Masiku a 90 olimba komanso akupitabe, zikomo zonse kwa inu anyamata!
Chifukwa chake, maziko.
Nkhani yabwino pano, namwali wazaka za 20, kumenya maliseche tsiku lililonse mpaka zinthu zowoneka bwino kwambiri. Kuzungulira kwamilandu, kupewa kucheza ndi anthu, osakhala ndi chidwi chochita china chilichonse koma kungosangalatsa.
Zinayamba ndili wachichepere, ndimasewera ndekha kuyambira ndili 8/9, koma osachita chiwerewere mpaka nditakwanitsa zaka 12. Pambuyo pake chidakhala chinthu chamadzulo, ndipo kuchokera pamenepo kupita kangapo usiku. Posakhalitsa, ndinapeza kuti sindingagone popanda kukula. Ndikadazindikira kuti linali vuto nthawi imeneyo, koma ndidachititsidwa khungu ndikukhala wachinyamata ndipo malingaliro akuti 'maliseche ndi achilengedwe / otetezeka kwa aliyense'. Atha kukhala ena, koma sindine. Sindikutsimikiza ngati ndidakumanapo ndi zovuta zina munthawi ino, popeza ndinali wachinyamata ndipo ndimakhala wopanda nkhawa ndi ena. Ndikutsimikiza kuti kukula kwake sikunathandize.
Pitani patsogolo ku 2010 ndipo ndikupita ku Yunivesite. Chipinda changa changa, laputopu yanga, kukhala ndekha paliponse pomwe ndimafuna. Kuphatikiza koyipa. Pasanapite nthawi ndinadzipeza ndikutsika pansi pa dzenje la kalulu (ndipo ndinali kale pansi). Zoipa zanga zinali (ndipo sindinawuzekopo aliyense za izi kale): shemales, webcamming, cum kudya malangizo, autofellatio ndi trawling craigslist masamba fantasizing.
Gawo Lachiwiri: Protagonist apeza Kuwala kwake Kowongolera
Kalelo anali waulesi, wopanda chinyengo ndipo amakhoza kuchita chilichonse chondipangitsa kuti ndizingolankhula. Izi zimaphatikizapo kusiya abwenzi mu ola lawo lakufunika, kupewa aliyense zochitika zawo ndikunyalanyaza masiku akubadwa a abale awo. Izi zimasemphana ndi yemwe ndimafuna kukhala, ndipo koposa zonse, yemwe ndimaganiza kuti ndine. Pang'ono za ine pano: Ndimapewa kudzisangalatsa, sindimamwa, sindidya nyama, ndimasinkhasinkha pafupipafupi ndikuyenda ulendo uliwonse wosakwana ma mile anayi (Ndikumveka ngati chikwama chonyamulira ndikamalemba chonchi ...) *. Kalelo, ndimadzikhulupirira kuti ndine wophunzira, wodziletsa komanso wodziletsa koma, moona mtima, izi sizingakhale kupitilira pa chowonadi. Kudzikuza chabe komwe kumabwera ndikukula kwakanthawi.
Pitani ku Meyi 2012. Ndikupeza NoFap.
Nthawi yomweyo ndinalumphira molunjika ndi baji ndipo ndinatsimikiza kuti ndikuyenda mseuwu mosavuta. Patatha masiku 8, ndidazindikira kuti izi sizophweka momwe zimawonekera.
Ndabwereranso ndikuganiza kawiri kuyambira pamenepo. Kamodzi patangotha masiku awiri okha komanso kamodzi m'ma 2.
Nditayambiranso tsiku la 20, ndinayenda mtunda wautali. Ma 43 mamailosi, ma 13 maola.
Ndinazindikira pakuyenda komwe sikunali kofunika kwenikweni. Sindinakhulupirire kuti zinali zovuta. Sindinakhulupirire kuti ndinali wosuta.
Chifukwa chake ndidadzikakamiza, ndidakhala nthawi yayitali ndikudziwikitsa kuti kuwonjezeka ndikundipweteka, ndipo kunena zowona, ndikuganiza kuti ichi ndiye fungulo. Simungaphunzire mayeso ngati mukuganiza kuti palibe vuto lililonse ndipo simungaphunzitse mpikisano wothamanga ngati mukuganiza kuti ndiyenda paki. Muyenera kudziwa ziwanda zanu m'njira zake zonse kuti muzitha kuzizindikira paliponse pomwe zingasonyeze.
Ulendo Wobwerera Kwawo Nomad
Zachidziwikire, awa sanali mathero a kulimbana kwanga. Ndimakumanabe ndi vuto latsiku ndi tsiku lowonera, mipira yabuluu, pafupi ndi malingaliro osalamulirika. Chimodzi mwazomwe ndimakumbukiranso mobwerezabwereza chinali chowonekera bwino pa tsamba la Chrome incognito pomwe ndimalemba zilembo zamalo omwe ndimakonda zolaula mu bar ya URL. Icho chinali chodabwitsa…
Ndakhala ndikuwongolera izi munjira zanthawi zonse: mvula yozizira, kuthamanga, kutuluka mnyumba etc.
How I am now: - Kwa miyezi iwiri yapitayi ndakhala ndikuyenda pafupi tsiku lililonse
- Ndakhala ndikumwa madzi ozizira ngati nkhani. Khungu lofewa komanso kutsitsimuka kwakale chisanachitike 🙂
- Ndimakhala masiku aliwonse a 2, ndikukankha 3 iliyonse.
- Mwadzidzidzi, ndimasamala za mawonekedwe anga. Ndimasamala za zomwe atsikana amaganiza za ine. Ndakhala ndikupita kumaphwando ndikulankhula ndi atsikana. Wakale ine sakanakhala konse, akanachita konse izo.
- Ndimakhudzidwanso. Ichi ndi chimodzi mwazinthu zofunika kwambiri kwa ine. Pomwe ndinali loboti yamiyala, ndimatha kumva ndikumvera chisoni anthu tsopano. Zili ngati kukhala munthu kachiwiri.
- Pomwe ndimangoganiza zakukula ndikudandaula kuti anthu azindikira izi, nditha kunena zomwe zili m'maganizo mwanga tsopano. Ndimamva kukhala womasuka.
- Ndine zambiri pakadali pano. Kunyada kwanga kosalekeza kwatsika kwambiri.
Awa sindiwo Mapeto
Inde, sindichiritsidwa kwathunthu. Ndipo sindinganene kuti kusanja kokha kwachiritsa chilichonse. NoFap yangondipatsa kumene kuyesera kuti ndidzisinthe. Ndili ndi moyo patsogolo panga pano, ndipo kupita patsogolo komwe ndapanga mpaka pano mwina sikungokhala pamlingo wazinthu.
Koma kupita patsogolo pang'onopang'ono sikuyenera kusiya. Simusiya buku lalitali pambuyo pa tsamba loyamba.
Sindikudziwa kuti ndasintha motani mpaka pano, koma ndikudziwa kuti malingaliro anga asintha. Izi ndizofunikira kuti ndipitirize ulendowu.
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