TL; DR Nofap adandithandiza kuti ndikhale wokhumudwa, ndipeze ntchito yabwino, ndikhale ndi gf yodabwitsa, ndikhululukire ndikuiwala iwo omwe adandibwezera m'mbuyomu. Zikomo kwambiri kwa inu nonse okongola.
Masiku a 90 apitawa sindinkadziwa kuti tsiku lino libwera kapena lingaliro lililonse momwe moyo wanga ungasinthire. Chaka cha 2013 chinandibweretsera zovuta zina. Kuwonongeka kwa ntchito yanga, kumwalira mwadzidzidzi m'banjamo, kuopseza kukakamizidwa kunja, komanso kuperekedwa ndi anzanga omwe ndimaganiza kuti ndingadalire zolemetsa. Mtambo wamphepo wamdani, mkwiyo, ndi kukhumudwa zinanditumiza munthawi yazosangalatsa. Izi sizinali zochitika wamba komanso njira zopewera zachilendo (mowa, mankhwala osokoneza bongo, PMO) zomwe zingathetse mavutowa.
Ndinaganizira za moyo wanga kwa nthawi yayitali ndipo ndinkafunika kuti ndikhale ndi pulani yeniyeni, kuti ndipange njira yobwererera ndipo ndiyenera kudziwiratu. Zomwe ndimafunikira koposa chilichonse chinali kuyendetsa mwamphamvu tsiku lililonse ndikuyamba kuchita zinthu zothandiza kuti ndikhale ndi moyo wabwino. Popeza sindinali wogwira ntchito ndipo ndinali ndi ndalama kubanki sizinali zosavuta kuyesa kumwa zovuta zanga pa bar. Izi ndizomwe zidatsogolera ma hangovers, kudzipatula, kuluma kwa PMO. Sindinadziwe kuchuluka kwake kwa PMO zomwe zikundikhudzira zomwe zinali kundikopa, zomwe zinali zofunika kwambiri ndicholinga changa choti ndibwerere.
Ndinkadziwa kuti ndiyenera kudula zakumwa ndikuyamba kuwongolera mutu wanga ndikuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, kudya bwino komanso kugona mokwanira usiku uliwonse. Pomwe onsewa adathandizira kwambiri, china chake sichinasoweke… China chomwe chimanditengera pamwamba ndikundipatsa mphamvu zowonjezera zomwe ndimafunikira. Ndidakumana mwachidule ndi ena mu / r / nofap koma sindinayang'ane kwenikweni kuti ndiyesere ndekha. Kuwona zam'magulu olimbikitsawa ndikutumiza ntchito zambirimbiri tsiku lililonse kumapeto kwake kunanditsogolera ku nkhani yotchuka ya TED, kufotokozera zowononga za PMO ndi momwe mbadwo wonse wa amuna uli woyamba m'mbiri kukhala ndi kuperewera koperewera kwa mankhwalawa pama intaneti athu othamanga kwambiri.
Mwinanso ndinayamba kusegula ndili ndi zaka 9 kapena zaka zambiri motero sindinasiye (kwa zaka za 20 +). Mosapangana, kutha msinkhu ndi intaneti yothamanga kwambiri zinali zochitika panthawi imodzimodzi pamoyo wanga ndipo PMO ndinangozolowera. Sindingayerekeze kuwonongeka kwa zaka zambiri izi. Asa. Ndikudzifunsa kuti chingachitike ndi chiyani ndikasiya?
Ndinaganiza pamenepo ndipo nditha kuyimitsa ozizira. Masiku XXUMX pambuyo pake ndidapita kuphwando la tsiku lobadwa la abwenzi ndipo ndidamwa zakumwa zingapo. Kubwereranso. SHIT. Izi sizikhala zophweka monga momwe ndimaganizira. Nthawi yowunika / r / nofap ndikuwona zomwe anthu akunena. Kodi ndine ndekha? Kodi pali njira zina zondithandizira kumaliza sabata yoyamba? Kodi ndizoyenera? Inde. Thandizo lilipo. Malangizo oyambira ndi zanzeru zimaperekedwa. Thandizo ndi nkhani kuchokera kwa zikwizikwi za anyamata ena ndi ma gala zimasinthidwa ndi mphindi. Zikuwoneka kuti zimakupatsani mphamvu zapamwamba ... Izi zikuyenera kugwira ntchito nthawi ino.
Ndidayika fyuluta ya K9, kulowa nawo masewera olimbitsa thupi, kuchotsera mafayilo anga onse omwe amachititsa kuti ndiyambirenso kubwereka, ndikuyika baji pa nofap. Makina olimba. Masiku oyambilira anali ovuta. Ndimangoona kujambulanso pa adilesi yanga ndikamalemba kuti "iwe" (za YouTube) ndipo ma URL onse akuda amenewo amatuluka, zomwe zimayambitsa kukakamira kwakukuru ndi zikhumbo. Ngakhale ndi fayilo ya K9 yoyikiratu ndi mawu osungidwa kumalo akutali, ndimadziwa nthawi zonse kuti ndikanatha kutero. Njira yokhayo yopewereranso kuyambiranso inali kutseka kompyuta yoyipayo ndikuchita zina. Makamaka china chake chopanga kapena cholimbitsa thupi monga kuyeseza, kumayendetsa mothamanga kapena kuyenda panja, kumayeseza nyimbo, ndi zina zotere kumatha kusokoneza malingaliro anga ndikukhazikitsa bata. Sungani gehena kutali ndi kompyuta kwakanthawi ndikupanga zoyipa zanu palimodzi. Tsiku limodzi. Zikhala zabwino.
Mudadutsa sabata yoyamba. Zowawa! Zolimbikitsa zamphamvu pakuyesera kugona usiku, zowonera zina zakanema zomwe ndinawonera m'mbuyomu zitha kuchitika tsiku lonse, matabwa a m'mawa kwambiri kuposa kale. Khalani okhazikika ndipo osayambiranso.
Mudadutsa sabata yachiwiri. Eya kuluma! Kumva bwino! Mphamvu, mphamvu yowonjezera yaubongo, yachepetsa nkhawa, kumangika mwamanzere kuti ndi "wamoyo", kuyendetsa zogonana kwamisala. Atsikana akuwoneka kuti amawona kupezeka kwanu kuposa kale. Kukopeka ndi cashier (sakanalimba mtima izi kale) osaganiziranso. Zamkhutu zimasinthasintha komanso zenizeni. Onani momveka bwino pazomwe ndikufuna kuchita ndikuwonetsa bwino momwe ndachokera.
Pakati pa sabata lachiwiri, kuyamba kumverera kinda. Tsiku lotsatira ndi masiku pambuyo pake ndimakhumudwa. WTF? Kodi ena akukumba m'mbali mwa mseu ndipo anapeza "lathyathyathya". Ndizabwinobwino kuti mumve motere, ubongo wanu ukubwera ndi zenizeni kuti sikukutenga kwa dopamine komwe amakhala akuzolowera zaka makumi angapo 2. Apatseni nthawi kuti muganize momwe mungalimbane ndi izi ndipo mutulukamo mukumva bwino kuposa kale.
Pakati sabata lachitatu, zoyipa zopatulika. Flatline. MZIMU WOYERA. Sindinenso inenso, koma mtundu wabwino womwe ndidasintha ndi womwe ndidali nawo kale. Thupi langa lathunthu lidamva zolimba, ndikumwetulira popanda chifukwa chondidziwitsa za moyo wanga wabwino, kuseka kwanga kudali kopanda chikhululukiro, nkhawa sizikupezeka, mphamvu zakuthambo, kulumikizana kolimba ndi mwala, komanso chidwi chomwe ndidalimbikira.
Inali nthawi imeneyi kuti ndinayamba kuyitanitsa mafunso kuchokera kuzomwe ndimatumizira anthu ambiri. Pakalepo ndidakumana ndi mavuto azovuta za anthu. Izi zidakhudza moyo wanga wogonana, moyo wanga wamagulu, maphunziro anga, komanso moyo wa ntchito. Mafunso okambirana za Yobu anali choyenera choyipa chomwe ndimalimbana nacho kwambiri. Aliyense amakhala ndi mantha nthawi yomwe amafunsidwa ntchito koma zovuta zake zimaphatikizika mukamawonjezera nkhawa zakudzikoli zomwe zimadyetsedwa ndi 20 + zaka zakumwa za PMO.
Nthawi iyi kuzungulira kunali kosiyana. Mphamvu zatsopanozi zomwe ndimazimva m'matumbo mwanga zidachotsa nkhawa zonse za mulungu zomwe zandivutitsa kwa nthawi yayitali. Ndidalowa muofesi nditanyamula grin yayikulu kumaso, wokonzekera chilichonse chomwe angandiponyere. Mafunsowo adatenga maola a 2 (motalika!). Mu maora awiri awa sindinamvepo momasuka ndi anthu awiri osawadziwa omwe akundiyendetsa ndi mafunso onse amisala yotsika. Mafunso atatha, onse awiri adandiyankha mwachangu. Amanena zinthu ngati "suwoneka ngati wopanda mantha konse, ukumwetulira kwambiri, umunthu wako ndiwachikondi komanso wopatsa chidwi, uli ndi malingaliro abwino, tasangalala kukumana nanu lero." Kodi ndi ineyo?
Nthawi imeneyi ndidapitanso kwa gigi yomwe gulu la mzanga lidali nawo kumalo ogulitsira wamba. Mtsikana wachinyamata wokongola yemwe adadutsa pafupi adaganiza zolowera nyimboyo. Mphamvu yomweyi yomwe imayaka m'matumbo mwanga idandigogomezera kwa iye, adandiuza kuti ndiyenera kudzidziwonetsa ndekha ndikudziwa kuti nkhani yake ndiyotani. Pambuyo pa chiwonetserochi, ndinamuuza kuti abwere adzasokoneze phwando lomwe ndimadziwa kuti likuchitika mumzinda. Amavomereza mwachidwi ndipo tinali ndi chisangalalo chosangalatsa usiku wonse tikumana anthu ambiri, tikuvina, kuseka, kupanga, kudzuka pafupi ndi nyumba ina iliyonse. Wtf ndakhala?
Ngati apa ndi pomwe ndimangokhala mwezi umodzi muvuto la nofap, zinganditengere pati m'masiku a 90?
Yankho: Ndimayamba ntchito yomwe ndidafunsira mwezi wamawa, pakampani yayikulu yamagalimoto yokhala ndi zabwino zonse zomwe ndimafuna komanso ndili ndi mwayi wabwino wokulira pantchito yanga. Mtsikana yemwe ndakumana naye ndi bwenzi langa tsopano, ndipo akuyamba kukhala wamkulu. Ndakulira kuvomereza ng'ombe zomwe ndidapitilira chaka chatha ndipo ndidaphunzira kwa iwo. Ndakula monga munthu, ngati kuti ndine mwana amene ndakhala ndikulowerera mu masewera andewu anga okhumudwa, okhumudwitsa, okhala ndi nkhawa za PMO. Ndabadwanso. Ndikulimbikitsa abwenzi omwe ndikudziwa kuti akuvutika (koma sangavomereze) izi kuyesa kuyesa. Ndayimirira paphiri kuyang'ana pansi kakhwawa kakang'ono komwe kanali kovuta ndipo ndikudabwa kuti ndikwere bwanji. Sindingathenso kubwerera ku zoyipa izi ndikuseka kumaso kwa zokakamiza zilizonse zomwe zimapangitsa kuti mutu wawo ulimbe.
Sindikadachita izi popanda inu anyamata. Ndawerenga zolemba zanu ndikafuna kudzoza. Ndidalandira upangiri wanu pamene ndimafunikira thandizo kuti musabwerenso. Moyo wanga wasintha kwambiri kuposa chilichonse chomwe ndimayembekezera ndipo mudali ndi gawo lofunikira pa izo. Zikomo kwambiri.
TL; DR Nofap adandithandiza kuti ndikhale wokhumudwa, ndipeze ntchito yabwino, ndikhale ndi gf yodabwitsa, ndikhululukire ndikuiwala iwo omwe adandibwezera m'mbuyomu. Zikomo kwambiri kwa inu nonse okongola.
LINK - Masiku XXUMX. Tithokoze aliyense.
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