Ndikumveka ngati geezer wakale, koma ndikukumbukira pomwe panali ochepera 2k apa ndipo mutha kuwona lipoti la masiku 90 mwina kamodzi sabata iliyonse. Tsopano ndizofala kwambiri ndimangoganiza zosatumiza zanga (ndipo musandiyese zolakwika, ndikuganiza ndizodabwitsa kuti alipo ambiri tsopano) koma ndidadzilonjeza ndekha ndikayamba izi kuti nditumiza nkhani yanga nditapanga, ndiye nazi zomwe tikupita.
Kunena kuti ndinali ndi vuto ndi zolaula kungakhale kunyoza. Ndiloleni ndiyende tsiku lililonse ndisanapeze nofap, ndipo ndimakhala ndi nkhawa. Alamu anga ankandilirira kuti ndidzuke kuntchito ndipo ndinkangotenga foni yanga kuti ndiyimitse. Kenako ndimagona pabedi kwa mphindi 20-30 ndikamaonera zolaula pafoni yanga ndisanadzuke. Ngati sindinachedwe mwina ndikadumpha pakompyuta yanga zolaula za 20-30 mphindi zingapo ndisanatuluke. Kuntchito ndimakonda kutenga zolaula pafoni yanga m'khola la bafa kapena pamabenchi kutsogolo kuti ndisiye tsikulo. Kenako ndimabwerera kunyumba. Ndimakhala ndi bwenzi langa ndipo amagwira ntchito masana kuposa ine ndimadikirira kuti agone kenako ndikanakhala zolaula mpaka nditagona. Akadakhala kuti akupita kukagwira ntchito mwina ndikadakhala kunyumba zolaula. Ngati atakhala kunja kwa tawuni kwamasiku ochepa ndiye kuti inali nthawi yoti ayambe kuchita zolaula.
Mukudziwa chomwe chinali chinthu chomvetsa chisoni kwambiri pazonsezi chinali? Mukadandifunsa panthawiyo ngati ndili ndi vuto lolaula ndikadaseka. Ndikadakuwuzani kuti zolaula ndizomwe ndimakonda kugwiritsa ntchito nthawi zina ngati munthu wina aliyense wabwinobwino. Sindinadziwe vuto langa. Mwamwayi tsiku linafika pamene sindinathe kunyalanyaza. Ndidawona kulumikizana kwa r / nofap kuchokera ku subreddit ina ndipo ndabwera kuno koyamba kuganiza kuti ndangowona zomwe anthu aja anali. Chabwino ndinali pafupi kudziwa kuti ine anali mmodzi mwa "anthu" amenewo. Ndidadina ulalo wa Ubongo Wanu pa Zithunzi ndikuyamba kuwerenga ndipo zinali ngati bomba la atomiki laphulika m'mutu mwanga. Sindingathe kubisalanso. Zinaphatikiza zidutswa zambiri zomwe ndimaganiza kuti sizinagwirizane. Pomaliza ndidavomereza kuti ndinali ndi vuto. Sindinataye nthawi. Ndinaganiza zosiya PMO tsiku lomwelo.
Kuyesera kwanga koyamba kunali kulimbana koona, komanso kunawunikiranso modabwitsa. Potsiriza nditamasuka ku zolaula ndinayamba kuganizira zinthu moyenera. Ndinayamba kuona zizolowezi zanga momwe zimakhalira. Masamba omwe ndimakonda kupitako amakhala omwe ogwiritsa ntchito amapereka zomwe zikutanthauza kuti nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndi zolaula zambiri. Nthawi iliyonse ndikapita kumeneko ndimakhala ndi china chatsopano komanso chosangalatsa chikuyembekezera ine. Zosonkhanitsa zanga zinali zopanda pake. Osati kukula (ngakhale inali 200GB yolimba) koma mwatsatanetsatane. Ndinali wosamala kwambiri. Fayilo iliyonse pamndandanda wa masauzande idatchulidwa moyenera ndikukhala foda malinga ndi zikhumbo zake. Sindikufuna ngakhale kuganizira za nthawi yochuluka yomwe ndawononga pa izi. Zachidziwikire sindinatero anayang'ana pa zolaula zomwe ndapeza. Icho sichinali cholinga. Nthawi zonse ndimafuna kutuluka kuti ndikapeze zolaula zatsopano zomwe ndingawonjezere. Zovuta zanga zamtunduwu pang'onopang'ono zimakula kwambiri. Ndine wochititsa manyazi kwambiri kuti ndilepheretse - ngakhale kwa anthu osadziwika omwe angamvetse.
Panali chinthu chomaliza chomaliza chomwe ndimayenera kukumana nacho. Ndinakhala ndi chibwenzi changa kwa nthawi yayitali ndipo ndimamukonda, koma pang'onopang'ono tinayamba kusiyana pakati pathu ndipo sindinkafuna kuthana nawo. Porn zinandipatsa njira yotulukira. Ndikamayang'ana zolaula ndimasangalala. Sindinkafunika kuganizira za mavuto amzanga ndipo ndimatha kungonamizira kuti kulibe. Iyi inali mphatso yayikulu kwambiri yomwe nofap idandipatsa. Zinandikakamiza kuthana ndi mavutowa ndi iye ndipo tidatha kuthana nawo. Sindinganene mosapita m'mbali kuti ubale wathu ndi wabwino tsopano kuposa kale.
Kuyesa kwanga koyamba ndidapanga masiku ovuta a 44 ndisanawonongeke, koma nthawi yomweyo ndidadzipatula ndi 40 ina. Apa ndi pomwe ndidayanjananso ndi bwenzi langa ndipo ndidapanga cholakwika chachikulu ndikuganiza kuti ndachiritsidwa, ndiye ndimaganiza kuti zolaula zingavutike bwanji? Chifukwa chake ndinayambiranso, ndipo ndinayambiranso zolimba. Zinanditengera maola onse a 48 kuti achoke ku vanilla kupita kumalo owonjezera. Oledzera samamwa kamodzi kokha. Anthu okonda zolaula samangoyang'ana zolaula zochepa.
Kuchokera apa panali mndandanda wautali wobwereza. Mwezi umodzi pa zolaula, mwezi umodzi pa nofap, nadzatsuka ndi kubwereza. Choonadi chinali chakuti sindinadzipereke kwenikweni kuyesayesa kulikonse. Ndangowachita chifukwa chomangika. Kenako tsiku lina zinandikhudza. Zinali ndendende chaka cha 1 kuyambira poyesera koyamba koyamba. Ndidatsimikiza mtima kuti palibe chomwe chingandiletse nthawi ino, ndipo ndili pano masiku XXUMX pambuyo pake.
Ndiye ndasintha bwanji? Sindikubisalanso pamavuto anga. Sindikunamizira kuti kulibe. Ndimawalandira momwe alili ndipo ndimapeza mphamvu kuti ndiwathetsere. Ndimayesetsa kuti ndikhale moyo womwe ndikufuna. Ndayang'ana ma fetish anga akumanga ndipo ndimawawona pazinthu zopanda pake zomwe ali. Ndimamvetsetsa bwino kuti ndine ndani.
Ngati mukufuna kuti muchotsere izi kapena TL; DR, ndi izi: nofap ndiyokhudza kudziletsa, kudziwonetsera nokha, komanso kudzisintha. Ndi nkhondo yomwe mumamenya tsiku lililonse pamoyo wanu, koma imodzi yomwe kupambana kulikonse kumawonjezeranso patsogolo pa lotsatira. Osataya mtima.
Ndipo, pomaliza, zikomo kwambiri pagulu lino. Ndili nanu ngongole zambiri.
LINK - Nditatha nthawi yoposa chaka ndikuyesera ndidapanga 90.
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