Zaka 18 - Ndimadabwitsidwa komanso kudabwitsidwa ndikusintha kwa moyo komwe ndawona

Masiku a 93 apitawa ndimangoganiza za tsiku la 90, ndimomwe zingakhalire zabwino kukhala nditakonzanso zonse ndikubwerera ndikujambula.

Lero, patsiku 93 zomwe ndimangoganizira ndikupeza nyenyezi yanga yofiirira, kenako chombo changa cha roketi m'masiku 272. Ndine wodabwitsidwa komanso wodabwitsidwa ndikusintha kwamoyo komwe ndakuwona kuchokera kungoyang'ana kuchokera pazenera ndikuchotsa zomwe ndakhala ndikuchita kwa zaka 5. Sindinazindikire kuti limameza nthawi yayitali bwanji, ndipo limandipangitsa kukhala munthu wamtundu wanji. Zandipanga kukhala munthu yemwe anthu akasankha ena kuti awonere zolaula kwambiri, kapena ine, sindimva chisoni, chifukwa sindimayang'ana kapena MO. Zandipangitsa kuzindikira kuti moyo ndi wabwino bwanji ndipo pali zambiri zoti ndichite.

tldr; munthu yekhayo amene akukhala ndi moyo wanu, ndiye musiyeni kuonera zolaula

LINK - Masiku a 93 apitawa ndimangoganiza za tsiku la 90.

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ZOTHANDIZA ZOYAMBIRA - Nkhani yanga, pamapeto pake. (Kutsutsa ndi mayankho olandirika)

Ndili ndi zaka 18, ndipo ndine PMO wokonda (inde, onse). Onsewa akhala akusangalala kwambiri kwa ine kuposa mankhwala aliwonse kapena apamwamba. Kuthamangitsidwa kwa dopamine kwa P nthawi zonse kumakhala kosagonjetseka, ndipo kukhutira kwa MO nthawi zonse kumakhala kodabwitsa. Koma nthawi zonse ndimadzimva wonyansa. Kudzichitira manyazi. Wokhumudwa, ngakhale. Maganizo abwino akangopita, chatsalira ndi chiyani? Palibe. Palibe chinthu chimodzi. Zachabechabe ndi manyazi. Nditayamba izi sindinkafuna kuvomereza kuti ndinali woledzera, ndimangoyesera kufuna. Koma izi zandipangitsa kuti ndizindikire osati chizolowezi changa chokha cha MO, komanso chizolowezi changa cha P. Monga munthu yemwe wakhala akuyang'ana P kuyambira zaka 12, komanso MO kuyambira zaka 13, ndine wokonda kale. Ndipo ndi koyambirira kwambiri m'moyo wanga. Nditayamba kusiya pafupifupi sabata yoyamba. Zinali zosavuta. Sabata yachiwiri inali bwino. Tsopano ndili pa sabata lachitatu ndipo posachedwapa ndakhala ndikukhumudwa, kotero palibe chilichonse choti ndichite, ndipo ZIMAKHALA ZABWINO KUYANG'ANIRA. Zili ngati tsiku ndi tsiku ndikungowononga nkhondo pakati pamaganizidwe anga ndi dick. Ndipo ndakhala ndikupeza zabwino zakudzidalira komanso kudzisamalira, koma sizikundiletsa. Ayi konse. Ndikulimbikitsabe PMO. ngakhale ndakhala ndikuyankhulana bwino ndi amayi, ndikusangalala ndi moyo, ndikupeza zosangalatsa zatsopano, ndikugwira ntchito mwachangu, ndimangofuna. Ndili pamavuto pakadali pano, ndikufuna kuyambiranso zonse ndikuyembekeza kuti ndichotse chizolowezi ichi. Nthawi zonse ndimangokhala ndi zibwenzi zogonana. Ndipo ndikuyembekeza. Ndikukhulupirira kuti izi zisintha izi. Ndikuganiza kuti ndadzichepetsera, chifukwa ndimakhala gung-ho za NoFap, koma posachedwa sindinakhale ndi chidwi chochepa.