye. Ndikuganiza za izi, palibe chomwe chingalimbikitse ine. Ndikufuna kuti ubale wathu ukhale wabwino koposa, ndipo kugwira ntchito moyenera m'magulu onse kungathandize. Ndikuthandiza ndekha kutithandiza. Ndidzafunanso thandizo lake, kuzindikira, kumvetsetsa ndi kuthandizanso. Ndidzamenya izi.

Pomwe ndikufuna kugona naye sindikufuna kuti ndikhale ndikumangirira ubongo wake patebulo la khitchini kapena zina zotero, ndikudziwa kuti ndiopambana kuposa pamenepo. Tili ndi kulumikizana kochititsa chidwi ndipo timasangalala mwanjira imeneyi kuposa kungogonana monga mchitidwe wakuthupi. Ndikuganiza kuti mantha anga osakwanitsa kulowa mwa iye andikakamiza kuti ndisangalale ndi ubale wosagonanawo ndikumamuyang'ana ngati munthu ndikumudziwa ndikumakopeka naye, kwathunthu iye ali ndi mbali iliyonse ya umunthu wake.

Ndikufuna kukondana ndi Rachel, ndikufuna kukhala chibwenzi chake, ndikufuna kukondana naye, ndikumukonda kwambiri. Ndikufuna kuti iye adziwe kuti ndiwe wamkulu komanso wovuta kwambiri. Ndikufuna kugonana kukhala kosangalatsa komanso kosangalatsa kwa ife tonse osati iye yekha.

Adanenanso zakusagonana komanso kuyang'ana kwambiri pazinthu zina ndipo panthawiyo sindinakonde kumveka kumeneko. Pamenepo sindinapeze YBOP komanso kuti ndili ndi vuto losokoneza bongo. Nditaphunzira za chizolowezi changa ndikuziganizira, ndikufuna kuchita izi, ndipo ndikuganiza kuti ayamikiranso. Ndilibe vuto kumusangalatsa pamanja kapena pakamwa, ndipo amatha kundigwiranso ngati amakonda, koma chosavuta ndichakuti sindiyenera kukhala PMO ndekha.

Gwero langa lokhalo zolaula ndi intaneti pa laputopu yanga. Palibe zolaula zosindikizidwa kulikonse, ndipo palibe mafayilo osungidwa pa hard drive yanga. Zonse zili kunja uko pa intaneti ndipo zimatha kupezeka ndikungodina pang'ono. Kungokhala funso lokhalabe olimba ndikugwiritsa ntchito ubale wanga ndi Rachel ngati cholimbikitsira kuti ndisamagonje komanso kufooka.

Chinthu china choti ndigonjetse ndi malingaliro anga azakugonana komanso zolaula ngati zithunzi. Sizoipa kwenikweni. Kuyambira tsopano pomwe china chake chimabwera m'mutu mwanga ndimangoganiza za Rachel, osati kwenikweni pankhani yogonana.

Koma pambali pa izo padzakhala ndondomeko yogwirira ntchito.

Tsopano ndikafuna kuseweretsa maliseche ndikuchita zovuta m'malo, ndikukonzekera masikiti a 20. Izi zidzakhala zododometsa, kugwiritsa ntchito mphamvu zakuthupi, kumanga minofu ndi mphamvu zomwe ndingathe kuzigwiritsa ntchito pa masewera olimbitsa thupi kapena moyo weniweni, kuwathandiza kupanga mahomoni, kundipangitsa ine kuwoneka bwino ndikukhala wotsimikiza kwambiri.

Ndikangobwerera kuntchito, nthawi yaofesi, kuphatikiza zonse zomwe ndimakonda kuchita, kusunga PMO diary ndikusinthidwa, komanso kufunika kophika, kugula, kugwira ntchito zapakhomo, kuwona Amayi, kuwona anzanu ndikucheza ndi bwenzi langa labwino kwambiri Rachel zidzatanthauza kuti Ndilibe nthawi yambiri yogwiritsira ntchito zolaula komanso zinthu zoterezi.

Kusokonezedwa ndi kusokonezedwa kwa chidwi ndichofunikira kwambiri ndikudziletsa. Nthawi yovuta kwambiri ndikugona usiku ndikakhala ndekha. Ndinkakonda kuseweretsa maliseche kuti andithandize kugona pang'ono, koma sizikhala zosankha tsopano. Ndiyenera kupita ndi Rachel komwe kuli zovala zosavala zabwino kwambiri tikamagona limodzi kuti nditsimikizire kuti sizingandiyese.

Ndadzipukutadi ndipo ndikusangalala kuti ndapeza tsamba la YBOP ndikuzindikira vuto langa. Ndikudziwa kuti ndi tsamba lenileni chifukwa a) silikuyesera kundigulitsa kapena kundilembera chilichonse, b) silimafotokozeredwa zotsatsa chilichonse ndi c) ndikawerenga zolemba ndi maakaunti a amuna ena, Nditha kuzindikira bwino zomwe akunena ndipo ndizofanana kwambiri ndi zomwe zidandichitikira kuti ndine 100% wotsimikiza kuti ili ndiye vuto lomwe ndakhala ndikukumana nalo.

Monga momwe tsamba lawebusayiti likunenera, dokotala wanu sangathe kukuthandizani popeza zamankhwala zatha zaka zambiri ndipo sangathe kusintha momwe intaneti ikusinthira. Ndine wotsimikiza kuti amuna ambiri amavutika ndi izi, komanso kuti zochitika zolaula zokhudzana ndi zolaula zikuwonetsa kuchuluka kwachangu komanso kupezeka kwa intaneti yapaintaneti.

Ndiwo woyamba kulowa mu diary yanga. Zakhala zazitali koma ziyenera kukhala. Kuyambira tsopano zolemba sizikhala zazifupi, koma ndizofotokozedweratu mokwanira kuti ndilembe malingaliro anga, malingaliro, zochitika ndi zosintha.

Pano ndili ndi 17 Ndakhala ndikuonera zolaula kuyambira 13ish poyamba ndimakumbukira kuti ndimatha kungoyang'ana zolaula koma tsopano zaka zingapo ndili pamzere sindingathe kukhala wowuma wopanda zolaula ndipo ndine ****** Kutaya malingaliro anga ngati usiku watha msungwana uyu ndimamukonda kuyambira kalasi ya 6th anali kundipempha kuti ndimumenyetse iye koma ndinayenera kupanga zifukwa ******** kuti ndichoke pamtunduwu chifukwa ndikudziwa sindingakhale ndi ine ndekha ngati sindikanatha *** kwa iye sindinayang'ane zolaula, sindinazigwire, kapena sindinatenge nawo gawo ngati sabata ndi theka ndipo pano sindikufunanso

ndemanga idzayamikiridwa kwambiri ngati osayang'ana zolaula zimagwira ntchito, zimatengera nthawi yaitali bwanji kuti abwerere kuti athe kukhala ndi zibwenzi zenizeni, aliyense yemwe ali ndi zaka zofanana ndizofanana ndi *********. KULUMIKIZANA

Epiphany ndi kufunafuna kusintha

Ndine wamwamuna wazaka 19 yemwe ndidayamba kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula pazaka za 13. Poyamba zinali chabe zithunzi zamaliseche ndi zinthu zomwe sindinkaganiza kuti zinali "zoyipa" monga tsamba la Victoria's Secret. Kenako ndinaphunzira kuseweretsa maliseche ndili ndi zaka 14, koma kwakanthawi idalimbikitsidwa ndimaganizo ndi malingaliro, popeza kulumikizana kwanga pa intaneti sikunathe kutsitsa makanema mwachangu nthawi imeneyo. Chodabwitsa kwambiri, sindinkafunafuna zolaula panthawiyo chifukwa sindinkamva bwino. Heck, ndimamva ... sindinayambe… kuti ndiwone akazi amaliseche kwanthawi yayitali, chifukwa chake sindinatengeke ndi zithunzi zamaliseche.

Koma monga ndikudziwira tsopano, ngakhale machitidwe amtunduwu omwe ndimawawona ngati "ofatsa" atha kubweretsa zovuta zambiri zomwe ndawerenga pa Ubongo Wanu pa Zithunzi. Tsiku lina, mwadzidzidzi ndinazindikira momwe mbolo yanga imamvera. Ndinalibe nkhuni zammawa zilizonse ndikakumbukira bwino ndimakhala nazo pafupifupi chaka chimodzi chokhar. Zithunzithunzi zamaliseche zinali zitayamba kutaya mphamvu zawo, ndipo ndimayenera kuyang'ana pazenera zazikulu ndi zazikulu kuti ndingokwera chimodzimodzi. Zosintha zilizonse zomwe ndakwanitsa kuzipeza sizimamvanso chimodzimodzi monga kale. Sanamve ngati amoyo ndipo amangotengeka ndi "malingaliro awoawo" amtundu wina. Kwa wachinyamata, ndimaganiza kuti ili ndi vuto lalikulu. Apa ndiyenera kukhala pamalo ovuta kwambiri m'moyo wanga koma sindimangomva! Pomaliza, ndidaganiza zouza makolo anga za zovutazi ndipo adanditenga kuti ndikawonane ndi madokotala atatu kwanthawi yayitali.

Woyamba anali urologist yemwe adayezetsa magazi kuti aone kuchuluka kwa testosterone komanso adayang'ana prostate (zosasangalatsa zomwe zidachitika, urgh). Pamapeto pake sanathe kuzindikira chilichonse cholakwika ndi ine, komanso "kuyesa" ndi msungwana weniweni, panalibe chilichonse chomwe akanatha kuchita. Anandilimbikitsanso kuseweretsa maliseche mochulukira, malangizo omwe ndidatsata mopusa: /

Chachiwiri chinali mtundu wina wa dokotala yemwe ndinayendera matenda ena koma ndinamuuza za vuto langa. Atazindikira kuti palibe cholakwika, adandiwuza kwa katswiri wa zamagulu. Katswiriyu wodwala matenda a ubongo anachita MRI yovuta kuti ndione ngati ubongo wanga uli ndi vuto, ndipo nthawi yomaliza, osandiwona cholakwika, adandipatsa malangizo achipembedzo monga kusalakwitsa ngati Mkhristu. Kukhoza kunena, ndinamva ngati madokotala onsewa alibe kanthu kuti andipatse mayankho omwe ndikufunikira kwambiri.

Posachedwa zaka zaposachedwa pomwe zolaula zanga zidasintha kuchokera pazithunzi chabe kupita pa zolaula "zachiwerewere," moyo wanga unali pachikhalidwe. Ndatsala pang'ono kumaliza sukulu yasekondale ndipo mwadzidzidzi ndinamva ngati zaka zanga ndathera pomwepo ndipo ndawononga nthawi yonse yamtengo wapataliyo. Ndinkadziona kuti ndine wachisoni komanso wosungulumwa, ndipo palibe chomwe chinkawoneka kuti chikhoza kundipatsa mtendere wamumtima. Munthawi imeneyi, ndimadzidalira ndi zolaula komanso maliseche, ndikuwona kuti ndi chinthu chokhacho chomwe chimakhala chosangalatsa pamoyo wanga, ngakhale nthawi zina ndikangomva chisoni kwambiri. Ndinazindikiranso kuti njira yokhayo yomwe ndingakhalire yovuta ndikungoyang'ana zolaula ndikuseweretsa maliseche, ndipo mawonekedwe anga anasintha kuchoka pakumenya ndi lube mpaka kuwuma. Nthawi zambiri, ndimangoseweretsa maliseche ndi mbolo yomwe sinali yovuta kwenikweni. Pakadali pano, ndinali nditaiwala momwe kulimbikira kwamiyala kumamvekera.

Kenako miyezi ingapo mmbuyo ndidapunthwa pa YBOP pa nkhani yama psychology, ndipo mwadzidzidzi kukayikira kwanga konse kunathetsedwa. Mwanjira ina, ndimakhala womasuka chifukwa vuto langa silinali lachilendo komanso kuti limatha kuthana ndi kuchuluka kwa nthawi ndi nthawi. Ndinali nditataya chiyembekezo choti ndidzachiritsidwa ndikuganiza kuti ndiyenera kukhala ndi vuto lachiwerewere. Tsopano, ndatsimikiza mtima kuti ndiyambitsenso bwino ndikadzamaliza maphunziro anga asadapite kuyunivesite kumapeto kwa chaka chino, ndikupeza zabwino zomwe ndidapeza panjira.

Pakadali pano ndili tsiku la 14 poyambiranso. Poyamba ndinali nditayambiranso tsiku la 11 izi zisanachitike koma ndinabwereranso kenako ndikudyera masiku 2 ndisanayambe maphunziro anga apano. Ndine wokondwa kuwona zabwino zomwe zikuwonekeratu zikuyamba pamoyo wanga. Sindikumva kuti ndine waulesi popita kumalo ochita masewera olimbitsa thupi nthawi ndi nthawi kuti ndikachite masewera olimbitsa thupi. Sindikhala wokhumudwa kwa nthawi yayitali ngati tsikulo silinayende bwino, mosiyana ndi kale. Ndikumva kuti ndikulimbikira kuchita zambiri pamoyo wanga watsiku ndi tsiku. Ngakhale sindinagwiritse ntchito bwino ngati kuwerenga lol, koma zimamveka bwino kuti ndisamveke ndikutopa kwanthawi zonse.

Koma ndi njira yovuta motsimikiza. Ndikanena kuti tsiku la 14 lobwezeretsanso izi limangokhudza M ndi O. M'masiku aposachedwa chidwi chowonera zolaula chinali chachikulu kwambiri ndipo ndidangoyang'ana pang'ono monga zikuto za Maxim ndi Nuts, kotero kuti zolaula zimangobwerera masiku a 0. Koma osakhala ndi M ndi O, sindimangotsala pang'ono kutsika atatu ndipo ndikosavuta kuti ndisiye kufunafuna zolaula. Komabe, ubongo wanga wakhala ukufuula osayima lero ndipo ndimayenera kugona pang'ono kuti ndichepetse kulakalaka. Ndikuganiza kuti mwina zili ngati "kugunda khoma" poyendetsa? Ndi liti pamene mumakhala ndi mphamvu zokwanira zopitilira koma ubongo wanu ukukuuzani kuti muyime? Koma ngati mutha kuthyola khoma ilo, ndiye kuti mumadzimva wamphamvuyo ndipo mutha kupita osayima. Kotero tsopano zikumveka ngati ndikhoza kupitiriza koma ubongo wanga ukufuna kale kuti ndizidya. Ndikuyembekeza kuti ndikangotseka khoma limenelo, ubongo wanga udzaleka kundizunza ndipo ndimatha kuyang'ana poyambiranso.

Komanso, pozindikira kuopsa kosakhala ndi zinthu zokwanira zosokoneza zolimbikitsazo, ndichifukwa chake ndidasankha kuyambitsa magazini pano. Apanso, ndine wokondwa kuti ndatsogozedwa ku YBOP ndi maakaunti onse opambana a anthu omwe abwezeretsanso ndipo izi zandipatsa chiyembekezo chachikulu chobwezeretsanso moyo wanga ndikukhalanso ndi moyo tsopano.

Pano pali moyo wopanda zolaula

Kutuluka mu gehena iyi, tsiku la 1 pa nthawi.

Hei pamenepo, ndili ndi zaka 21 ndi zomwe ndikuganiza kuti tsopano ndi HOCD yochokera ku ED.

Ndakhala ndikuvutika kwambiri ndi izi m'miyezi yapitayi ya 3 ndipo yasokoneza kwambiri moyo wanga. Ndataya chidaliro changa chonse, ziyembekezo zanga zonse ndikupita ku gehena ndikubwerera. Pamene izi zidandigunda mu Januware sindinadziwe chochita ndi ine ndekha; Pakadutsa masiku 6 ndidakhala ndikuchita mantha tsiku lililonse (choyipitsitsa pa izi ndichakuti ndimakhala ndikulemba mayeso masiku ano - anali ovuta kwambiri).

Ndikukhulupirira kupsinjika komwe ndinali nako ndi udzu womwe udaswa ngamila momwemo; Nthawi zambiri ndimatha kupeputsa malingalirowa ndikudziwa kuti sizabodza - koma chifukwa ndimakhala pachiwopsezo chachikulu panthawiyi ndimapereka lingaliro lomweli. Uku kunali kulakwitsa kwakukulu ndikulakalaka ndikadapanda kuchita. Kuyambira pamenepo sindinakhale ndi tsiku limodzi kuchokera ku kukayika kosalekeza uku; Ndikutanthauza zenizeni nthawi zonse. Panalibe nthawi imodzi yomwe sindinakhalepo ndi lingaliro lowopsa lomwe limalumikizidwa ndi OCD iyi.

Pambuyo pa mayeso, nkhawa zanga zidatsika ndipo sindimakhala ndi nkhawa tsiku lililonse, koma ndimavutika kwambiri (komanso nkhawa ndi mantha) tsiku lililonse, ndipo ndimatha maola ambiri tsiku langa kunyezimira komanso kuda nkhawa zakomwe Hell izi zonse zidachokera. Monga mozama, komwe dziko lapansi kodi ndapeza malingaliro awa?! Adawoneka bwanji? Podziwa bwino kuchuluka kwa zachiwerewere zomwe ndakhala ndikuchita m'mbuyomu. Nthawi zonse ndakhala ndikudzimva kuti ndili ndi vuto logonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, ndipo zonsezi zidasokonekera pomwe izi zidachitika.

Moni, ndikudabwa ngati pali ubale / mgwirizano ndi maonekedwe a ubongo ndi ntchito za mbolo. Pamene munthu awuka, kodi pali mankhwala omwe amachititsa kuti libido kapena chisangalalo chikhoza kusokoneza kapena kuchilimbikitsa?

Ndikukhala ndi mavuto okondweretsanso mkazi, zomwezo ndizolemba ZOYAMBA ndi mavuto ake. Komabe, ine ndili mu 40 yanga ndipo ndikufunabe kuchita zachiwerewere komanso kukhala wokangalika ndi ma med.

Zilonda zimandilimbikitsa, koma mayi wamaliseche pafupi ndi ine amapanga magawo makumi asanu. Koma zovuta zolaula zilipo zaka 18 zolimba !!, (chitsanzo choipa, koma ndikukumbukira) koma mumachipeza.

Ndikuganiza kuti ndimakonda kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo komanso kumverera kotsika, MUNTHU .. ndikumva kuti ndikumverera kuti ndikusangalala ndipo ndimakondwera ndi TON. Nthawi zambiri ndimakonda kuseweretsa maliseche a 1-5 tsiku lililonse !!, kwa zaka 20-25 zapitazi, kwenikweni! (masiku osachepera 5 outta 7 pa sabata) Ndikuganiza kuti ndiyenera kupuma zolaula ndikuchita maliseche, koma ndizovuta kwambiri. Kodi wina angandiuzeko njira yolondola pamavuto angawa, kuyamba ndikundivutitsa ine ndi anzanga.

Eya, ichi ndi choyamba changa apa. Choncho moni aliyense.

Ndipereka mbiri yakale mwachidule. Mwangozi ndinazindikira MB ndili mwana, sindikukumbukira kuti ndinali ndi zaka zingati koma ndikuganiza kuti ndinali pakati pa 10 ndi 12. Sindinamvetsetse bwino zomwe ndimachita panthawiyo, kungoti ndimamva bwino. Panalibe chiwonetsero chomwe chimakhudzidwa mwina. Izi zidapitilira pafupifupi tsiku lililonse mpaka zaka 19. Ndine 22 tsopano. Ndinazindikira vuto langa miyezi ingapo yapitayo, ndipo kuyambira nthawi imeneyo ndinadzidzudzula mobwerezabwereza m'miyezi iwiri yapitayo (Ndisanayambe kusiya, ndapeza ndekha MB mochepa) kamodzi pa sabata, ngati izo, kwa miyezi iwiri kapena itatu isanakwane tsiku langa loletsa ntchito). Koma yatha mwezi umodzi kuchokera nthawi yotsiriza.

Ndinagonana ndi akazi abwino, ndipo onsewo anali ndi zovuta kwambiri (Zodabwitsa, sichoncho? Nthawi zambiri zimafunikira chilimbikitso champhamvu kuchokera kwa ine kapena iye, ndipo ndimatha kukhala kovuta kuti ndipite kwakanthawi. mphindi zingapo nditha kutaya, komabe). Izi zidandivuta kwambiri kudzidalira, sindinamvetsetse chifukwa chake sizimandigwirira ntchito poyamba. Nditawerenga tsambali, kwenikweni zonse zimangodina. Zonse zinali zomveka bwino. Popeza ndasiya kuonera zolaula ndakhala ndikumangirira m'mawa mwezi watha theka lokongola tsiku lililonse (zomwe ndidawerenga ndi zabwino!). Ndimamvanso kukhala wokangalika kwambiri pagulu. Ndikamapita kunja ndimakhala ndi chidwi chogonana ndi akazi, zomwe sindinachitepo kale. Ndikawona mtsikana ndikudziwa kuti ndimamukonda, koma sindimafuna kuchita nawo chiwerewere. Zinali ngati ubongo wanga umaganiza kuti, ngakhale msungwanayu anali wokongola amatha kupeza bwino komanso zolimbikitsa ndi zolaula. Tsopano ndikudzipeza ndikuyesera, ndikupambana, ndikucheza ndi atsikana kumaphwando. Zimamveka zachilengedwe komanso zosangalatsa kuposa kale.

Komabe pali chinthu chimodzi chachikulu chomwe chakhala chikundidetsa nkhawa. Maloto onyowa. Ndakhala ndi awiri kuyambira pomwe ndinasiya PMO. Komabe, m'maloto anga onse onyentchera ndimayang'ana zolaula. Ndakhala ndikulumikizana ndi mtsikana m'modzi kwa miyezi ingapo yapitayo, ndipo sindinamuwone m'masabata angapo chifukwa chakupuma koleji. Akubwera kudzacheza masiku angapo, ndipo ndinakondwera nazo usiku watha ndipo ndinakhala wovuta kumangoyankhula nawo zakubwera ndikugonana. Umenewo unali chiyembekezo chachikulu cha chiyembekezo. Koma usiku watha ndinali ndi maloto ena omveka bwino kwambiri omwe ndakhalapo, ndipo ndinali kubwerera munthawi yoyipa kwambiri yomwe ndinayamba kumwa mowa. Zinkawoneka ngati zenizeni moti ndimaganiza kuti ndadzuka, ndipo ndimadzimva. Ndinali ndi chilakolako chosalamulirika m'maloto amenewa kuti ndiwonere zolaula, ndipo ndinagwa. Zinali zinthu zolimba kwambiri m'maloto anga, zomwe kuchokera pazonse zomwe ndawerenga apa ndizoyipa (kuti ndiyang'ane ndikadzuka .. koma ndikulota?). Chilombocho chinali champhamvu kwambiri kuposa kale lonse. Ndikuwopa kuti chiwonetsero chachikulu ichi chokhudzana ndi maloto anga azolimbitsa zolaula chingandibwezeretse ..

Funso lomwe ndikufunsa ndiloti, mukuganiza kuti izi zakhudza bwanji kuchira kwanga? Lisanachitike m'mawa uno ndinali wotsimikiza kwambiri kuti chilichonse chidzagwira ntchito masiku awiri akabwera kudzacheza, koma tsopano ndikudzikayikira. Zimandikwiyitsa kwambiri kuti zonsezi zidachitika ndikulota, chifukwa ndakhala ndikutha kupewa miyezi iwiri yapitayi. Sindinayambe ndakhala ndikulakalaka kuonera zolaula kapena maliseche. Zinali ngati zilimbikitso zonse ndi zizindikiritso zakudzichotsa ndikadamverera kuti zidandigunda nthawi yomweyo m'maloto ndipo ndinalibe mphamvu pazochita zanga. Ndikufunadi kuti ndizitha kuchita bwino nthawi ikakwana sabata ino. Tonse takhala tikuyembekezera izi kwa nthawi yayitali tsopano ndipo zitha kupweteketsa ubale wathu ngati sindingathe 'kuzimva'.

KULUMIKIZANA - Ndine bambo wazaka 23 yemwe wakhala akumenya nkhondo ndi vuto la erectile panthawi yogonana kwazaka zopitilira 3 tsopano. Pafupifupi chaka chimodzi ndi theka zapitazo zidakhudza ubale womwe ndidakhala nawo mpaka titalekana.

Pazifukwa zambiri (makamaka nkhawa ndi mantha komanso chidwi chofuna kudzikonza ndekha) ndakhala ndikupitilira chaka chimodzi ndili wosakwatiwa komanso wopanda akazi. Ndidamaliza kuseweretsa maliseche 2 mpaka 3 patsiku zolaula zosiyanasiyana.

Ndakhala ndikudziwa kwakanthawi kuti kuseweretsa maliseche komanso zolaula mwina ndizomwe zimayambitsa ED ndipo ndimayesa kangapo kuti ndisiye kapena / kapena kuchepetsa zolaula zomwe ndimaziwona. Miyezi ingapo yapitayo ndidakumana ndi msungwana uyu yemwe ndimamukonda kwambiri ndipo takhala tikumenyera. Koma podziwa kuti mwina sindingachite bwino ndakhala ndi zifukwa zambiri zosagonana.

Masabata angapo apitawa ndidayamba kusachita maliseche mkati mwa sabata, ndikusintha izi kuti ndizichita masewera olimbitsa thupi kapena kuthamanga. Koma nditazindikira a Gary Wilson a TEDx Talk ndi YBOP ndipo pamapeto pake subreddit iyi ndikumva ngati sindili ndekha komanso kuti nditha kuthana ndi izi, zidzakhala zovuta inde, koma sindikhala ndekha.

Sindimachita chigololo kuyambira dzulo ndipo tsopano ndikulonjeza kuti ndikhale ndi masiku osachepera 50 popanda.

Iwe munthu, ndikukhumba iwe zabwino zonse paulendo wako. Ine ndimachokera ku chikhalidwe chofanana chofanana. Kulimbana ndi zolaula kunapangitsa ED za zaka za 3, zomwe zawononga maubwenzi anga ambiri ndi amayi komanso kudzidalira kwanga. Koma tsopano pali msungwana watsopano m'moyo wanga, ndipo ndidzachita chilichonse mu mphamvu yanga kuti nthawi ino ikhale yosiyana.

Ndikukhulupirira kuti nofap ingasinthe miyoyo yathu. Koma tiyenera kukhala okonzeka. Ndikukulimbikitsani kuti mupitirize kugwira ntchito mu nofap momwe mungathere ndikukhala kutali ndi mayesero osafunikira. Zabwino zonse! Ndikukhulupirira inu ndi mtsikana wanu watsopano mumapeza chisangalalo pamodzi.

Nkhani yazaka 42 zakubadwa..ndikuyembekeza kuti zithandizani ena mwa inu ana ang'ono kuti muime mukawona zamtsogolo

Ndidayamba fappin kusukulu ya pulaimale monga ambiri aife. Kodi idachita 2-3-8 patsiku kwazaka (osati zolaula chifukwa sizinkapezeka mosavuta) Ndinali ndi mwayi chifukwa ndinkachita bwino kwambiri ndi azimayi aku HS ndi koleji ndipo ndimatha kugona mozungulira 140 ndi zaka 28 onse ndikadali kukula 3 / tsiku. Ndinkatha kuzimva nthawi iliyonse komanso kulikonse komwe ndimafuna (komabe sindinkawona zolaula chifukwa ndinayenera kubwereka ndipo ukonde wothamanga kwambiri sunali wopezeka mosavuta).

Kenako ndinayamba chibwenzi ndi mtsikana yemwe AMAKONDA zolaula! Amawabwereka ndipo ndinali wotsimikiza kuti ndapambana lottery ya fuckin. Tikhoza kuchita masewerowa .. moyo wamunthu sukhala wabwinoko. Kenako ndimatha kusewera makanema pomwe sanali pamenepo! Patatha pafupifupi chaka chimodzi ndinazindikira kuti ndinali ndi vuto ndi ED ngati sindinakhale ndi zolaula. Atangopita ndipo ndinali nditapeza ukonde wothamanga kwambiri. Ndikayang'ana m'mbuyo tsopano, ichi ndiye cholakwika chachikulu kwambiri chomwe ndidapanga m'moyo wanga. Sindingathe kupeza zolaula zomwe ukonde umapereka.

Ndinayamba kukwatira msungwana wina (yemwe amadana ndi zolaula koma amakonda kukamwa) Zogonana zinali zabwino poyamba chifukwa zinali zatsopano ndipo anali wotentha. Koma patadutsa miyezi ingapo ED atabwera akubangula mobwerezabwereza ... Ndinayamwa chifukwa ankafuna kugonana nthawi zonse ndipo ndinkafuna kuonera zolaula nthawi zonse. Tidzamwa moledzera ndipo izi zikanakhala momwe ndingabisire ED, ndikudandaula kuti ndakhala ndi whiskey, koma pakadali pano (kudabwitsidwa modabwitsa) ndinali ndi nkhaŵa yaikulu yogwira ntchito ndi ED. Viagra anathandiza pang'ono poyamba koma posakhalitsa zomwe sizinagwire ntchito. Mosakayikira, iye posakhalitsa anapita ndi ulemu wanga wambiri.

Apa ndipamene chizolowezi cha zolaula chidayamba kukwera kwambiri. Kumalo omwera mowa ndimatha kuwapezera atsikanawo, koma ndinkachita mantha ndi a ED ndikangomwa mowa, ndikudzudzula mowa, ndikukhala wodya dziko lonse lapansi (ndili ndi zaka 32 pano ndikutsetsereka poterera kwambiri Kukhumudwa (chifukwa cha zolaula zomwe ndikuzindikira tsopano) zinali kundigwira ngati zolaula, koma zolaula zimandipangitsa kuti ndizimva bwino kotero ndimapitilizabe ... ZAMBIRI, ndipo pomwe sindinali, Ndinali kumwa kuti ndichepetse kukhumudwako.

Mofulumira zaka 10: Ndapeza ma 50 lbs, ndataya nyumba yanga, bizinesi yanga, ndili ndi ma dwi awiri, sipanakhalepo mkazi pabedi panga zaka zambiri, kunena zowona kuti moyo unali wopanda chiyembekezo. Masabata a 2 apitawo ndidawona YBOP ndipo sindinayang'ane zolaula kapena kuyambira pamenepo. Mitengo ndi yobiriwira, mpweya umanunkhira bwino, ndinayamba kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, pali azimayi okongola ponseponse, ndipo ndimakhala ndi malingaliro ena pa moyo. Sindinachiritsidwe ndipo ndili ndi njira yayitali yoti ndipiteko, koma ngati milungu yoyamba iyi ya 3 ikuwonetsa zomwe zikubwera, sindikufuna kudikirira! btw .. Ndili ndi nkhuni zanga m'mawa m'mawa khumi! Zabwino zonse anyamata .. khalani olimba! ndipo zikomo powerenga.

Hei nonse, ndangopeza kumene mdera lino.

Ndayamba PMO mwina pafupi zaka za 14, kotero zaka 7 zapitazo. Poyamba ndimadzida ndekha, ndikumadzimva kuti ndine wolakwa - ndimadziwa kuti sizolondola pansi pamtima ... koma ndikamachita zambiri, ndimadzimva kuti sindinakhudzidwe kwambiri - ndimakhala wotsika kwambiri , idakhala yocheperako.

Zaka zingapo zapitazi zakhala zoipa kwambiri - ndimakhala wotsimikiza kuti zili bwino ndipo palibe vuto lalikulu, ndimakonda PMO masiku ambiri, ndipo nthawi zina masiku angapo sabata.

Zinali kumapeto kwa chaka chatha pomwe bwenzi langa lapamtima mwadzidzidzi lidayamba kulimbana ndi zolaula, anali munthu yemwe ndimamasuka kuyankhula naye ndipo adandiwonetsa zolemba za zomwe PMO imakhudza ubongo.

Nditawerenga nkhanizo zinali ngati mtambo wa naivety unachotsedwa - zimawoneka zomveka komanso zomveka bwino kuti PMO amandivulaza - ndimangoyesetsa kupewa izi ndikuchotsa zomwe ndimadziwa pansi pake.

Pambuyo pake, ndidakhala kwakanthawi wopanda PMO, koma zinali zovuta kuti ndizizizira ndipo ndidabwereranso kangapo. Ndidayika K9 msakatuli ndikupatsa achinsinsi anzanga omwe atchulidwawa - zomwe zandithandizira kwambiri .. koma mwatsoka munthawi yamanyanga ndidapeza zovuta zina ... Ngakhale ndidawonera zolaula zochepa chaka chino, ndazipeza Zovuta kuyimitsa fap - zabwino zanga zakhala pafupifupi masabata a 2. Nthawi zonse ndimanena kuti ndidzazichita bwino nthawi yotsatira, koma nthawi zonse ndimawoneka kuti ndikupereka mayesowa mosavuta.

Ndakhala ndi abwenzi angapo, koma ndimangotopetsa nawo mwachangu, ndakhala ndikulimbana nawo, zomwe zidapangitsa ED - zomwe ndakhala ndikuchita nazo manyazi komanso kukhumudwa. Ndimadzipangira ndekha pang'ono za izi - osapanga kulumikizana kuti zinali kwa PMO. Ziri zachidziwikire kuti ndimatopa chifukwa ndawonongeka kwambiri ndikamatha kuyenda kudzera mwa omwe ndimagonana nawo momwe ndingafunire.

Chifukwa cha izi, komanso zikhalidwe zanga za PMO, ndakhala wosauka kwambiri ndi azimayi. Chomwe chimachitika ndikuti, sindine woipa, ndipo ndili ndi zinthu zabwino zomwe zindichitikire - anthu nthawi zambiri amadabwa kuti bwanji ndilibe mbiri yabwino ndi atsikana… athe kuwasangalatsa.

Ndatembenuza 21 posachedwa, ndikudandaula kwambiri ndi PMO nditakana P kwa nthawi yayitali. Koma ndasankha kuti ino ndiyo nthawi yoti ndikule ndikuchita izi moyenera. Ndazindikira kuti ndakhala wofooka kwambiri polimbana ndi mayeserowa, chifukwa chake ndikuyesetsa kwambiri nthawi ino - ndingakonde kuthandizidwa ndikamapita. Cholinga changa choyamba ndikufika masiku a 30 ndipo kuchokera pamenepo ndikhulupilira ndikadakhala ndi masiku okwanira omwe sindifuna kuthana nawo.

Ndimamva ngati ndikutha kubwezeretsa moyo wanga

Ine ndinali nditamva za izo / r / nofap m'mbuyomu koma osaziyang'ana mpaka lero. Ndinawerenga LOTI pa ybop. Ndinatsala pang'ono kuyamba kulira.

Ndine 30. Ndinaganiza ndili ndi zaka 8 kuti ngati ndikwera pamtengo nthawi yopumira zimapangitsa dingdang yanga kumva bwino. Pambuyo pake ndidazindikira kuti ndimatha kungokoka m'malo modzikoka ndikutsika ndi mtengo / mbali ya chitseko / chilichonse. Ndinali ndi AOL kunyumba kwanga ku 13 ndipo ma jpegs amenewo adatenga kwamuyaya kutsitsa ndikusindikiza. Ndinali ndi burodibandi pa 17 mwachangu kwambiri ndipo makanema anali opanda pake. Kenako ndinapita ku koleji ndipo ndinazimitsa magetsi.

Ngakhale ndimakoka kwambiri, ndimawoneka kuti ndimachita bwino ndi boner wanga ndi azimayi enieni. Sizinali kugwira ntchito nthawi zonse, nthawi zina ndimachoka munkhondo nthawi yomwe chipambano chimatsimikizika. Ndidayimba mlandu pazinthu zoyenera - nditaledzera kwambiri, chibwenzi chidayamba kunenepa, ndikapanikizika, ndi zina zambiri. Ndinapita kwa dokotala wazaka pafupifupi 20 kuti ndikamuyese testosterone ndipo sindinali wotsimikiza kuti dotolo sanali wopusa pamene ndinali "wabwinobwino".

Ndinakumana ndi gal, anali wamkulu. Tinkalipira ngati akalulu. Palibenso mavuto. Osati poyamba. Pazaka 9 zotsatira tinasamukira limodzi, tinasamuka, tinakwatirana, kenako adandisiya. Pang'ono ndi pang'ono panthawiyo tinasiya kugonana pafupipafupi. Ndinaganiza kuti zinali zachilendo, gehena tinakwatirana ndipo anthu okwatirana samachita zibwana, sichoncho? Kamodzi pamwezi kapena kuchepera apo. Nthawi zina amapita kukacheza kuchokera kwa azakhali a Flo kupita kumalo otsatira osagona. Zaka zingapo zapitazi ndidayamba kukhala ndi mavuto ochulukirapo kuti ndikulitse. Zinandiopsa. Ndinachita mantha kwambiri kuti dick wanga sangagwire ntchito kotero kuti idayamba kugwira ntchito konse ku 100%. 80% patsiku langa labwino. 0% pa zoyipa zanga.

Sindinakhale wosakwatiwa kupitirira theka la chaka tsopano. Nditatsitsa kukhumudwa ndidabwereranso ndikuyamba kutuluka. Ndinatenga akazi okongola modabwitsa, kupita nawo kunyumba ndipo… sindinathe kuyimilira kapena kulephera kupitiliza. M'maganizo ndinali wokondwa kuposa kukhulupirira kuti ndatsala pang'ono kuwononga wina watsopano kwanthawi yoyamba pafupifupi zaka khumi. Mwathupi, chosowa changa chidadzuka kutulo, ndikudzumula, kenako ndikulunga ndikubwerera kukagona. Ndikumva bwino, ndimaganiza, ndine 30, wosakwatiwa, ndipo Dick wanga wamwalira. Ndinaganiza mwina ndikungokhala nkhawa yomwe yatsalira ndi wakale uja, koma ndimadziwa kuti palinso china. Wanga crotch amangomva ngati wamwalira kupatula pomwe ndimayang'ana zolaula. Ndinazindikira kuti ndinalibe nkhuni zam'mawa m'ZAKA. Sanakhale ndi boner mwachisawawa M'ZAKA. Koma ndimakhala ndi zovuta m'masekondi ndikangomenya CTRL-SHIFT-N.

Ndakhala wamantha komanso wokhumudwa kwa miyezi ingapo. Ndinaganiza kuti ndingoyenera kunyamula katundu ndikupita kunyumba ya amonke. Kodi ndingatani kuti ndipange ubale wabwino ndi mkazi ngati sindingagone naye. Anapiye amakonda kubangula, makamaka owopsa. Ndi sayansi. Sindingathe kubweretsa ndekha kuyesa mapiritsi abwino. Mwina ndikapita kuchipatala ndikamalankhula ndikulankhula ndikuwopa momwe ndimakhalira ndi mantha nditha kudziwa zomwe zidachitika ndikukonzekera chilichonse chomwe chili ndi mutu wanga.

Ndipo lero ndapeza zomwe zidandichitikira. Kutha zolaula tsiku lililonse kwazaka khumi ndi ziwiri zapitazi zidandichitikira. Koma pali chiyembekezo. Nditha kukhalanso wamwamuna m'malo mokhala wosatetezeka, wokhumudwa, wopunduka ndikutulutsa d-thumba lomwe ndasandukanso. Zomwe ndiyenera kuchita ndikusiya "kukwera pamtengo panthawi yopuma". Ichi chidzakhala chinthu chophweka kwambiri chomwe ndidachitapo chifukwa chidzandibwezera moyo (komanso dick). Ndikufunadi moyo wanga (ndi dick wanga) kubwerera. Ndipo izo zimandipangitsa ine kukhala wokondwa kwambiri ine ndikhoza kungolira.

Kwa SO wanga, ndikuyamba vuto la 90 +

Ndakhala ndi gf yanga kuyambira zaka ziwiri komanso pafupifupi miyezi inayi. Ndine 17, ndipo sindinasiye kujambula zolaula kuyambira ndili ndi 11. Ndili ndi vuto la ED kuyambira pomwe ine ndi gf yanga tinatengera unamwali zaka ziwiri zapitazo. Ndimamuwona ali payekha masiku awiri pa sabata: tsiku loyamba atapatukana chilichonse chimagwira ntchito bwino, koma masiku otsatira, ndizosatheka kuti ndikhale ndi erection ina kuposa nkhuni zam'mawa. Gf yanga sakudziwa kuti ndikukula, sakudziwa kuti ndikuwonera zolaula, ndipo ndikhulupilira kuti sadziwa, zimamupweteka kwambiri.

Ndatha kuletsa pakati pa 07 / 03 ndi 07 / 13, ndipo pa masiku awa a 10 ndamva ngati ndikukhala munthu (testosterone boost, sichoncho?), koma pa 07/14 ndidamva chaser effect zomwe zinasiya nthawi yomweyo zanga.

Ndapunthwa pa subreddit lero, ndipo ndawerenga zonse pa yourbrainonporn. Chifukwa chake ndasankha kuti ndiyambe zovuta za 90 +. Chifukwa chake sindidzazemba, kuwonera zolaula kapena kuchita zongopeka m'mutu mwanga masiku a 90, ndipo ndikadzafika pachimake, sindiyambiranso. Ndipitilizabe kugonana ndi gf yanga, chifukwa ndicho cholinga changa chachikulu, koma ndizisamala chaser effect.

Ndikukuthokozani pasadakhale, anzanga a fapstronauts, ndipo ndikuthokoza anthu onsewa pazomwezi.

TL; DR: Ndine 17, ndipo kuti ndisakhale ndi ED ndi moyo wanga wonse gf ndimasiya kukulira, kuwonera, kuwona zolaula ndikuganiza zolaula mpaka nditafika masiku 90 otsogola, ndikatha kusiya fap ndi zolaula kwamuyaya.