Chifukwa chake ndidangodutsa chopanga china: chaka chathunthu! Ndinalemba lipoti la tsiku la 90 kanthawi kochepa ku http://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/1cycfc/90_day_report_my_journey/. Sindinawone zosintha zambiri m'masiku a 90, ndipo ndinkafuna kuyika zosintha momwe zinachitikira kuyambira nthawi imeneyo.
Lisanathe masiku a 90, ndidadutsa pamitundu yonse yosiyana pakati pa kufalikira ndi kukhala wopatsa mantha. Sabata yoyamba kapena yoyamwa. Palibe kukana kuti. Ndimaganiza zosefera nthawi zonse ndipo ndimangokaniza. Ndinafunika kuyang'anitsitsa sabata lonse lija ndipo ndinamverera kukhala wopanda pake nthawi yonseyi. Ndikapanga sabata sabata yoyamba kapena ziwiri zimandisangalatsa. Chilimbikitso chofuna kusefukira pang'onopang'ono chinachoka ndipo ndinamasulidwa. Komabe, tsiku lonse 20 kapena choncho ndidalowa pafoni yoyipa.
Zowawa zinali ngati zowopsa. Panthawiyi sindinamvepo chilichonse chogonana. Ndinalibe chidwi choti ndijambulitsa, koma sindimakondanso atsikana m'moyo weniweni. Ndinaumirirabe popeza aliyense pano ananena kuti zichokapo ndipo zinachitikadi. Kwa ine zinakhala pafupifupi mwezi (masiku 20-50ish) ndipo sizinabwereko chiyambire. Pambuyo pake izi zinali zowawa kwambiri, ndipo ndinali wodabwitsika. Sindidzaiwala tsiku lina patangotha pafoniyo pomwe ndinapeza boner kuchokera ndikuwona msungwana yemwe sanachokepo kwa maola angapo. Pofika nthawi imeneyi, zinali zovuta kwambiri kukana kusefedwa. Ngakhale ndidakwiya kwambiri, sikuti nthawi zambiri ndimakhala ndi chidwi chongokhala. Panali nthawi zina pamene ndinayandikira kubwereza, koma zinali zosavuta kupewa ndipo sizinali kwina pafupi ndi zokakamira zomwe ndimakumbukira sabata yoyamba kapena ziwiri. Poyambira nyanga anali atachuluka kwambiri poyamba koma pang'onopang'ono anamwalira. Pambuyo pa tsiku 90 kapena kotero ndimamva ngati ndafika pabwino, ndipo zayamba kuzungulira pamenepo kuyambira pamenepo. Tsopano, ndikawona msungwana wokongola, ndimakhala wokopa chidwi, koma sindipeza mabwana openga. Zimamveka zachilengedwe.
Ndinalinso ndi maloto angapo onyowa nthawi yonse yomwe ndinayamba, koma nawonso asintha. Sindingakumbukire womaliza, ayenera kuti anali miyezi ingapo yapitayo.
Ndilibe chikhumbo chofunanso. Kujambula kukuoneka kovuta. Pazaka zonse zapitazi, ndagwiritsa ntchito zolaula kangapo mwangozi. Kaya ndi pa intaneti kapena m'makanema, sizingatheke kuti musamaonenso anthu amaliseche. Ndikuganiza kuti zolaula zopanda pake ndizowopsa kwa anthu ambiri okonda kubadwa, makamaka masiku 50-90. Ndine wabwino kwambiri ndi makompyuta, ndipo zosefera sizinandigwiritsepo ntchito popeza ndimadziwa zomwe akuchita komanso momwe zimawazungulira. Ndidayenera kudalira kudziletsa. Kupita pa reddit kunali koopsa. Poyamba, ndinali kuyang'ana kwambiri kuti ndisalole zolaula pazithunzi zanga, chifukwa ndimadziwa kuti ndiyambanso kuyambiranso. Tsopano, ngakhale nditha kuyatsidwa ndi zithunzi zolaula zomwe ndimapumira mwangozi, ndilibe chidwi chodziseweretsa maliseche. Lingaliro lakungodzidzimutsa silimadutsa konse ayi. Ndiyenera kusamala kwanthawi yoyamba, koma ndafika pamalopo pomwe kuseweretsa maliseche kumakhala ngati ntchito yabwino.
Sindikhulupirira "zopambana". Ngati mungapite ndi chiyembekezo choti mupita kukhala mulungu ndi azimayi mu sabata, ndiye kuti simudzatuluka kalikonse. Muyenera kuyesetsa kuti mudzikonzetse. Ndasinthiratu nthawi yanga yogona zaka zapitazo, ndakhala ndikuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi kwambiri ndipo ndachepetsa kwambiri nthawi yomwe ndimakhala pa intaneti. Kwambiri Ndili wokondwa kwambiri komwe ndimakhala tsopano kuposa komwe ndidakhala chaka chatha.
Ndinasintha zina zambiri m'moyo wanga chaka chatha (kumaliza maphunziro aku yunivesite ndikuyenda malo onsewo) ndipo sindinakhale pachibwenzi kwa ambiri aiwo. Ndinayambanso chibwenzi miyezi ingapo yapitayo, ndipo ndapeza bwenzi pano. Chimodzi mwazovuta za nofap ndikuti mumalandira chidwi kwambiri mukakhala ndi mtsikana ndipo simunabwere miyezi. Ndidabwera ndili ndimabulu anga koyamba komwe ndimayesera kuchita chilichonse ndili pabedi. Ndinkachita manyazi pang'ono, koma ndinamuuza kuti chinali chifukwa choti sindinazunguze chaka chimodzi. Amangoseka, ndikuganiza kuti ndayamba kupenga, koma zinali bwino. Ndibwerera mwakale kangapo. Anthu ena amati ndikumangotulutsa kamodzi kisanafike, koma zimangokhala ngati njira yabwino yobwereranso kwa ine. Ndikuganiza kuti atsikana ambiri / anyamata ambiri azikhala nanu mukamatengako kangapo kuti mukabweze. Ingotsimikizirani kuti mukudziwa njira zina zomwe mungakondweretsere iye! Kugonana kumamveka modabwitsa tsopano, kwabwinoko kuposa momwe kumakhalira m'mabwenzi anga am'mbuyomu pomwe ndimasefa pafupipafupi.
Ndanena mu zomasulira zanga zomaliza kuti ndikhala ndikupitiliza nthawi yayitali, ndipo lingaliro limenelo silinasinthe konse. Sindikuganiziranso za kusefa kenanso, ndipo zimawoneka ngati ntchito kuti ndiyambanso kupanga. Ndikukumbukira kuti ndinachita manyazi nditakumbatira, ndikuopa kuti wina andilowa. Ndimamva bwino kukhala mfulu!
Ndidayesa kulemba izi osazengereza kuti ndizimvetsetsa zomwe chaka cha nofap chimamverera. Sindikadatha kufikira pakadali pano osatha kubwera ndi kuwerenga nkhani zolimbikitsa pankhaniyi, ndipo ndikufuna ndikuthokozeni nonse chifukwa cha nkhani zanu zosangalatsa. Nofap wakhala chochitika chabwino kwambiri ndipo ndimachilimbikitsa!
TLDR: Nofap ndizovuta poyamba, koma zimangokhala bwino komanso zosavuta!
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