Ndinazindikira zolaula ndili ndi zaka 12, ndipo ndili ndi zaka 14 ndimakonda kuwona zolaula ndikuchita maliseche nthawi zina mpaka 6 patsiku, koma kangapo kamodzi kapena kawiri. Sindinaganize kuti ndili mwana kuti zingandikhudze, kwenikweni ndikuganiza kuti ndichilingo chachilengedwe chomwe chiyenera kufufuzidwa pang'ono.
Komabe, zitatha zaka za 4 kapena 5 zolaula tsiku ndi tsiku ndidapeza usiku wina kuti ndili ndi vuto nditakhala 19.
Ndidabweretsa msungwana kuchipinda changa koyamba titakhala tonse tili ndi mowa, zinthu zidayamba kuchitika, zovala zidatayidwa… .koma sindinathe kulimba. Ziribe kanthu zomwe ndidachita, kuganiza kapena kuyesa, sindinathe kuzimva. Sindinadziwe zomwe zidachitika, ndinali wokhumudwa ndipo msungwanayo adakhumudwa kuti anene zochepa. Adati, "Wasweka." Koma moona mtima ndimaganiza kuti ndichifukwa chakumwa mowa, mwina ndimayembekeza. Yendani miyezi ingapo ndipo pamapeto pake ndidakhala ndi ubale wokhazikika ndi munthu yemwe sanali wachipembedzo.
Pambuyo pa masabata angapo tidayesetsa kuchita zogonana, kuvala, kupsompsona kwambiri ndi zina zonsezo, komabe sindinakhale wovuta. Kumbukirani kuti ndimayang'anabe zolaula nthawi zonse ndipo sindinaganizirepo. Mosakayikira ndinasokonezeka kwambiri. Ndinakayikira za kugonana kwanga, malingaliro anga anali osokonezeka ndipo ndinakhumudwa. Sindinathe kusangalatsa chibwenzi changa ndipo sindimadziwa chifukwa chake. Ndidayamba kupeza Viagra ndikuwerenga chilichonse chomwe ndingathe kuti ndithandizire. Pambuyo pa mabuku angapo, ndi maola ambiri akusaka pa intaneti, ndidazindikira kuti zinali chabe zaminyewa zanga. Kotero ine ndi bwenzi langa tinayeseranso, ndipo mobwerezabwereza mobwerezabwereza ndipo mosalephera ndinalephera. Zikomo mulungu ndapeza mtsikana yemwe amandithandiza modabwitsa komanso amaganizira. Ndinakambirana naye zambiri, ndipo ngakhale iye anali atayamba kuchitapo kanthu.
Ndinaganiza, izi sizingapitirire kwamuyaya, ndipo sindimadziwa choti ndichite. Ndapeza subreddit iyi, ndipo geez imatha kubwera posachedwa. Ndidawerenga zonse pano ndi zolemba zambiri. Pambuyo pake ndinaganiza zoyamba NoFap. Sizinachitike mpaka nditapeza subreddit iyi pomwe ndidazindikira kuti sindinali kuvutikira panthawi yophuka, kapena matabwa am'mawa kapena kukhala ndimayendedwe akugonana. Ndinayamba kusiya kukula ndikusiya kuonera zolaula zozizira. Sindingathe kufotokoza chifukwa chake koma sindinakhale ndi vuto kusiya zolaula, chikhumbo changa choti sichinapezekenso, ndimangozichita mwachizolowezi. Ndinasiya kuonera zolaula, koma sindinathe kusiya kwathunthu.
Sindikutanthauza kukokera izi, koma sindinayang'ane zolaula pafupifupi miyezi 4 tsopano ndipo boner wanga wabwerera! Tsopano ndimatha kugonana nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndikufuna, ndipo ndimangoyang'ana mosaganizira mwana wanga wamkazi, kugonana kwanga kwabwerera! Ndipo zonsezi zidachitika ndikukula nthawi zonse, osangokhala zolaula. Sindinamvepo bwino m'moyo wanga, ndikukhala otetezeka ndi ine kuposa tsopano. Ndinali m'malo amdima pomwe ndimalephera kuchita zachiwerewere, pali zovuta zambiri kwa anyamata kuti achite. Tsopano popeza ndimatha kuchita bwino ndikamasangalala ndimakhala womasuka komanso wokhutira ndi ubale wanga.
Nthawi yoyambiranso inali pafupi yolondola, masiku a 120 kapena motero zinanditengera (ngakhale ndikungopeka mwachizolowezi). Ndinkangofuna kulimbikitsa omwe ali ndi mavuto ofanana ndi anga kuti pali kutha kumapeto kwa ngalande, ndipo tsiku lililonse mudzakhala tsiku limodzi kukhala munthu amene mukufuna kukhala.
TL; DR: Palibe zolaula. Boner wamkulu.
Khalani achibale amphamvu.
LINK - Kwa anyamata achichepere omwe ali ndi ED: Si kuseweretsa maliseche, ndi zolaula.
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