Hei anyamata, zakhala zikuyenda bwino. Ndipo paulendowu ndalimbana ndi PIED, HOCD, komanso kukhumudwa pang'ono / nkhawa. Koma iyi ndi nkhani yopambana, chifukwa chake ngati muli ndi ena mwamavuto omwe ali pamwambapa ndipo mukufuna kuti mumve zoyeserera, werenganibe!
Ndiyamba ndi mbiri yakumbuyo. Ine, monga ambiri a inu kunja uko, ndinayamba kuonera zolaula ndikuzichita maliseche ndidakali aang'ono kwambiri (mwina mozungulira 11? 12?). Ndili ndi zaka 19 tsopano, ndipo ndiyeneranso kutchula kuti ndine wolunjika. Mwina ndikadakhala wofunitsitsa kudziwa kwakanthawi, koma ndimva kuti ndizofala ndipo kwa zonse zomwe ndikudziwa, chikadakhala chizindikiro cha HOCD. Komabe. Zolaula zanga zidayamba kukhala zachilendo / vanila, zithunzi za azimayi amaliseche, mawere (ndipo pamapeto pake ndimayamba kusuta ndikakhwima pang'ono, haha) ndi zina zotero. / zolaula kwa masiku pafupifupi 50 ozizira ngati kuyesa. Nthawi yonseyi ndimakhala ndikuseweretsa maliseche kamodzi patsiku, koma nthawi zambiri ndimadzipeza ndimachita 2-4 patsiku! Nthawi yonse yowonera zolaula, zolaula zanga zidakulirakulira ... Ukapolo wambiri, zigololo, zigawenga, azikhalidwe zamtundu wina komanso zosamveka, kumapeto kwa zolaula zanga, zomwe ndimangowonera zinali zolaula za amuna kapena akazi okhaokha kuti zikhale zovuta zokwanira kuseweretsa maliseche, ndi amangokhala olimba ndikumaonera ... Mosakayikira, izi zinali zosautsa.
Chabwino, tiyeni tiwone zomwe ndakumana nazo zogonana. Ndinali ndi zaka 19 ndikuyamba kuyunivesite. Ndinakumana ndi mtsikana ndipo tinayandikira ndipo ndinali nditayamba kupita kunyumba kwake kukacheza usiku. Ndinali namwali komanso watsopano kwa akazi ambiri ndipo chifukwa cha izi ndimakonda kwambiri msungwana uyu (yemwe samamvanso chimodzimodzi za ine) nthawi yomweyo. Mwanjira iliyonse, tinakhala "abwenzi ndi zabwino". Nthawi yoyamba yomwe adayesa kuyambitsa chiwerewere, sindinkavutikira konse ... Amawoneka wosokonezeka ndipo mwachidziwikire ndinali wokhumudwa ngati fuck. Ananditsimikizira kuti sindine ndekha amene zachitika izi ndi zina zotero. Kotero nthawi zingapo zotsatira tinayesa kugonana, zinagwira ntchito, ndinataya unamwali wanga, komabe zosankha zanga zinali zofooka (70%?) Ndipo sindinatero cum. Nthawi zonse. Izi zinali zosokoneza, popeza tinadyetsedwa nkhani zosangalala mwala komanso zisokonezo zachiwiri za 14 titataya unamwali… Komabe, tidagonana usiku wina (zomwe zikanakhala nthawi yotsiriza, pomwe adapeza chibwenzi pambuyo pake) ndipo nthawi ino sindinathe kuvutikira konse, ngakhale anali kuyesetsa kwambiri. Ndimamva ngati zoyipa. Osokonezeka. Wokhumudwa. Ndikukaikira zakugonana kwanga. "Chifukwa chiyani kupsompsonana sikundisangalatsa konse?" Ndimaganiza. Ndimaganiza kuti mwina ndimagonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, chifukwa zolaula zokhazokha ndizomwe zimanditembenuza masiku amenewo.
Miyezi ingapo idadutsa ndipo zolaula ndi maliseche zinapitiliza.
Kenako ndidapeza YBOP, HOCD, Nofap, Pornfree ... Ndipo zonse zasintha ...
Ndinadziwa zomwe ndimayenera kuchita. Ndinasiya zolaula ndi maliseche ozizira osabwereranso kwa masiku 50 ngati kuyesa. Munthawi imeneyo ndimakhala ndi zilakolako zamisala zogonana, kufupikitsa, kukhumudwa, kuzunzidwa kenako ndikusintha. Ndinayamba kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi ndi nthawi yowonjezerayi, ndikuwona azimayi enieni, ndikumverera pang'ono pagulu. Koma sindine munthu wodekha. Zotsatira zidayamba kutsetsereka patatha masiku pafupifupi 30. Mitengo yam'mawa inali itabwerera, ndimatha kupeza zovuta zonse kuchokera kukakhudza ndi zina zambiri. Kotero tsiku la 50, ndinaganiza kuti kuseweretsa maliseche sikunali vuto. Vutoli linali lodzetsa maliseche chifukwa cha kupsinjika (mukapanikizika mumatha kuseweretsa maliseche ngakhale osakhala owopsa) komanso kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula. Kotero ine ndinakula. Ndipo chinali chaulemerero. Chinthu chokha chomwe ndimayenera kuganizira kuti ndiyambe ndikudziwikitsa. Palibe zozizwitsa. Zomwe zinachitikira zokha. HOCD yanga inapita ndi nthawi. Ndabwerera mwakale mu dipatimentiyi, koma kukhala ndi zolaula ndi gawo lofunikira kwambiri. PIED mwachidziwikire apita. Ngati ndingakhale ndi ED ndi mkazi kachiwiri, ndikudziwa kuti ndikungokhala ndi nkhawa hahaha. Ndipo kupsinjika ndi nkhawa nazonso zimazimiririka pang'onopang'ono.
Mwachidule: Chitani nofap kuti muthandizire zolaula. Ndiye mukangopita kanthawi, mumabwereranso nkhuni zam'mawa, zosunthika kuchokera pakukopa kwamanja popanda zongopeka, yambiraninso. Ndibwino kwa inu, ingochitani pang'ono. NDIPO POPANDA POLO. Chinsinsi cha kuchita bwino pano.
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