Zaka 18 - Mbali iliyonse ya moyo wanga ndi yabwinoko.

Tsiku langa la 90. Ndine 100% osati munthu m'modzi yemwe ndinali masiku 90 apitawo. Osati kuti ndine wina aliyense, koma kuti ndapukutidwa ngati munthu kuti musandilakwitse chifukwa cha omwe ndinali masiku 90 apitawa.

Izi zikufanana ndi munthu amene ali ndi dothi lokhala ndi miyala yamtengo wapatali. Pambuyo pochotsa dothi lonselo pano ndimangokhala mwala wamtengo wapatali, nthawi zonse ndimakhala mwalawu koma palibe amene anganene kuti "umenewo ndi mwala" amakhoza kunena kuti "umenewo ndi mulu waukulu wa dothi, ndimabetcha mkati mwake ndi dothi kwambiri. ”

Mbali iliyonse ya moyo wanga ndiyabwino. Sindidzapanganso mbiri ya moyo wanga popeza ndalemba kale m'mabuku am'mbuyomu (chonde werengani ngati mukumva ngati mutha kundimva) koma kwenikweni ndine mwana wazaka 18 yemwe ndimakonda zolaula za 10 zaka, inde ndinayamba kuonera zolaula ndili ndi 8 koma sindikuganiza kuti ndinali wokonda masewerawa mpaka kusekondale.

Tsopano ndili ku koleji ndipo ndimachita bwino m'makalasi anga. Osati zabwino kwambiri koma ndichifukwa choti makalasiwo ndi ovuta (ndili ndi AA yanga kotero ndikuchita maphunziro anga a BS, ndine wamkulu wa sayansi). Ndimachita mantha ndikaganiza momwe moyo wanga wakale umakhalira pakadali pano. Kwa BI iliyonse yomwe ndikufika pano ndiyenera kuyika katatu kuchuluka kwa nthawi. Utsi wamaubongo tsopano ukukwezedwa. Zinali zolimba kwambiri kotero sindinadziwe kuti ndimakhala ndi chifunga chaubongo mpaka tsiku lina 60.

Ndizovuta kufotokoza ndendende zomwe zili koma nditha kupereka chitsanzo chabwino. Nthaŵi zambiri pamene ndimayesera kusiya ndinkatha kunena kuti zolaula sizinali zabwino kwa ine. Nditha kufika yankho lotsimikizika kuti sindiyenera kuyang'ana zolaula. Komabe nthawi zambiri ngakhale ndimafika pa yankho ili ndimatha kuwonera zolaula nthawi zonse. Nthawi yonse yomwe ndimaganiza kuti "Ndikadangodziwa kuti izi ndi zoipa".

Ndikanakhala ndikuyang'ana yankho langa pamaso koma zolaula zikanatha kupambana. Monga ngati kusayenerera kunali ndi ulamuliro wambiri m'mutu mwanga kuposa momwe zimakhalira. Tsopano ndikutha kuona kuti zolaula ndizoipa ndikuzindikira pamene mutu wanga ukupita kumalo amenewa. Asanayambe ngakhale nditatha kuzindikira, panalibe zambiri zomwe ndingathe kuchita. Ndikhoza kuvala mabakiteriya tsopano ngati ndikumvetsa ndikuganiza za izi ndikupitirizabe kuzinthu zina.

Chifunga cha ubongo sichimadziwika kwenikweni kotero kuti mutha kungozizindikira zitatha. Ndikuganiza kuti chinthu chabwino kwambiri chomwe ndidapeza kuchokera pano ndikuti moyo wamba ndiwosangalatsa. Mukandifunsa momwe ndimakhalira nthawi iliyonse patsiku nditha kukupatsani yankho labwino chifukwa nthawi zonse ndimakhala wokhutira kapena wokondwa. Ndimadzidalira. Sindimaganiziranso ndekha mwa malingaliro a anthu ena, ndimangochita zinthu momwe ndikufuna kuchitira tsopano.

Ponseponse ndimadzaza ndi moyo. Ndikunena kuti izi ndizofunika kwambiri pakusungidwa kwa umuna, osayang'ana zolaula, ndi qi gong. Khungu langa likuwala, maso anga ali amoyo ndikuwala, tsitsi langa ndi lofewa komanso losalala. Chinthu chimodzi chofunikira chomwe ndikufuna kunena ndikuti kumapeto kwa tsiku iyi ndi njira yamoyo basi. Kudziletsa. Zomwe zimapangitsa zolaula ndizosavuta chifukwa ndizosavuta kuzolowera, ndipo mukayamba 'kuzolowera' zimayamba kutsika mwachangu. Sindingayang'anenso zolaula, zimangotulutsa ma binges.

Komabe ndikudziwa tsopano momwe kufunikira ndikofunikira. Izi zidakhudza mbali zambiri m'moyo wanga. Ndimagwiritsa ntchito mankhwala pang'ono pang'ono tsopano (udzu, bowa) m'malo mozigwiritsa ntchito ndikamabowola kumapeto kwa sabata (udzu wokha, bowa ndizosachedwa). Porn zimakopabe koma ndizochepa poyerekeza ndi kale. Ndisanaponderezedwe ndi zovuta zomwe ndikulakalaka ndikupereka. Tsopano zili ngati kukoka komwe mumangonyalanyaza. Nditha kuchitira akazi moona mtima ngati abwenzi tsopano m'malo mongoganiza kuti ndi za chibwenzi kapena kugonana. Ndimakonda kwambiri banja langa tsopano. Sindikukhulupirira kuti kale ndinali wakhungu koma banja langa limatanthauzadi kanthu kwa ine tsopano. Zolingalira zanga zafika pamlingo watsopano.

Pambuyo pa zaka 10 ndikugwiritsa ntchito, zaka 2 zoyesera kusiya, ndi masiku 90 ogwiritsa ntchito zonse zomwe ndaphunzira. Ndine womasuka. Pepani positi iyi siyokonzedwa monga awiri omaliza. Koma sindikuganiza kuti ndingathe kufotokoza momwe moyo wanga wasinthira kukhala mawu. Ndikhoza kungokupatsani kumverera kwakukulu. Khalani anyamata olimba, pachiyambi pomwe ndimafunikira zolimbikitsidwa pafupifupi tsiku lililonse, zinali nkhani zopambana zomwe zimandilimbikitsa.

Ichi ndiye chinthu chovuta chomwe ndidayenera kuchita m'moyo wanga. Musaganize kuti ichi ndi chidutswa cha keke ndikuleka monga momwe ndinachitira. Ndikukhulupirira kuti nditha kuthandiza munthu m'modzi kuti achite izi. Tsopano cholinga changa ndikulima samadhi (taoism) ndipo zitha kutenga masiku ena 100. Malangizo anga kwa aliyense amene akukumana ndi izi. .Idzatero kukhala bwino, wopusa ndi aliyense amene amaganiza mwanjira ina. Bwererani pambuyo polephera ndipo onetsetsani kuti ndiwomaliza, kubwereza pakufunika. Khalani olimbikitsidwa ndipo PALIBE khalani osamala

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