Sindinatengepo mwayi wolemba za zomwe zandichitikira masiku a 90, komabe ndimawona ngati achichepere achichepere ali ndi ufulu pazomwe takumana nazo komanso nkhani zathu. Poyamba ndidalowa mgulu la NoFap chifukwa monga ambiri a inu kunja uko ndidazindikira kuti ndili ndi vuto, ndipo ndimafunikira thandizo kuti ndithandizidwe. Sindinabwere kuno kudzadya nawo "chovuta kwambiri".
Ndabwera kuno ndikuzindikira (kapena kudzisintha, sindingakumbukire dzinalo), kusatetezeka, ulesi, komanso kulakalaka atsikana onse omwe akuwona.
Ndinkakonda kukula katatu patsiku, chifukwa poyamba ndimaganiza kuti zinali zachilendo kuyambira pomwe ndimakhala nthawi yanga yambiri pa intaneti ndipo pamakhala mawu akuti "Yankho limakhala inde nthawi zonse", ndipo zinali ponena za kuseweretsa maliseche. Chifukwa chake ndidazisunga pamtima kuyambira ndili mwana ndipo zidangokhala nane mpaka pomwe ndimaganiza kuti "Bwanji sindingakane".
Ndidamva zamphamvu zamphamvu komanso nkhani zakubwera kuledzera, ndidasambitsidwa ubongo ndikuwuzidwa kuti kusiya kuseweretsa maliseche kungandipangitse kukhala munthu wangwiro yemwe ndakhala ndikufuna kukhala, kenako ena. Ngakhale ndi nkhanizi zonse zinali zovuta mwamisala, chifukwa ngakhale ndimazikonda kapena ayi sindinali wokonzeka kuzisiya. Sindingaganize zopitilira moyo wanga wonse popanda kuseweretsa maliseche zomwe ndikudziwa kuti ambiri mwadutsa. Kotero ndinakhala wodzipereka mwachinyengo ndi nofap ndipo ndinalalikira kwa anzanga momwe kuseweretsa maliseche kunali koopsa popita ndi 1 - 2 sabata steaks musanabwererenso. Ndimakumbukirabe ngati chovuta.
Pambuyo pa miyezi yambiri ndikulimbana ndikulowa m'maganizo omwe angandilole kuthana ndi maliseche ndinatenga njira yolondola ndikudziuza kuti sizinali zovuta, inali njira yamoyo. Ndipo ndiroleni ine ndikuuzeni inu chinachake, nditatha kuganiza kuti izo zangokhala zosavuta. Ndipo nditangotsala pang'ono kuyamba mayendedwe anga ndimaganiza "Ndili pa tsiku lachiwiri lokha, nditha kuyambiranso mawa osazindikira chilichonse." Koma mukudziwa chiyani? Ndinali ndikudziuza ndekha kuti kwa nthawi yayitali ndipo ndimadziwa kuti sindingafike kulikonse ndi malingaliro amenewo. Kenako masiku adasanduka masabata opanda maliseche. Zinanditengera milungu ingapo kuti ndivomereze ndikulimbikitsidwa. Ndiye zolimbikitsazo zinayamba kutaya mphamvu zambiri pa ine. Mpaka mozungulira tsiku la 2 - 30, pomwe zolimbikitsazo zidalibe. Ndinali ndi vuto lalifupi ndikukhumudwa ndipo ndimaganiza kuti ndingathe kuseweretsa maliseche popeza sizimamveka ngati kuti zimathandizira panthawiyo, kenako ndinakumbukira kukhumudwa komwe ndidamva nditabwereranso pamwezi wa 40 ndikuipiraipira zinali kuposa zomwe ndimamva panthawiyo. Ndinkalimbana ndipo masiku okhawo omwe ndimaganiza zodziseweretsa maliseche anali m'masiku angapo apitawa ndisanafike tsiku-1, osati chifukwa ndimafuna kuseweretsa maliseche koma ndikuyembekezera kugunda tsiku 90.
Tsopano ine tsopano kuti ambiri a inu mukufuna kumva zabwino zomwe ndakhala ndikukuuzani: Kugonana sikunalamulire moyo wanga, ndikutha kuwona zithunzi za atsikana achigololo omwe si atsikana anga ndikuzinyalanyaza (Ndikumva zachilendo pamene Ndimawawona choncho ndimawapewa), ndili pafupi ndi bwenzi langa, ndatha chikondi changa choyamba, ndili wolimba mtima, ndilibe chifunga cham'mutu, ndipo sindipereka ulemu wonse nofap chifukwa cha izi koma ndimagwira bulu wanga, ndimatenga makalasi a 9, ndili ndi olemba usitikali angapo omwe akuwayang'anira ndikudikirira (pepani asitikali ankhondo, ndikupita kukayang'anira gulu lankhondo), ndimagwira ntchito ndi gulu la mpira ndikulamulira, ndili ndi anzanga ndipo ndimayang'ana kwambiri kupambana kwakanthawi m'malo mokhutira kwakanthawi (osati kuseweretsa maliseche kokha, koma kumwa ndi zina zotere), zidandithandiza kusiya kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo (osati udzu, ndimachita zoyipa ngati cocaine ndi molly pamapwando, tsopano sindilola ngakhale anthu amanyamula mbale m'galimoto yanga chifukwa sindikufuna kukhala pafupi nayo).
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