Ndikulemba mosapitirira malire ndipo ndakhala ndikuyang'ana mwakachetechete pazinthu zomwe zakhala zikuchitika m'mabwalo awa, koma nditakwanitsa cholinga changa ndikukumverera kuti ndikulimbikitseni kugawana nanu zomwe ndikukumana nazo ndi mavuto aakulu kwambiri omwe ndingakumane nawo kwa nthawi yaitali kuti abwere. Cholinga changa chinali choti ndikhale wopambana, osakakamizika, osagwiritsa ntchito mankhwala ogonana ndi GF yanga, komanso kuti ndapambana kawiri kawiri tsiku lalitali la 177 likudikirira.
Kotero, kuti ndiyambe ndinayamba kupita kumtima kuyambira zaka za 12 ndikufika pachikhalidwe choipa cha HOCD pa 15. Ndinasunga kwambiri chinsinsi ndipo sindinagwidwe konse. Zinaonjezera chisangalalo chotsimikizika kuti sichigwidwe konse. Zinali zabodza, koma kuchokera kuzinthu zonse zomwe ndinkakhoza kuziwona m'moyo ndikudula zinali zooneka bwino. Chifukwa chake izi zinapitirira. Ndinalemba mu HS, koma kawirikawiri anali achipembedzo ndipo ankasunga zokhudzana ndi kugonana kotero ndimangonena kuti sindichita kalikonse koma ndikuwombera kuchita zinthu zina zabwino pa intaneti. HOCD ndi chidutswa ndi zilonda ndi malingaliro anu
Kuthamangira kwakanthawi kwakanthawi ndidalephera kukwaniritsa chilichonse chokwanira kuti ndikwaniritse ntchitoyi ku koleji ndikupeza gehena imodzi yamunthu wokhumudwa komanso wosokonezeka pambuyo pake. Ndine wathanzi, ndimachita masewera olimbitsa thupi, ndipo sindine wowoneka woipa kwambiri padziko lapansi. Kuseka ndichisomo changa chopulumutsa, koma zoyesayesa zolephera izi zidandipangitsa kukhala ndi nkhawa ndipo ndidasiya kuyesa kwakanthawi. Ndinali ndi nthawi yabwino. Sindikutsutsa china chilichonse pazomwe ndimachita. Sindinali kuchita kangapo tsiku lililonse, koma osafunikira kunena kuti sindingathe kuvutikira kuchokera pachinthu chilichonse pakapita kanthawi. Ndimakhala moyo ngakhale mabodza ochepa apa ndi apo, maphwando pomwe ndimangotchera atsikana mosayembekezeka, ndikubwerera mmbuyo zinthu zitatentha kwambiri. Zamanyazi kwenikweni, koma zidakhala zabwino kwambiri.
Posachedwa chaka changa chomaliza pomwe ndidayamba kukhala ndi chidwi ndi GF yanga yapano. Panali usiku wovuta kwambiri, kukhumudwa, usiku wokhumudwitsa womwe ndimayang'ana pakalilole wokhumudwa ngati helo, koma ndidapunthwa pa nkhani yokhudza zolaula yomwe idapangitsa ED ndipo kuyambira tsiku lomwelo ndikuponya zonse zomwe ndinali nazo. Ndinakulitsa mipira kuti ndimuuze zomwe zinali ndi ine… chimodzi mwazinthu zovuta kwambiri zomwe ndachitapo m'moyo wanga. Zovuta… Haha, koma zenizeni zinali njira yokhayo yokonzera zinthu, ndipo gawo labwino kwambiri ndiloti adakhala nane. Onetsetsani kuti adziwa kuti ndi inu osati iwo. Bwerezani izi kangapo, ndikutanthauza.
Anandiweruza ngati mamuna osati kuthekera kwanga kupukuta chilichonse ndi siketi, koma pazinthu zina zomwe ndimayang'anira. Ndine munthu wopambana pasukulu komanso pantchito yanzeru tsopano, koma panthawiyo palibe chomwe chidakhazikitsidwa. Anamvera chisoni vuto langa ndipo takhala tikuligwiritsa ntchito kukula ngati banja kuyambira nthawi imeneyo. Ndichinthu chomwe sindingamuthokoze nacho chokwanira ndipo ndili ndi ngongole zambiri ndi kuchira kwanga. Osanena kuti sitinasangalale pomwe izi zinali kuchitika. Tizinena kuti pakamwa pathu panali otanganidwa kwambiri titakhala ndi mwayi wokuwonana nditamaliza kuyambiranso masiku 90 pambuyo pake.
Sindinapeze vuto lililonse pobwezeretsanso. Ndidayimitsa nthawi yomweyo. Ndili ndi chidwi chachikulu pamene ndingathe kuzindikira vuto. Kukhala ndi cholinga chogona ndi mkazi amene umamukonda sikupweteka. Tinaiwalika kutchula, tinavomereza kuti timakondana pafupifupi mwezi umodzi ndisanapite patali kukagwira ntchito. Kotero kwa inu azimayi omwe muli ndi mtunda wautali musakhumudwe, mukhoza kupita komwe mukufuna kukhala ndi skype, malemba osayera nthawi zina, komanso kusagwirizana kwa thupi. Ndikuwona kuti ndikofunikira kunena. Ine sindine wangwiro, timatha kutumizirana zolaula nthawi ndi nthawi, timagawana zithunzi zopanda pake ndi zina zotero, koma ndine wokonzeka ndikumenya tsopano.
Zinthu zomwe ndidamaliza; Anthu amakonda kuphatikizira mphamvu zochepa, zolimbikitsana, komanso mavuto ena amoyo mpaka pano. Ndikunena kuti apolisi ndi ochepa, koma kwa aliyense alipo. Ndakwanitsa kumaliza maphunziro anga muukadaulo ndikupeza ntchito izi zikuchitika. Ndinakwanitsanso kukopa anyamata kapena atsikana mosasamala kanthu. Ndikuganiza kuti zambiri mwazo zili m'mitu mwathu, koma zotsatira za placebo ndizolimba kotero kuti ngati mukuzikhulupirira mokwanira mungaganize kuti ndinu aulesi. Izi zidandipangitsa kuyang'ana kwambiri thanzi langa. Ndavala minofu, ndasintha zakudya zanga, ndipo ndatenga njira zonse zotheka kuti izi zisandichitikirenso.
Nditayamba kubwezeretsa ndikukhulupirira kuti kubwezeretsedwa ndikoyenera Kutenga miniti pang'ono tsiku ndi tsiku kuti tisamangoganizira kalikonse koma kumverera pamtunda ndi kopanda cholinga chokhudza munthu wokha kugwira n'kofunika kwambiri pamlingo wotsiriza wochira. Kwa kanthawi ine ndinali kupita kwina kulikonse, ndipo ine ndinali mmodzi wa anthu amenewo amene adadutsa chizindikiro cha tsiku la 150. Ndinamva ngati gehena chifukwa ndimaganiza kuti ndikuchita bwino. Kubwezeretsa maubwenzi amenewo ndi kofunika. Khalani kutali ndi zolaula ndikuganizirani zovuta zonse.
Komanso, ndinkakonda MO kangapo munthawi imeneyi. Si mathero adziko lapansi. Zingasinthe bwanji zonse? Zimakuchepetserani, zedi, koma osati zambiri. ingokhala kutali ndi P ndipo uyandikira pafupi tsiku lililonse. Ngati muli ndi bwenzi lachikazi ndikukulimbikitsani kuti muwafunse kuti "akunyozeni" kwakanthawi. Auzeni kuti azikusisani pang'onopang'ono pansi pa lamba ndikungoyamwa chilichonse. Mverani momwe mungathere. Ndikulonjeza uwu ndi gawo lomaliza la kuchira lomwe ambiri akusowa. Kungonyalanyaza zosowa zanu si njira yosamalira.
Pali nthawi zina zam'tsogolo zowona. Ndakhala ndikulira pansi nthawi zingapo chifukwa cha izi. Khulupirirani ine, ndikumasula kuti ndipeze. Pali zovuta zambiri kuti tifotokoze umuna ngati uwu ndi kudziwona tokha ngati zolephera, koma mukudziwa chiyani? Kutenga nthawi yonse yomwe ndingakhale ndikugwiritsira ntchito mosagwiritsa ntchito kugonana monga nyama yopanda kanthu yandipatsa mphotho zina. Ndinkagwiritsa ntchito nthawi imeneyi kuphunzira, ndinachedwetsa kukondwa kwanga komwe kwandidalitsa kwambiri. Panopa ndikukondana komanso ndikuthandizana ndi kulankhulana kosangalatsa. Tinayamba ndi kugwirizana, chikondi, komanso kuganizira zomwe tikufuna kugonana. Zovuta zokhudzana ndi kugonana zinatha ndi ine ndikuulula nkhani yanga kwa iye. Chilichonse chinatseguka patatha izi. Sitingathe kugwirizana kwa wina ndi mzake monga momwe ndatulukira ndi vuto lamphamvu lomwe titha kulimbana nalo.
Ndaphunzira zambiri za zomwe akumva, zomwe amakonda, ndipo ndili ndi luso lotha kulankhula ndi zala. Chifukwa chake ndimadzimvera chisoni, ndikuganiza kuti izi zandipatsa njira yapadera yolumikizirana ndi chibwenzi… Monga lamba wodziyera wokha. Mosasamala kanthu, mutha kukhala ndi ubale ndi mkazi woyenera. Ndikutsimikiza kuti pali ena omwe angalekerere amuna ngati chizolowezi choipa ngati sangachite izi ... Chabwino atha kupita kukapeza wina, chifukwa sizoyenera kukhala cholinga chokhacho chokhazikitsa ubale wabwino. Ngati amakukondanidi adzamvetsetsa ndikukhala okonzeka kuthandiza. Thandizo lochokera kwa mkazi limatha kupanga kusiyana konse.
Fellas, khala kutali ndi mankhwalawa. Ndikhulupirireni, ndimakhala pomwepo ndikuyang'ana pazenera ndikuwonanso zovuta zabodza pa intaneti. Osatsata njira imeneyo. Simukusowa, ndipo mungamve ngati Lance Armstrong ngati mungatero. Mukufuna kuti chigonjetso ichi chikhale chanu, osati makampani azamankhwala. Mutha kutero, koma muyenera kukhala olimba mokwanira kuti muthane ndi mawa ndikupeza zomwe zili zanu.
Patapita nthawi yayitali, nditatha masiku a 177 kuchira, popanda chifukwa makamaka ndinafikira pomwe ndidagona usiku womwewo usikuwo. Sizinali zodabwitsa, komanso sizinakhalitse, koma m'mawa mwake ndinaika nkhaniyi ndi m'mawa wachisangalalo. Sungani YEAH! Tsiku la aliyense lidzafika kwa iwo munthawi yake, ndipo mpaka tsikulo liziyang'ana pa zabwino, yang'anani pakukonza nokha, ndikuwonetsetsa kuti simukuzindikiridwa ndi nkhaniyi. Mukuyang'anabe 99% ya thupi lanu komanso 100% ya moyo wanu. Musalole kuti izi zikulemetseni, ndipo chitani zomwe mwamuna weniweni angachite. Tengani zovuta za moyo patsogolo ndipo musayang'ane m'mbuyo. Nditha kukhala pano ndikudandaula nthawi zomwe ndaphonya, kapena kuyang'anitsitsa tsiku lotsatira.
Pano pali chiyanjano kwa ine ndikudandaula za kuchuluka kwa mtundu wa anthu ukuwombera amuna. Ndine munthu aliyense. Chofunika kuwerenga. Nkhani imene munthu uyu analemba inandinyengerera.
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