Miyezi ingapo yapitayi inali yopambana, ndikukuwuzani! Ndinayamba ulendo wonse wa nofap kuzungulira Julayi chaka chatha chifukwa ndinali nthawi inayake pamoyo wanga pomwe ndinkangodzidyetsa ndekha ndipo sindinathe kupirira (ndidachita mantha chifukwa bwenzi langa lapamtima lidandinyenga ndi wakale wanga- chibwenzi kwa miyezi ingapo; amayenera kusamuka chifukwa cha (sankafuna kukhalanso komweko)).
Nditadzipeza ndekha wokhala ndi anzanga omwe ndimakhala nawo ndimangokhalira kudandaula osachita chilichonse koma munthu yemwe anasintha mwachangu patatha milungu / masiku oyamba a nofap. Choyamba ndinayambiranso chizolowezi chophunzirira maphunziro anga ku uni, pambuyo pake ndimangopitiliza, ndipo musanadziwe kuti unali mwezi wathunthu wosakwanitsa kungokhala ndikungodziteteza ndi kuchita zinthu ndi zanga okwatirana atsopano. Ndinatuluka mumtambo wakudzidzimutsa yemwe anali wokondedwa wanga ndikupita patsogolo. Sizinali zophweka chifukwa cha nofap momwe ndimakhudzidwira ndimomwe ndimayendera ndikukwera modzidzimutsa. Mukakula kwa nthawi yayitali mwina mukadakumana ndi zomwezi: simukumva chisoni ndi chilichonse kapena mundilole ndinene motere, mukamakula kwa nthawi yayitali pamangokhala chiwembu chakuda / choyera chokha cha momwe mukumvera mumakhala wabwinobwino kapena wachisoni.
Izi zinali choncho kwa ine, ndipo ndinkangokhala ndi nkhawa. Monga ndidanenera posintha chaka chatha zidandigunda ngati njerwa tani pomwe malingaliro onsewa anali kubwerera mmoyo wanga! Chitsanzo chachangu cha izo; nthawi zina ndimangoima pamenepo pakati pa mseu ndipo ndimayang'ana m'mwamba ndikumwetulira ngati wamisala ndipo nthawi zina ndimangokhala mchipinda mwanga ndikulira ngati kansalu koti ndimve nyimbo yachisoni (ie tom wait - Bronx lullaby).
Kuwonjezera apo, ma tetisterone anga anali kubwerera kuzinthu zachilendo ndipo masiku ena ndimamverera ngati wankhondo wa viking ndi tsitsi langa la nkhope ndipo mwatsoka backhair wanga nayenso anayamba kukula ponseponse. Kuwonjezera pa izi zonse ndinakumana ndi chibwenzi changa tsopano ndipo ndinathamanga kamphiti cha marathon chaka chatha. Zinanditengera maola 2 ndi maminiti a 7 kuti amalize koma zinali zoyenera. Ndinayiwala kutchula kuti ndinayamba kuthamanga chifukwa cha nofap Back in Juli chaka chatha munthu wina amene walemba pano kuti zingakhale bwino kuti muthamange ngati mutakhala pafupi ndi kukongola / kutuluka. Kotero nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndimaganiza kuti ndikuyandikira ndikuyamba kuyenda, ndikuyendetsa kumalo othamanga komanso chifukwa cha kuchuluka kwa dopamine kwanga komwe ndakhala ndi njala ndinkatuluka panja kuti ndimveke / kuthamanga nthawi zambiri.
Miyezi ingapo yapamtima chibwenzi changa chinandithandiza paulendo (chifukwa chowopsya) ndinamuuza za matenda anga komanso kuti ndikuchita masabata osachepera 4 mu ubale wathu watsopano. Anandimvetsa ndipo anandithandiza m'njirayo ndikuthandizira maganizo ndikuvomereza kuti ndiwamasewera.
Chifukwa chake ndimasiku 260 kulowa muvutoli nditha kunena kuti ndachiritsidwa, zomwe sizitanthauza kuti sindimakhala ndikulakalaka nthawi ndi nthawi! Simuli otetezeka, koma mutha kuthana nazo bwino komanso bwino! Posachedwa ndinayesa kwambiri ndikuyang'ana zolaula zomwe ndimakonda koma sizinandisangalatse. Ndinakhala pamenepo ndikungoyang'ana zolaula ndikudziganizira ndekha "Wow you used to fap to this 0.o" Atanena kuti ndikudziwa ochepa fapstronauts ali / anali ndi feteleza zachilendo ndipo nditha kunena m'malo mwanga zanga zatha Pafupifupi masiku 100-130 kukhala zovuta ndipo fetish / es anu nawonso!
China chomwe ndikufuna kuwonjezera ndikuti tsopano ndikhoza kutsatira masiku omaliza ndipo ndimayesetsa kwambiri kukwaniritsa zolinga zanga zomwe sindingathe kuzichita pasanapite nthawi. Chimodzi mwa Zolinga zanga zatsopano chaka chino ndikutenga nawo gawo paudindo wovuta, kuphunzira zambiri ndikukhala nthawi yochulukirapo ndi bwenzi langa komanso anzanga ambiri. Ndikungofuna kukuthokozani chifukwa cha thandizo lanu lonse panjira imeneyi! Maderawa adandithandiza kwambiri ndipo adandipatsa maupangiri ndi zidule 🙂 komanso kwa onse omwe amapanga zatsopano kunja uko, ndikuganiza kuti mutha kutero!
Musalole kuti chilakolako-monster chigonjetse chilakolako chanu ndi malingaliro anu. Ndidzabwezeretsanso pamene ndatsiriza mdima wolimba ndipo ndili chaka changa choyamba pa nofap!
PS Ngati pali Fapstronaut kapena Fapstronaut watsopano yemwe akufuna maupangiri ndi zidule zamomwe angagonjetse zovuta zamasiku 90 ndikufuna kupitiliza PM yekha ndili wokondwa kuthandiza 🙂
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